i don’t think i’ll ever recover

hi! i have struggled with self harm ever since i was very very young, due to being exposed to it through my parents. Over the past year or so it's been getting worse. Yesterday, i was admitted to hospital because of cuts that were too deep to treat at home and had to have stitches and whatnot. A couple months ago, my parents took the decision to take in my younger cousin instead of her going into the care system, me and her somewhat get along. My problem is that she also self harms, and when she does she refuses to atleast cover them up slightly or atall, and she refuses any help given to her. To me, seeing her walking around with the scrapes on her is incredibly triggering, i'm already so close to relapsing and i only just got home from the hospital. She came to pick me up with my dad wearing shorts and a short sleeve shirt, every cut exposed, and it felt like every single thing that sort of helped at the hospital had been erased. i'm not sure what to do, the fact that she refuses to cover them makes it so much more worse, i'm really afraid that if i wake up in the morning and she does it again then i'm gonna relapse.

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 16 hours ago

family member keeps trying to replicate my scars

hi! im 16 and i really struggle with my mental health a lot, i’ve been self harming since i was really young. Recently, my parents took in my 14 year old cousin as she needed a place to stay. Her staying here impacted my mental health from the beginning, it was a huge change and it caused me to relapse on both my eating disorder and self harming. My main problem with her is the fact that she walks around with fresh, day old scratches all over her from self harm, they’re not gaping or anything, but seeing that clicked something in me and caused all my progress to crash. Maybe two weeks ago, my mom was pointing out a scar that was on my leg, talking about the weird placement whilst my cousin was in the room, the cut was pretty deep so the scars are very visible. the next day, my cousin got into the car with her joggers rolled up to her thighs for whatever reason, showing the scratches that hadn’t been there the day prior in the exact same spot as my scars. Last night, i was hospitalised for the first time because i self harmed too harshly and needed a crisis team and whatnot. Whilst i was in the hospital with my mom and dad, my cousin who was home alone with my siblings started screaming and crying the house down for whatever reason, banging her head on the door and self harming, obviously scaring my siblings. I’m back home now with the help i need, but she constantly keeps asking about what happened and how i did it because it was so ‘deep’ and its affecting me more than i’ll really admit. I know she probably has struggles of her own, but in my mind it just seems like a constant battle and like i’ll never get better because she’ll always be there and walking around with it on show. We’ve tried to get her help but she won’t accept it, i just don’t know what to do.

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 1 day ago

killjoy hoodie

my hoodie came and it still has the ray gun error on it😭😭 i thought these werent shipping out until the 10th but the error is so funny

u/Every-Pen-551 — 1 month ago

july 11th front pitch

hi! i’m aiming to get as close to the barricade as possible, b stage preferably, and i was wondering what time i should maybe show up? i know theres vip so im unsure on wether proper barricade is possible but im still aiming🤞🤞🤞

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 2 months ago

vent

hi! i feel kinda silly for writing this but i just feel like i need to get it out. im 17 and my parents have recently taken in another child ( my cousin ) and are planning to adopt ( she was taken from her dad ). it feels stupid because i know im 17 and shes 15 but the whole thing is making me feel extremely isolated and left out, and then even worse because i feel selfish for feeling like that. my sister who ive always had a really close bond with is already being cold towards me and sharing a room with my cousin as theyre the same age. i expressed to my parents that i was worried about them adopting her because of things like money problems, we arent wealthy by any means, and they acknowledged my concerns but when asked by professionals they said that they had no problem being a long term placement for her. it sorta just feels like im being pushed out and shes taking over my spot if that makes sense?

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 2 months ago

best camera for starting out

hi!! i’m 17 and am really interested in getting started in concert photography, i was wondering what camera would be best to start out with as there are so so much options. i’m unsure on a budget right now but i’d probably do a payment plan as i dont really have the money upfront right now.

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 2 months ago

coming out to partner

Hi! im 17 and am currently in a relationship with my girlfriend of a year, ever since we’ve been together i’ve identified as a trans guy, but recently i’ve gone through a lot of realisation that i am be gender fluid instead. my girlfriend has mentioned in the past about how she does not like girls romantically and it’s made me really worried on how she’ll take it. A lot of the time shes joked about the what ifs of me detransitioning and stuff and i’ve only ever laughed it off so i’m really unsure and nervous on what to do. i’m just looking for any helpful advice, thank you! :)

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u/Every-Pen-551 — 3 months ago