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my dad told horrible stories about my biological grandfathers family and ancestors growing up. (i think these stories were either exaggerated or not true; too gruesome ) essentially justifying genocide by characterizing them in the stereotypical way

and i just wondering how many ppl dealt with similar where it put you

i know for me it wasn't verbal but i had a lot of shame about my heritage by the time i was an adolescent.

i had a week long exposure to mold. my ankles swoll up, blood pressure kept dipping crazy low, couldn't breath, diarrhea and i .... didn't put it together for a long time. the symptoms overlap with POTS, asthma, migraines, etc. luckily i did get a good lab draw out of it for them to understand my symptoms but .. ah.

anyone else?

edit: i treated my symptoms you guys really are jerks to downvote someone for not noticing, or existing complicated. i write supportive comments of every op i see and when i just ask ... downvoted for what? policing cowards.if you have a problem with someone having multiple conditions difficulty distinguishing. atleast state it. then atleast i can write my post next time to avoid your stupid pointles tripwires that i woudl like to avoid none the less bc ... i want to know other ppl who have the same experiences.

im sorry for the tone. honestly i woudl like to now why the above (befor the edit and anger) isn't ok but whatever.

thanks to everyone who shared and commented.

my doctor is investigating and i was just curious about other ppl's experiences. this seems so counter intuitive to me but also i get infections so often it kind of makes sense. curious about others.

idk i just get random incest thoughts .. as in thought about processing incest abuse not like ..yeah anyway i feel hesitant to post them bc i dont want to dominate too much with one type of trauma but i can't find any incest subs. they are all about like promoting incest or porn? idk.

i can't even remeber the incest thought i wanted to post but i think it was somehting like

anyone else's abuser seem to not understand the concept of children? or parental roles ehh?

i have this vivid memory of trying to treat my dad like a normal protective dad and ... he didn't fucking care .. like uh most of my incst abuse with him was covert and what wasn't i thought was a dream. and i really thought he was a 'normal' dad as a child and i tried to be a good daughter. give him control of what i wore bc i assumed his control was about protecting me. and i have this memory of him just not even caring about my protection and in retrospect i think its bc the control was abuse not care and he just didn't understand what it meant to have a child or be a parent

i know it’s unavoidable I’m not asking if it is a bad thing to do it’s not. just if anyone else had discomfort with interacting w ppl one handed after switching to a cane

it feels the worst to me when someone else is using two hands to give me something and I use only one to accept. I know it’s rude in some cultures and I still obviously can’t help it.

i am scared to even dream but my doctor has been talking about biologics for a year now. she says the paperwork in the last round so its a matter of time and i just ...

to be honest i've had severe asthma my entire life and it severely impacts my ability to even talk somtimes. i struggle with my inhalers. i use them too much but i can't breath and thats why they said they are switching

i think i want to know ppl's experiences to begin to dream it could be different but im also kind of scared of that. idk.

but really i'd preter ppls experiences.

edit: i guess this isn't clear: im not throwing my inhalers away. but also seriously that shoudlnt' be necessary to say. 'switching' can refer to any shift in meds. the whole reason im omitting mine is the list is long and its complicated and its not the pointi just want to get peped up and excited bc frankly im not. asthmas really hard. its hard to imagine it better

or even more complex like 3-6 different conflicting orthogonal reasons stacked?

thats it. when i started taking fludro it got a lot worse but i love the medicine and dont want to give it up. i can't stop my allergy, asthma meds which i think contribute. anyone else deal with this and have an idea of how to manage it? i'm finding i need to keep altering my hygiene routine i still haven't found the best way to keep the areas clean and dry

eidt: its skin infections im dealing w 3. different surfaces, already been on anti yeast course twice. just trying to figure out to apply the topicals and keep the space cleaner.

the main thing that makes it hard for me is, dysautonomia symptoms make normal showering implausible.

so i use chlorahexadine from the hospital, electric shaver, and wet wipes.
as well as bath a couple times a week

its just not working for me. im curious if other ppl figured it out

fungal infections, anyone else struggling with them on fludrocortisone?

i worry its exacerbated by the fludro but im not even sure it started with it. its just after being on for 6 months, i've got some of the nastiest skin infections in my life

being able to walk my dog though... i not sure i want to give it up but i am curious if other ppl are dealing with this.

edit: sorry for being unclear, i get kind of creatively weird with medica stuff as a coping mechanism then dont realize.

i love being able to exercise more easily on steroids but im struggling with fungal infections;
i am having to completely re-organize my routines and i was curious if other ppl also experienced this.
and if so did you find a rhythm that helped?

specifically positive experiences?

I thought maybe it could be a protective albeit permenant treatment for hair that’s too dry/damaged/white for traditional dies

they aren't recovering, they are getting worse. i needed her help. i prepared for days. but the way she phrased it .. she didn't want the truth and bc she didn't want the truth, the truth hide from me bc i had to answer the way she asked. she asked for improvment so i had to lie

i know for those of you who dont believe things work lik this... move along i dont want to hear it.

im sharing. bc ive sen other ppl fall into this same trap. being literal. only knowing how to answer in the form being asked and then bc you are literal and obey and dont know how to do anything other than that you gey blamed both ways

blamed for not letting them know

blamed for answeing wrong

blamed for being too heavy

blamed for your crisis being a crisis and thus not something the system can hold

the blame is always subtle indirect but also undeniable

you see if in posts when ppl come here complain about being mistreated and then attack themselves...

they say ppl in crisis think in black and white but the truth is: most people think in black and white and the 'black and white thinking' that gets correexcted isn't corrected bc its black and white but bc the conclusions are non-functional or inconvenient.

but society: everything is a binary. and everything is individual

and its only a problem when you can't survive.