Marcy...
I remember a time when I felt intense pain (V2K and DEWs), to the point of being totally overwhelmed. Something digging through my brain at the same time that I felt unimaginable pain coming from somewhere.
At the time, it seemed like it was designed to crush me. And it worked. I begged, pleaded on my knees, for it to lessen or stop.
But I keep coming back to the same question...
Why does it show us mercy?
I've been aware of targeting for 6 years. I always wonder, why doesn't it hurt me as bad as it did when it started?
It always reminds me that it's here. I wake up every day dreading the conflict that I'll have to endure. I wake up everyday ready for what's coming... But I don't feel the intense pain with the overwhelming loudness of the V2K. It's just enough to let me know that it's here, but not so much that I beg a non-existent God for reprieve.