u/Either-Indication670

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Im a 27y.old Female and it seems that all my life I was, and STILL am humiliated in plenty of ways.

I don't understand why it keeps happening and it makes me depressive. Sometimes i want to end my life because people are so cruel and i dont understand why it keeps happening

I don't know how to recover from it, because it seems that people just smell it. I was bullied in school and at home, raped many times by different people (first time at 11y.old), and it doesnt stop.

2 years ago I was in a beauty center for a face treatment that required that I had a mask for a part of it. The man who did it waited for me to have the mask on and then I heard him masturbating near my face while I was laying on the sofa/device w my mask on.

The next step of the cure was applying a sort of cream and I suspect that he has spread his sp\*rm on my face alongside beauty products lol.

The same year I was in a violent relationship with a guy that destroyed and humiliated me psychologically. I got pregnant and had to abort while moving to another country for my studies.

I wasnt feeling well so i went to a psychologist. My state was so bad that I had troubles speaking, my vocabulary was noticeably weaker and I think I seemed very dumb bc she (the doctor) keep talking to me like i was a baby and was not taking me seriously.

Then again, in my studies, i met a lot of people that keep disrespecting me in a lot of ways that i wont be expliciting because who cares...

I keeping going on and surviving but I am feeling violently degradated and deshumanized. I am also alone, dont have many friend and no family that i cant talk to.

I guess it's just harder for some of us, but sometimes I wish I had a normal life, I wish that people didnt feel the urge to fucking destroy me.

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Im a 27y.old Female and it seems that all my life I was, and STILL am humiliated in plenty of ways.

I don't understand why it keeps happening and it makes me depressive. Sometimes i want to end my life because people are so cruel and i dont understand why it keeps happening

I don't know how to recover from it, because it seems that people just smell it. I was bullied in school and at home, raped many times by different people (first time at 11y.old), and it doesnt stop.

2 years ago I was in a beauty center for a face treatment that required that I had a mask for a part of it. The man who did it waited for me to have the mask on and then I heard him masturbating near my face while I was laying on the sofa/device w my mask on.

The next step of the cure was applying a sort of cream and I suspect that he has spread his sp\*rm on my face alongside beauty products lol.

The same year I was in a violent relationship with a guy that destroyed and humiliated me psychologically. I got pregnant and had to abort while moving to another country for my studies.

I wasnt feeling well so i went to a psychologist. My state was so bad that I had troubles speaking, my vocabulary was noticeably weaker and I think I seemed very dumb bc she (the doctor) keep talking to me like i was a baby and was not taking me seriously.

Then again, in my studies, i met a lot of people that keep disrespecting me in a lot of ways that i wont be expliciting because who cares...

I keeping going on and surviving but I am feeling violently degradated and deshumanized. I am also alone, dont have many friend and no family that i cant talk to.

I guess it's just harder for some of us, but sometimes I wish I had a normal life, I wish that people didnt feel the urge to fucking destroy me.

Im a 27y.old Female and it seems that all my life I was, and STILL am humiliated in plenty of ways.

I don't understand why it keeps happening and it makes me depressive. Sometimes i want to end my life because people are so cruel and i dont understand why it keeps happening

I don't know how to recover from it, because it seems that people just smell it. I was bullied in school and at home, raped many times by different people (first time at 11y.old), and it doesnt stop.

2 years ago I was in a beauty center for a face treatment that required that I had a mask for a part of it. The man who did it waited for me to have the mask on and then I heard him masturbating near my face while I was laying on the sofa/device w my mask on.

The next step of the cure was applying a sort of cream and I suspect that he has spread his sp*rm on my face alongside beauty products lol.

The same year I was in a violent relationship with a guy that destroyed and humiliated me psychologically. I got pregnant and had to abort while moving to another country for my studies.

I wasnt feeling well so i went to a psychologist. My state was so bad that I had troubles speaking, my vocabulary was noticeably weaker and I think I seemed very dumb bc she (the doctor) keep talking to me like i was a baby and was not taking me seriously.

Then again, in my studies, i met a lot of people that keep disrespecting me in a lot of ways that i wont be expliciting because who cares...

I keeping going on and surviving but I am feeling violently degradated and deshumanized. I am also alone, dont have many friend and no family that i cant talk to.

I guess it's just harder for some of us, but sometimes I wish I had a normal life, I wish that people didnt feel the urge to fucking destroy me.

My ex boyfriend dumped me today

I feel like shit

Long story short, my bf dumped me today over phone call. For a little context : we are in the same school, same class, so I see him everyday. He has some friends and I dont, i am completely alone in this city and notably depressed since i came there (2years now) . We've been together since 1.5 years.

Everytime we saw eachother it turned automatically into a fight, because he didnt met my needs, that are, I think, pretty simple for a relationship. He doesnt value me, doesnt make me feel appreciated or pretty, doesnt want to have sex with me, and he says that he has nightmares about me because i make him feel bad.

I am very depressed and he is (was) my only source of human contact so I can understand that it's not easy for him to have all the weight of my life depending on him.

When I confront him about not meeting my needs, he says that it is my fault. Which makes me very frustrated because 1) my needs are not met 2) he blames me for it and it makes me more depressed. 3) i feel like shit

For example, I wanted him to take pictures of me because i dont have anything thats not a selfie, i insisted on the fact that it would made me happy uf he did. He didnt do it, and said that its my fault because i dont find myself attractive on pictures. But what he dosent understand is that he doesnt even make the effort to please me, he doesnt even value me or think im pretty, and this picture-thing was a way to feel good about myself.

I feel like fucking shit and my life is a trainwreck. I don't have the strenght to continue anymore i feel so distressed and alone. I know i can be hard to live and this is just making me even sadder.

Am I an asshole for stressing him enough with my needs to the point where he has nightmares about me everynight and broke up with me ?

My boyfriend dumped me

I feel like shit

Long story short, my bf dumped me today over phone call. For a little context : we are in the same school, same class, so I see him everyday. He has some friends and I dont, i am completely alone in this city and notably depressed since i came there (2years now) . We've been together since 1.5 years.

Everytime we saw eachother it turned automatically into a fight, because he didnt met my needs, that are, I think, pretty simple for a relationship. He doesnt value me, doesnt make me feel appreciated or pretty, doesnt want to have sex with me, and he says that he has nightmares about me because i make him feel bad.

I am very depressed and he is (was) my only source of human contact so I can understand that it's not easy for him to have all the weight of my life depending on him.

When I confront him about not meeting my needs, he says that it is my fault. Which makes me very frustrated because 1) my needs are not met 2) he blames me for it and it makes me more depressed. 3) i feel like shit

For example, I wanted him to take pictures of me because i dont have anything thats not a selfie, i insisted on the fact that it would made me happy uf he did. He didnt do it, and said that its my fault because i dont find myself attractive on pictures. But what he dosent understand is that he doesnt even make the effort to please me, he doesnt even value me or think im pretty, and this picture-thing was a way to feel good about myself.

I feel like fucking shit and my life is a trainwreck. I don't have the strenght to continue anymore i feel so distressed and alone. I know i can be hard to live and this is just making me even sadder.

Am I an asshole for stressing him enough with my needs to the point where he has nightmares about me everynight and broke up with me ?

My boyfriend dumped me

I feel like shit

Long story short, my bf dumped me today over phone call. For a little context : we are in the same school, same class, so I see him everyday. He has some friends and I dont, i am completely alone in this city and notably depressed since i came there (2years now) . We've been together since 1.5 years.

Everytime we saw eachother it turned automatically into a fight, because he didnt met my needs, that are, I think, pretty simple for a relationship. He doesnt value me, doesnt make me feel appreciated or pretty, doesnt want to have sex with me, and he says that he has nightmares about me because i make him feel bad.

I am very depressed and he is (was) my only source of human contact so I can understand that it's not easy for him to have all the weight of my life depending on him.

When I confront him about not meeting my needs, he says that it is my fault. Which makes me very frustrated because 1) my needs are not met 2) he blames me for it and it makes me more depressed. 3) i feel like shit

For example, I wanted him to take pictures of me because i dont have anything thats not a selfie, i insisted on the fact that it would made me happy uf he did. He didnt do it, and said that its my fault because i dont find myself attractive on pictures. But what he dosent understand is that he doesnt even make the effort to please me, he doesnt even value me or think im pretty, and this picture-thing was a way to feel good about myself.

I feel like fucking shit and my life is a trainwreck. I don't have the strenght to continue anymore i feel so distressed and alone. I know i can be hard to live and this is just making me even sadder.

Am I an asshole for stressing him enough with my needs to the point where he has nightmares about me everynight and broke up with me ?

My boyfriend dumped me

I feel like shit

Long story short, my bf dumped me today over phone call. For a little context : we are in the same school, same class, so I see him everyday. He has some friends and I dont, i am completely alone in this city and notably depressed since i came there (2years now) . We've been together since 1.5 years.

Everytime we saw eachother it turned automatically into a fight, because he didnt met my needs, that are, I think, pretty simple for a relationship. He doesnt value me, doesnt make me feel appreciated or pretty, doesnt want to have sex with me, and he says that he has nightmares about me because i make him feel bad.

I am very depressed and he is (was) my only source of human contact so I can understand that it's not easy for him to have all the weight of my life depending on him.

When I confront him about not meeting my needs, he says that it is my fault. Which makes me very frustrated because 1) my needs are not met 2) he blames me for it and it makes me more depressed. 3) i feel like shit

For example, I wanted him to take pictures of me because i dont have anything thats not a selfie, i insisted on the fact that it would made me happy uf he did. He didnt do it, and said that its my fault because i dont find myself attractive on pictures. But what he dosent understand is that he doesnt even make the effort to please me, he doesnt even value me or think im pretty, and this picture-thing was a way to feel good about myself.

I feel like fucking shit and my life is a trainwreck. I don't have the strenght to continue anymore i feel so distressed and alone. I know i can be hard to live and this is just making me even sadder.

Am I an asshole for stressing him enough with my needs to the point where he has nightmares about me everynight and broke up with me ?