u/Equivalent_Bear_7501

I do.

I currently have 53 cents cash until Wednesday. And I was just calculating what I could buy, considering sales tax. Ridiculous!!

Thankfully, my sister is my Representative Payee for my SSDI, so I do still have all my bills paid, and some savings in an ABLE account. I am extremely grateful for her help.

But literally every week when she sends money, I spend it on things I shouldn't, like unhealthy food. And it feels impossible for me to put anything aside and save for something bigger.

I'm not manic.

Is this just a common trait of Bipolar, even without mania?

I am either 100% committed to my health, exercising, staying active even beyond exercise, eating healthy, whole, natural foods, tracking accurately and staying in a good calorie range...

OR..

I give up, and do everything I shouldn't do.

There really is no "moderation" in my mind.

How do I keep myself motivated to stay on track?

How do I prevent the damage when I'm in a bad mood?

I recently bought a new home blood pressure monitor. I was previously using a wrist cuff - which I still have - but I thought an arm cuff would be more accurate, plus the one I bought syncs with bluetooth to the same app as my blood sugar meter.

I'm fat. The cuff *kinda* fits my upper arm, but is very painful when it squeezes.

Would using the cuff on my forearm be accurate at all? Or should I just go back to my wrist cuff?

The one I bought is used and non-refundable.

I am in a situation where I need to visit the food bank occasionally. Today, I literally have .40 cents in my bank account, and a week until payday.

The best part that nobody ever really told me about, is the unique and different foods you get to try! Stuff you never would have purchased, possibly never knew existed. Premium/expensive items.

Right now I am eating goat cheese spread on fancy crackers!

It helps me feel a little bit "special" and less like a poor person.

Or will I be on Levothyroxine the rest of my life?

I'm working really hard on nutrition & activity, partly to get off my meds for blood pressure and blood sugar.

But...there really is no "diet & exercise" way to fix Hypothyroidism...is there?

This is something I have ALWAYS struggled with!! And I see very opposite opinions on how to deal with it.

I will go to all the trouble of cooking and eating a very good, well-balanced meal. I will sit down and eat, without distractions, and try to listen to my hunger cues, and eat until satisfied.

THEN...I'll put away leftovers, dishes in dishwasher, tidy up, sit down, and....

HUGE OVERPOWERING CRAVING FOR SWEETS!!

I am NOT physically hungry. I just ate.

I usually do NOT have goodies stashed somewhere calling my name.

I often end up creating something with basic ingredients like flour & sugar.

HOW DO I STOP THESE CRAVINGS?

Sometimes I'll try sugar-free candy or Jello. But I'm not sure if that helps or hurts.

I try to have fruit at the end of my meal. Again, I'm not sure if that helps or hurts.

If I try "just one piece" of chocolate...I'll end up eating the whole bag.

Normally, I actually sleep **too much** so I sleep right through all of quiet hours (10:00-7:00).

But recently I have been waking up at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning, and I can't get back to sleep.

I am very cautious about noise during the daytime, but extremely worried about it in the middle of the night.

I was even afraid to flush the toilet! But I 💩 so I had to. Most nights when I just wake up to pee only, I don't flush.

I am hungry and would really love a smoothie, or a homemade egg mcmuffin, but I cook the egg in a microwave dish, and not only is the microwave loud, but the eggs often make noise or even explode.

I have a new power reclining sofa, and it makes a bit of noise to get up & down.

Anyway...am I just worrying too much? What level of noise is acceptable at 5:00am?