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I split with my ex maybe about 2 - 3 weeks ago.... shes blocked me and stuff on everything bar 1 alt account she has... I unblocked it bcuz shes always been the one to reach out to me.. so i reached out to her this time.... to start i love this woman... i love her with every and anything i have and i worship the ground she walks on.. if she wants a foot rub, back tickles whatever i wont say no... I am by no means innocent.. i know i have done wrong (not listening on things or just going blank or not even thinking) as anyone does and im not perfect but i still try for her and dont give up.. i always fight for her... I also have ADHD & BPD...

Anyways we got back together about 4-5 months ago... she admitted to me ive ruined her fir anyone else bcuz ive made a high expectation for her on how she should be treated... and in my eyes thats how she should be treated bcuz shes my heart.... anyways....... Just after we split over txt (bcuz she was advised to due to new meds and home life) she said 2 things first was about my clothes at hers whether to post them or not and then when i said idk bcuz my heads a mess she replied with ill post them but idk bcuz im sure ull be back... And just so u are aware there is no one else im not interested (which gave me hope) until things got heated and she proceeded to say we arent getting back together... i was stressed hurt ect so i pushed when i shouldn't have 😞 so i kept asking whether it was never again or just for now, as we've been on and off for 8 yrs.... and all she said was ive given my answer and then this is why i walked away... Then proceeded to block me after i kept asking never or just now..... so at the moment im in a purgatory like status on what the hells going on.... im an absolute mess without her and my son... She is my absolute world and my whole heart.. i mean she has been my best friend for over 15 years.... But again shes blocked me on nearly everything but one thing that i unblocked so ive messaged her and it still hasnt been seen.. but all i said was

Y wont u talk to me... Why cant we try sort shit out 😞 ill give u time, work with you and whatever else to work together.... But can we try work this out together please? I do miss you and i do love you... I miss and love (our son) and i hope hes good... Please dont block me its killing me...

If u never want to talk to me again or sort this then block me here.... But i never wanted to leave... I never wanted to split again... I never wanted to give up or fight... I always wanted to sort things with you... It hurts to message this bcuz i do and always have loved you immensely... You've always been my best friend and ur the mother to our son 😭😭 i hate how we keep drifting apart over the silliest of things... Im sorry for any and everything i do wrong 😭 i love you (her name) your my world...

then i messaged her the other night and said goodnight... i love you... im sorry

i just want her and my son back but im so scared she is going to get with someone else before me or in general... i love her so much that my words and actions can never explain 😞

Right now i feel like shit... My fears and anxiety are through the roof... I keep having nightmares of ny fears and my sleeping is shithouse.... I know the things may have seemed silly to me but were big to her and i know this.... I just want her back so much.... Im even at the point of talking to psychics in hopes what they say is right 🤦😭.... I know she won't see this... I know im not perfect.... But shes always been perfect to me in my eyes... Good... Bad... Sick... Healthy... Shes always been perfect and amazing in my eyes.... Even now i still look at pictures nightly and cry myself to sleep bcuz no matter what we've been through good or bad my feelings never change.... even if shes hurt me or made me angry as hell my feelings are the same and i still love her immensely... Even now typing this im in tears bcuz i just want her and my son back....

I just want to know how to get her back 😭 i just want my life back... I want my heart... Im at a lose bcuz i want to fight for her but same time i dont want to push her away anymore

I split with my ex maybe about 2 - 3 weeks ago.... shes blocked me and stuff on everything bar 1 alt account she has... I unblocked it bcuz shes always been the one to reach out to me.. so i reached out to her this time.... to start i love this woman... i love her with every and anything i have and i worship the ground she walks on.. if she wants a foot rub, back tickles whatever i wont say no... I am by no means innocent.. i know i have done wrong (not listening on things or just going blank or not even thinking) as anyone does and im not perfect but i still try for her and dont give up.. i always fight for her... I also have ADHD & BPD...

Anyways we got back together about 4-5 months ago... she admitted to me ive ruined her fir anyone else bcuz ive made a high expectation for her on how she should be treated... and in my eyes thats how she should be treated bcuz shes my heart.... anyways....... Just after we split over txt (bcuz she was advised to due to new meds and home life) she said 2 things first was about my clothes at hers whether to post them or not and then when i said idk bcuz my heads a mess she replied with ill post them but idk bcuz im sure ull be back... And just so u are aware there is no one else im not interested (which gave me hope) until things got heated and she proceeded to say we arent getting back together... i was stressed hurt ect so i pushed when i shouldn't have 😞 so i kept asking whether it was never again or just for now, as we've been on and off for 8 yrs.... and all she said was ive given my answer and then this is why i walked away... Then proceeded to block me after i kept asking never or just now..... so at the moment im in a purgatory like status on what the hells going on.... im an absolute mess without her and my son... She is my absolute world and my whole heart.. i mean she has been my best friend for over 15 years.... But again shes blocked me on nearly everything but one thing that i unblocked so ive messaged her and it still hasnt been seen.. but all i said was

Y wont u talk to me... Why cant we try sort shit out 😞 ill give u time, work with you and whatever else to work together.... But can we try work this out together please? I do miss you and i do love you... I miss and love (our son) and i hope hes good... Please dont block me its killing me...

If u never want to talk to me again or sort this then block me here.... But i never wanted to leave... I never wanted to split again... I never wanted to give up or fight... I always wanted to sort things with you... It hurts to message this bcuz i do and always have loved you immensely... You've always been my best friend and ur the mother to our son 😭😭 i hate how we keep drifting apart over the silliest of things... Im sorry for any and everything i do wrong 😭 i love you (her name) your my world...

then i messaged her the other night and said goodnight... i love you... im sorry

i just want her and my son back but im so scared she is going to get with someone else before me or in general... i love her so much that my words and actions can never explain 😞

Right now i feel like shit... My fears and anxiety are through the roof... I keep having nightmares of ny fears and my sleeping is shithouse.... I know the things may have seemed silly to me but were big to her and i know this.... I just want her back so much.... Im even at the point of talking to psychics in hopes what they say is right 🤦😭.... I know she won't see this... I know im not perfect.... But shes always been perfect to me in my eyes... Good... Bad... Sick... Healthy... Shes always been perfect and amazing in my eyes.... Even now i still look at pictures nightly and cry myself to sleep bcuz no matter what we've been through good or bad my feelings never change.... even if shes hurt me or made me angry as hell my feelings are the same and i still love her immensely... Even now typing this im in tears bcuz i just want her and my son back....

I just want to know how to get her back 😭 i just want my life back... I want my heart... Im at a lose bcuz i want to fight for her but same time i dont want to push her away anymore

I split with my ex maybe about 2 - 3 weeks ago.... shes blocked me and stuff on everything bar 1 alt account she has... I unblocked it bcuz shes always been the one to reach out to me.. so i reached out to her this time.... to start i love this woman... i love her with every and anything i have and i worship the ground she walks on.. if she wants a foot rub, back tickles whatever i wont say no... I am by no means innocent.. i know i have done wrong (not listening on things or just going blank or not even thinking) as anyone does and im not perfect but i still try for her and dont give up.. i always fight for her... I also have ADHD & BPD...

Anyways we got back together about 4-5 months ago... she admitted to me ive ruined her fir anyone else bcuz ive made a high expectation for her on how she should be treated... and in my eyes thats how she should be treated bcuz shes my heart.... anyways....... Just after we split over txt (bcuz she was advised to due to new meds and home life) she said 2 things first was about my clothes at hers whether to post them or not and then when i said idk bcuz my heads a mess she replied with ill post them but idk bcuz im sure ull be back... And just so u are aware there is no one else im not interested (which gave me hope) until things got heated and she proceeded to say we arent getting back together... i was stressed hurt ect so i pushed when i shouldn't have 😞 so i kept asking whether it was never again or just for now, as we've been on and off for 8 yrs.... and all she said was ive given my answer and then this is why i walked away... Then proceeded to block me after i kept asking never or just now..... so at the moment im in a purgatory like status on what the hells going on.... im an absolute mess without her and my son... She is my absolute world and my whole heart.. i mean she has been my best friend for over 15 years.... But again shes blocked me on nearly everything but one thing that i unblocked so ive messaged her and it still hasnt been seen.. but all i said was

Y wont u talk to me... Why cant we try sort shit out 😞 ill give u time, work with you and whatever else to work together.... But can we try work this out together please? I do miss you and i do love you... I miss and love (our son) and i hope hes good... Please dont block me its killing me...

If u never want to talk to me again or sort this then block me here.... But i never wanted to leave... I never wanted to split again... I never wanted to give up or fight... I always wanted to sort things with you... It hurts to message this bcuz i do and always have loved you immensely... You've always been my best friend and ur the mother to our son 😭😭 i hate how we keep drifting apart over the silliest of things... Im sorry for any and everything i do wrong 😭 i love you (her name) your my world...

then i messaged her the other night and said goodnight... i love you... im sorry

i just want her and my son back but im so scared she is going to get with someone else before me or in general... i love her so much that my words and actions can never explain 😞

Right now i feel like shit... My fears and anxiety are through the roof... I keep having nightmares of ny fears and my sleeping is shithouse.... I know the things may have seemed silly to me but were big to her and i know this.... I just want her back so much.... Im even at the point of talking to psychics in hopes what they say is right 🤦😭.... I know she won't see this... I know im not perfect.... But shes always been perfect to me in my eyes... Good... Bad... Sick... Healthy... Shes always been perfect and amazing in my eyes.... Even now i still look at pictures nightly and cry myself to sleep bcuz no matter what we've been through good or bad my feelings never change.... even if shes hurt me or made me angry as hell my feelings are the same and i still love her immensely... Even now typing this im in tears bcuz i just want her and my son back....

I just want to know how to get her back 😭 i just want my life back... I want my heart

Ok just getting into this.. got a copper setup and a nickle set up... Issue im having is the paint... I generally air brush but finding that its always getting clogged... Ive looked around and seen indian ink and graphite powder but stuff im using/get isnt working and coming out cloggy even though im following the exact recipe.. im in aussie so all the stuff i can get is a week + away or from wat i ive seen doesn't work real well

Im 32 and at a complete lose... Its been 2 weeks or so since me and my ex split.. one minute its ull be back then its were not getting back together... Thing is weve been on off for 8 yrs and have a child... Yes we have issue as all people do... She said she needs time ro sort new meds out and just get herself together... but when asked if getting back together was for now kr never again i didnt get an answer.... I love her immensely... Yes we can be toxic i know this but same time we can be good.... I love her with all of my heart and its literally killing me right now 😭😭 shes seen a post i put up before and i hope she sees this so she may send me a txt saying i love you but i need space there is no one else 😭😭 but same time im so fucken scared i cant even put into words... She never cheated on me... Yea she did some toxic stuff (again i did aswell) but im so fucken scared it isnt funny....

Idk wat to say or how to say it or anything at this point.... Im at breaking point... Im hurting badly.. my current partner and I have been on iff for quite a few years it goes good bad good bad but this time round its just atrotious... She begged me to come back.. said sorry... Said how she wish things were different and how badly she treated me ect ect... Now its hit rock bottom... Shes openly admitted that she resents me.. she continuously compare ALL men are the same if something happens example something goes wrong "must of ben a male who design / made it" "must be a male in charge" u get the idea... I bend over backwards and then some for her... Ive lost friends over her... Do i love her? Yes.... Am i suffering? Yes.... I get no affection at all and she blames our child for it bcuz "he's always all over me".. she doesn't allow me to take pictures of our son or include me in photos anymore if she does bcuz someone offered to take a picture shes hesitant... Hell my own son isnt even allowed to call me dad he has to refer to my name..... In hurting beyond belief but whenever i send her things like videos ect to explain or even openly try to discuss it with her she shifts it back to me.... Ive told her yes i do things wrong im human.. but constantly being hostile and giving me an attitude calling me a "Disneyland parent" is just gonna make me think fuck it.... Our son is 3 and doesn't listen at the best of times (typical 3 yr old) but im not allowed to punish him in anyway... I cant raise my voice nothing.. the moment i do nd its ww3 and a massive issue on how i fuck around and im essentially incapable of doing anything... Im just at the point of breaking but emotionally and mentally and she has zero care

So looking at doing some electroplating for some resin prints.. the issue ive run into is all the stuff i see / get told about is all needing a business or isnt available here in aus... That or im not wanting to fork out over $600 - $700 for it to just fail miserably.... Im south east QLD... Anyone got any ideas on what to use? From what ive looked/read/watches i have to go from copper to nickle... Ive got a power supply ect its more just a solution in after

So looking at doing some electroplating for some resin prints.. the issue ive run into is all the stuff i see / get told about is all needing a business or isnt available here in aus... That or im not wanting to fork out over $600 - $700 for it to just fail miserably.... Im south east QLD... Anyone got any ideas on what to use? From what ive looked/read/watches i have to go from copper to nickle... Ive got a power supply ect its more just a solution in after