i don’t think i’ll ever recover
hi! i have struggled with self harm ever since i was very very young, due to being exposed to it through my parents. Over the past year or so it's been getting worse. Yesterday, i was admitted to hospital because of cuts that were too deep to treat at home and had to have stitches and whatnot. A couple months ago, my parents took the decision to take in my younger cousin instead of her going into the care system, me and her somewhat get along. My problem is that she also self harms, and when she does she refuses to atleast cover them up slightly or atall, and she refuses any help given to her. To me, seeing her walking around with the scrapes on her is incredibly triggering, i'm already so close to relapsing and i only just got home from the hospital. She came to pick me up with my dad wearing shorts and a short sleeve shirt, every cut exposed, and it felt like every single thing that sort of helped at the hospital had been erased. i'm not sure what to do, the fact that she refuses to cover them makes it so much more worse, i'm really afraid that if i wake up in the morning and she does it again then i'm gonna relapse.