u/EasternAd6905

I have an ex who died and was very good looking and I was wondering if i will ever see his beautiful smile again?

Okay, long story short : i had a relationship with a guy 7-8 years ago; it lasted a couple of months but time passed and i noticed he clearly had some mental issues (psychosis or wtv). he was making up weird stuff up and i basically had to eventually call the cops on him because even tho i broke up with him, he kept making fake profiles, making post on his fb about me, and he did that FOR YEARS, intermittently but the last time he tried to get in touch was 6 months ago.

He had a great life up until his teenage years, where he started taking drugs and messed up his brain chemistry BAD. He was such a beautiful boy tho and i could feel that under this weirdness, there was a good soul hiding….

ANYWAY

The guy was brutally shot and died 4 days ago. Originally i didn’t feel a thing. For some reason tho, the day after i cried. A lot actually. I have no idea why, since this guy literally harassed me for years. I felt so bad for him, so sad that he never got to actually experience real love, having kids or a decent life… I’m sad that i was mean and i feel like, if i had known he was going to die this way, i would just like to hug him one last time and tell him i’m sorry that i didn’t respond but that i did that to protect myself…idk i literally feel crazy. I have a bf, a son now and im happy with my life, i dont know why his death affects me so much.

Do you think if I try to communicate w him through mediums he’s gonna show up negatively? since our earthside relationship was very weird?

I just want him to know i don’t hate him, and that even tho he was being weird to me he didn’t deserve what happened to him.

Okay, long story short : i had a relationship with a guy 7-8 years ago; it lasted a couple of months but time passed and i noticed he clearly had some mental issues (psychosis or wtv). he was making up weird stuff up and i basically had to eventually call the cops on him because even tho i broke up with him, he kept making fake profiles, making post on his fb about me, and he did that FOR YEARS, intermittently but the last time he tried to get in touch was 6 months ago.

He had a great life up until his teenage years, where he started taking drugs and messed up his brain chemistry BAD. He was such a beautiful boy tho and i could feel that under this weirdness, there was a good soul hiding….

ANYWAY

The guy was brutally shot and died 4 days ago. Originally i didn’t feel a thing. For some reason tho, the day after i cried. A lot actually. I have no idea why, since this guy literally harassed me for years. I felt so bad for him, so sad that he never got to actually experience real love, having kids or a decent life… I’m sad that i was mean and i feel like, if i had known he was going to die this way, i would just like to hug him one last time and tell him i’m sorry that i didn’t respond but that i did that to protect myself…idk i literally feel crazy. I have a bf, a son now and im happy with my life, i dont know why his death affects me so much.

Do you think if I try to communicate w him through mediums he’s gonna show up negatively? since our earthside relationship was very weird?

I just want him to know i don’t hate him, and that even tho he was being weird to me he didn’t deserve what happened to him.