u/Embarrassed-Tear3516

i had an extreme nervous breakdown earlier today and started reaching out to people from my past, people that haven’t been the best for my mental health. i feel like i’m going insane, i’ve been crying and having awful thoughts these last few days, everything feels so fcking hopeless and i’m so sick of feeling like this. i’m waiting to get an appointment with a psychiatrist but i don’t know when they will be able to see me and i feel like i’m losing my mind. i’m already on the highest dose of zoloft and tbh i can’t deal with my emotions. i have no one to talk to, i don’t have any friends and have been completely alone for years now & just isolating myself. i can’t maintain any friendship or relationship with anyone because i push everyone away at the slightest sign of rejection. and my mind interprets everything as rejection. i go from putting someone on a pedestal and can’t imagine life without them, to being disgusted with them and wanting nothing to do with them. i’ve been holding on for so long and nothing is getting better, nothing is improving. i just want to move to another city/country and start a new life where no one knows me. i don’t ever want to see anyone from my past ever again. i just want to forget everyone and everything and i want everyone to forget me and that i have ever existed. i’m so, so, so tired of feeling like this. i wish i had just one person who prioritized me but everyone already has that one person. i’ve lost everyone and everything, i don’t have a best friend, i don’t have anything. i feel so worthless and like a failure and a burden. i feel like i bother everyone, even strangers. i’m terrified of everyone and everything and i feel like everyone wants to hurt me. every time someone reaches out to me, i panic because i’m convinced that they want to hurt and harm me in some way or that they’re mocking me. i don’t feel loved by anyone, i feel so fcking alone and i don’t know if i will ever know peace in this life.

Anyone else not experiencing any side effects besides dry lips? I take my pills with enough fat as well as Omega 3 fish oil. I’m not complaining at all but I was expecting this extreme dryness all over my body etc. Had the occasional little blood when I used to blow my nose and dry hands in the beginning but not anymore.

I’m currently on 40 mg once daily and will be upping my dosage to 60 mg this week as per my derm’s recommendation.

Edit: Also experienced excess sweating but it’s become way better now. Could also be because of my Zoloft and the weather lol

going on 3 months into my accutane journey, 20/40/40 thus far. ya’ll I can’t stop sweating, it’s literally DRIPPING from my face & neck and idk what to do. it’s bothering me sooo much to the point I have to shower multiple times a day, change clothes, avoid going out etc. I don’t have an appointment with my derm until the end of the month, has anyone else experienced this and if so, what did you do?? i’m also on zoloft which also makes me sweat even more than usual :)))

when is a good time to cut down and/or stop cleaning your piercings with sterile saline solution? I got my tragus & rook piercings about 4 months ago and have been using neilmed 2x a day & letting warm water run down my ear in the shower.

Almost every post I see on here, people are defending Jalilah in the comments, acting like she’s some kind of victim, like she was forced to marry Sammy (he’s no prize either) and forced to carry two of his children. Like homegirl just gave birth to their second child. Both of them annoy TF out of me.