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20F, Getting my 2 hour assessment done on Wednesday. Cost me £900😵‍💫
However I cannot stress how desperate l am for a diagnosis.
My biggest issue is messiness, disorganisation, procrastination, attention etc

I don't have huge or obvious hyperactive symptoms (could be due to possible autism, masking, social anxiety). However I used to sensory seek orally (chewing excessively) as a kid and now I fidget a lot (l hide fidgets in my pockets) and have to go on multiple walks a day otherwise I feel like I'm gonna crawl out of my skin.

I am so worried my symptoms are gonna be played off as laziness/not enough for adhd. But honestly this is my last hope. I've tried everything from dopamine detoxes, diet changes, lifestyle changes, mindset changes yet every day is a struggle. This has costed me my academic life/career/goals.

Plz does anyone have any tips of things I should say or mention in my assessment that will increase my chances of getting a diagnosis. I don't want to lie just wanna be strategic. Any advice would be appreciated:)

Been dealing with severe brain fog and fatigue for the past couple weeks seemingly out of nowhere. One contributing factor I can think of is my mental health- my mental health for the past few months has been probably the worst it’s been since I was a teenager and it felt like I had hit rock bottom. My mind feels like it’s in a cloud and I can’t do my uni work anymore without wanting to cry from how much mental energy it takes to think.

I’ve had some bloods checked and I’m perfectly fine although I will be going back to the doctors soon to ask for more tests.

Please offer any advice, supplements, herbs anything

f20 got a ticket but no one to go with. Is there anyone going to this event/wants to go that I could potentially meet there?
Plz no creeps I’m lesbian and not interested x

I want to start going more raves (dnb, jungle, garage, house) but none of my friends are interested. I have thought about just going solo but I feel like I need a little more experience going to different venues with others before I start going on my own.
If there are any girls who live in the north (I’m in Liverpool) and would be interested comment of dm me, maybe I can make a little gc if multiple people message. I’m 20 btw :)

This is strictly female because there are a lot of male creeps out there I don’t want to risk anything, hope that’s understandable :) so if ur a guy I’m not interested sorry

Been dealing with a very overactive nervous system recently triggered by a bad drug experience (not psychedelics). I’ve been struggling with my mental health but have been trying to cope on my own.
Because of these things I’m having panic attacks everyday and I feel so far away from reality.

I was planning on starting microdosing shrooms next week(I have done this before in the past but only for like a week + I have experience with macrodose of many psychs).

Although I have never done psychedelics of any kind whilst being in this state of “always teetering on the edge of panic” and am wondering if anyone has microdosed while struggling with panic attacks, anxiety or dissociation. What was your experience?

Just had such a tragic “end” to a situationship and I am literally heartbroken. I manifested this girl multiple times in my life but l kept losing her, I assume because when things would look up, I’d get too excited? Or I started to worry too much maybe?

Please take a look at this timeline, if anyone could notice any patterns and tell me what I should do next, please let me know. (Sorry it is pretty long I wanted to include lots of detail)

2023:
-Met SP for first time
-SP caught my attention as she was very desirable to me but was in a relationship/never obviously available to me so I never chased her
-Ended up sleeping with SP (she was single) after I had just gotten out of a 3 month relationship
-I got excited and thought maybe it could turn into something more but SP shut it down pretty quickly as she said she didn’t feel comfortable continuing anything due to being friends with my ex at the time
-SP also told me she had used to like me before I got with my ex (but I never knew rip💔)
-I felt sad about SP but decided to accept, let go and move on

2024:
-started dating a new girl and but remained friends with SP

2025:
-Started to have relationship issues/doubts
-Feelings about SP started to resurface as my original ex learns me and SP slept together and said they did not care
-Started to desire SP whilst in relationship but then realised I had to accept and move on
-SP had just come out of a situationship herself and was going through heartbreak

2026:
-I break up with my gf and almost immediately me and SP start flirting
-One thing led to another and we agreed to fwb
-I caught feelings pretty quickly and SP seemed to be fighting off her feelings for me/still slightly heartbroken from her ex situationship
-I became super happy with the fwb agreement as it gave me a lot of what I had dreamt of having with SP
-I made a big mistake of telling multiple people about the fwb agreement that SP did not want knowing and I kept the truth from her
-I started to really become attracted to SP and felt myself becoming attached
-SP finds out about me telling people and becomes very upset and distances herself
-I felt awful and was struggling to accept the situation
-I somehow managed to sleep with SP again at a cottage my friends and I stayed at for her birthday and I thought she’d slowly start rebuilding her trust with me (she also says in a drunken state that she was trying not to get attached to me)
-We both went on holiday for 2 weeks to different countries at the same time and messaged and flirted a bit during those weeks
-During my holiday I had become obsessed and decided I wanted to be with SP more seriously, however I still had doubts about how SP was feeling about me after the whole situation
-SP’s ex situationship begins to reach out again and SP starts talking to them again (fuck u mercury retrograde)
-I ask SP to come over to mine for a night (I get super excited) and she agrees but then cancels last minute
-A friend of mine tells SP that I was upset which pushes her to send me a paragraph saying she feels like the dynamic is becoming more than casual and she needed space
-I become very upset but respected her wishes (I really started to panic now and didn’t have high hopes)
-SP then sends another paragraph talking about my dishonesty about telling other people and she found out more information from other friends
-I apologise sincerely and lose hope about our future
-She became very negative towards me and an argument broke out between her, me and my friend (who was unhappy with her behaviour towards me)
-We ended up talking a bit more civilly and SP tells me how upset she felt with my dishonesty but understands my pov and said I gave a nice apology + enjoyed “what we had”
-I left our friendgroup gc due to being in a depressive state
-SP calls me and and I ended up telling her my feelings towards her and how I’ll never forgive myself for hurting her etc., she was shocked and appreciated my pov and said she doesn’t hate me and doesn’t want me to hurt- this led to agreeing to go no contact as it was too painful being her friend rn

Now it is the next day and I’m in shambles and I truly truly believe I manifested her towards me multiple times but kept going wrong somewhere (obviously my actions didn’t help but I did everything I could to apologise and try make it up to her etc.).

I miss her so much and am so so heartbroken
Is it a lost cause? Is it possible to manifest her back again? It feels so so over.

Just had such a tragic “end” to a situationship and I am literally heartbroken. I manifested this girl multiple times in my life but l kept losing her, I assume because when things would look up, I’d get too excited? Or I started to worry too much maybe?

Please take a look at this timeline, if anyone could notice any patterns and tell me what I should do next, please let me know. (Sorry it is pretty long I wanted to include lots of detail)

2023:
-Met SP for first time
-SP caught my attention as she was very desirable to me but was in a relationship/never obviously available to me so I never chased her
-Ended up sleeping with SP (she was single) after I had just gotten out of a 3 month relationship
-I got excited and thought maybe it could turn into something more but SP shut it down pretty quickly as she said she didn’t feel comfortable continuing anything due to being friends with my ex at the time
-SP also told me she had used to like me before I got with my ex (but I never knew rip💔)
-I felt sad about SP but decided to accept, let go and move on

2024:
-started dating a new girl and but remained friends with SP

2025:
-Started to have relationship issues/doubts
-Feelings about SP started to resurface as my original ex learns me and SP slept together and said they did not care
-Started to desire SP whilst in relationship but then realised I had to accept and move on
-SP had just come out of a situationship herself and was going through heartbreak

2026:
-I break up with my gf and almost immediately me and SP start flirting
-One thing led to another and we agreed to fwb
-I caught feelings pretty quickly and SP seemed to be fighting off her feelings for me/still slightly heartbroken from her ex situationship
-I became super happy with the fwb agreement as it gave me a lot of what I had dreamt of having with SP
-I made a big mistake of telling multiple people about the fwb agreement that SP did not want knowing and I kept the truth from her
-I started to really become attracted to SP and felt myself becoming attached
-SP finds out about me telling people and becomes very upset and distances herself
-I felt awful and was struggling to accept the situation
-I somehow managed to sleep with SP again at a cottage my friends and I stayed at for her birthday and I thought she’d slowly start rebuilding her trust with me (she also says in a drunken state that she was trying not to get attached to me)
-We both went on holiday for 2 weeks to different countries at the same time and messaged and flirted a bit during those weeks
-During my holiday I had become obsessed and decided I wanted to be with SP more seriously, however I still had doubts about how SP was feeling about me after the whole situation
-SP’s ex situationship begins to reach out again and SP starts talking to them again (fuck u mercury retrograde)
-I ask SP to come over to mine for a night (I get super excited) and she agrees but then cancels last minute
-A friend of mine tells SP that I was upset which pushes her to send me a paragraph saying she feels like the dynamic is becoming more than casual and she needed space
-I become very upset but respected her wishes (I really started to panic now and didn’t have high hopes)
-SP then sends another paragraph talking about my dishonesty about telling other people and she found out more information from other friends
-I apologise sincerely and lose hope about our future
-She became very negative towards me and an argument broke out between her, me and my friend (who was unhappy with her behaviour towards me)
-We ended up talking a bit more civilly and SP tells me how upset she felt with my dishonesty but understands my pov and said I gave a nice apology + enjoyed “what we had”
-I left our friendgroup gc due to being in a depressive state
-SP calls me and and I ended up telling her my feelings towards her and how I’ll never forgive myself for hurting her etc., she was shocked and appreciated my pov and said she doesn’t hate me and doesn’t want me to hurt- this led to agreeing to go no contact as it was too painful being her friend rn

Now it is the next day and I’m in shambles and I truly truly believe I manifested her towards me multiple times but kept going wrong somewhere (obviously my actions didn’t help but I did everything I could to apologise and try make it up to her etc.).

I miss her so much and am so so heartbroken
Is it a lost cause? Is it possible to manifest her back again? It feels so so over.