This feeling is horrible!!!

Probably the biggest thing keeping me from transitioning is the thought of how much it would hurt my parents and grandparents. I know they would be really upset, and I hate the idea of being the reason they feel that way.

My family has always been against anything related to being transgender. What they don’t know is that I’ve been dealing with these feelings my entire life. I can’t completely blame them. I bet it’s hard to understand unless you’re going through it.

I have a really good relationship with my family, and it would be heartbreaking to them and me

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u/Due_Celebration_9108 — 5 days ago

I just needed to rant…

I just turned 24 a couple months ago. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a girl. I can’t help being jealous of pretty girls. It’s honestly hard to explain, but I’m so upset that I never got to experience growing up like that. I’ve buried these feelings for as long as I can remember.

I grew up in a really conservative family, and I have a great relationship with my parents, but I’ve just never really been happy with myself. I’m scared of becoming any more masculine than I already am. I hate that I went through puberty. I’m tall and broad, and it feels like I missed my chance. I still kind of have a baby face, but that’s about it.

I think I’ve gotten to the point where I just feel angry. I’m honestly offended that I’ll never know what It feels like to be a girl. I’m angry that taking estrogen early could have changed so much. I wish it had just been something that felt acceptable when I was growing up.

I’ll probably never transition. If I did, I would lose all of my friends. I have a good reputation. I also have a really good job in the military, so I don’t even know if it’s something I could realistically do.

I don’t act like a girl and i’m not gay. I actually have a lot of more “masculine” hobbies. I love being outdoors, being on the water, fishing, etc. My friend group is pretty blue collar, and I get along with them really well. I just can’t help thinking that I wish I could do all the same things, as a girl.

Idk. I guess I just needed to rant.

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u/Due_Celebration_9108 — 5 days ago

I just needed to rant…

I just turned 24 a couple months ago. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a girl. I can’t help being jealous of pretty girls. It’s honestly hard to explain, but I’m so upset that I never got to experience growing up like that. I’ve buried these feelings for as long as I can remember.

I grew up in a really conservative family, and I have a great relationship with my parents, but I’ve just never really been happy with myself. I’m scared of becoming any more masculine than I already am. I hate that I went through puberty. I’m tall and broad, and it feels like I missed my chance. I still kind of have a baby face, but that’s about it.

I think I’ve gotten to the point where I just feel angry. I’m honestly offended that I’ll never know what It feels like to be a girl. I’m angry that taking estrogen early could have changed so much. I wish it had just been something that felt acceptable when I was growing up.

I’ll probably never transition. If I did, I would lose all of my friends. I have a good reputation. I also have a really good job in the military, so I don’t even know if it’s something I could realistically do.

I don’t act like a girl and i’m not gay. I actually have a lot of more “masculine” hobbies. I love being outdoors, being on the water, fishing, etc. My friend group is pretty blue collar, and I get along with them really well. I just can’t help thinking that I wish I could do all the same things, as a girl.

Idk. I guess I just needed to rant.

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u/Due_Celebration_9108 — 6 days ago

I just needed to rant…

I just turned 24 a couple months ago. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a girl. I can’t help being jealous of pretty girls. It’s honestly hard to explain, but I’m so upset that I never got to experience growing up like that. I’ve buried these feelings for as long as I can remember.

I grew up in a really conservative family, and I have a great relationship with my parents, but I’ve just never really been happy with myself. I’m scared of becoming any more masculine than I already am. I hate that I went through puberty. I’m tall and broad, and it feels like I missed my chance. I still kind of have a baby face, but that’s about it.

I think I’ve gotten to the point where I just feel angry. I’m honestly offended that I’ll never know what It feels like to be a girl. I’m angry that taking estrogen early could have changed so much. I wish it had just been something that felt acceptable when I was growing up.

I’ll probably never transition. If I did, I would lose all of my friends. I have a good reputation. I also have a really good job in the military, so I don’t even know if it’s something I could realistically do.

I don’t act like a girl and i’m not gay. I actually have a lot of more “masculine” hobbies. I love being outdoors, being on the water, fishing, etc. My friend group is pretty blue collar, and I get along with them really well. I just can’t help thinking that I wish I could do all the same things, as a girl.

Idk. I guess I just needed to rant.

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u/Due_Celebration_9108 — 6 days ago

I just needed to rant…

I just turned 24 a couple months ago. Ever since I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a girl. I can’t help being jealous of pretty girls. It’s honestly hard to explain, but I’m so upset that I never got to experience growing up like that. I’ve buried these feelings for as long as I can remember.

I grew up in a really conservative family, and I have a great relationship with my parents, but I’ve just never really been happy with myself. I’m scared of becoming any more masculine than I already am. I hate that I went through puberty. I’m tall and broad, and it feels like I missed my chance. I still kind of have a baby face, but that’s about it.

I think I’ve gotten to the point where I just feel angry. I’m honestly offended that I’ll never know what It feels like to be a girl. I’m angry that taking estrogen early could have changed so much. I wish it had just been something that felt acceptable when I was growing up.

I’ll probably never transition. If I did, I would lose all of my friends. I have a good reputation. I also have a really good job in the military, so I don’t even know if it’s something I could realistically do.

I don’t act like a girl and i’m not gay. I actually have a lot of more “masculine” hobbies. I love being outdoors, being on the water, fishing, etc. My friend group is pretty blue collar, and I get along with them really well. I just can’t help thinking that I wish I could do all the same things, as a girl.

Idk. I guess I just needed to rant.

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u/Due_Celebration_9108 — 6 days ago