Doubting my parents support
Long rant sry!
For context im a 17 yr old ftm. I came out to my mom and her bf about 5 months ago, my mom was really shocked when i first came out since she thought i was just a butch lesbian (which to be fair isnt far off because of how I look pre-T) and she has seemed to take it well but I know shes struggling. Shes always let me express myself outwardly through clothes and haircuts and I trust them both but im also questioning their "support". Theyve done all the right steps like calling me he/him, getting me binding tape and a binder, packers, haircuts, clothes, etc. But as of lately the topic between us has been diy hrt. Shes allowing me to go forward with it since I do have my own funds to do so and has been somewhat helping me kn the sidelines. Shes always been sort of a helicopter parent not in a overwhelming way but shes always stressed something is going to happen to me. While doing her own research in the beginning she went down a rabbit hole of misinformation and the myths surrounding hrt and i had to gently correct and redirect her and it hasnt been a issue since. Now im fine with having to correct her but now shes stressed about me being ripped off buying T or it being laced etc etc. Im beginning to have a short fuse and i get its a huge change but I feel very very fucking alone. Ive been getting almost all of the info myself from hrt forums and reaching out to people in dms to get recommendations for places to buy from. I feel like she doesnt trust me. Ive sent her the link for the https://diyhrt.info/ and since its not founded by "medical professionals" or "doctors" its apparently sketchy. Im very aware of the risks of hrt just a heads up. She also is very adamant that i dont order anything without her knowing even once i turn 18 (in relation to buying T itself) and i feel very micromanaged. Ill hopefully be buying the T vials within the next 2 weeks im just hoping she doesnt change her mind because of the type of stuff her and her bf have been saying in "concern" for me.
I guess what im asking at the end of all of this is if any of your kids have done diy or gone through hrt was this the sort of reaction you had and is it normal?
I really just want to feel like myself idk how much longer I can do this.