u/DrowsyDaydream

Does a filmmaker's personal ideologies, beliefs, and life experiences influence a movie to a certain extent, What are some examples from the Indian context?

I am absolutely unsure and unclear about my identity. At times when I am in a social setting, I feel like a fraud. Ever since I was a child I have lied to everyone about who I was. If you were to ask me anything related to myself, my preferences for example I would go blank and say something but later realise that it was wrong. I tried boxing myself into archetypes but constantly switched them also. There were few years of my life in which I would heavily copy personality of those who I thought were socially successful only to be caught and ridiculed later. I have no sense of self awareness even at the present moment I am having trouble in putting my current situation to words. I have always moulded myself to fit in groups and show myself as someone who i am not to avoid being left out. I am complexed, awkward and good for nothing.

Ever since i was a child, i have always wondered how do people read up those entire fat textbooks when they take up a professional course like Medicine or Law, i have even seen people own volume of those textbooks.