u/Famous_Refuse1964

I’ve never been the feminine type of person, i hated being forced to wear dresses back in my childhood, hated my name, hated being labeled just because of whats between my pants. Everytime i wore skirts i’d cry to mirror that it’s not my trueself, i did everything to make people see dont want to be potraited as a woman. I changed my name, my pronouns, to the point where in highschool even my teachers would call me by my preffered name. It’s been fine like this past 4 years till 2025.

I met a guy and he changed my way of thinking about this. He’s a cis man, lots of abs, tall, handsome. We got together, been happy for a year now. Now we talked a lot about this, and he told me that he hates his gender, that he doesnt see himself as someone associated with gender rolls and all, but everything id label as nonbinarity happens in his mind. not outside of his appearance, but the way he thinks about himself and others and this type of stuff. he inspired me a lot to start liking my feminine side. And i want to try changing something not outside of me but keep it everything inside. Not abandoning nonbinarity, but reshaping it into something completely else. I want to try and go back to my original name, pronouns, and everything, but im so scared of being judged. where i live in 2020/2021 everyone because of tiktok was trans or gay only to turn into cis straight person a year later, and the idea of people thinking of me this way scares the shit out of me. I know my friends are really understanding and will support me no matter what, my boyfriend included, but i dont even know where to start. how to achieve femininity, how to reshape all of this into being a woman but keeping my nonbinarity private only to myself and my thoughts.

I’m engaged with someone with BPD for a year now. Past week she was in some sort of depressive episode. Doesn’t sleep, doesn’t eat much. We talked a lot about her feelings because she started having those massive intrusive thoughts and suicidal ones aswell. we got into a huge fight yesterday, and i told her also some stuff i didn’t mean to in anger. At some point it got so bad she started having panic attacks and again, got the intrusive thoughts and everything. After some time she left, but i had a bad feeling about this one. After around 10 minutes i checked on her (because she lives next door) only to hear she overdosed on meds and tried to kill herself. She’s a wonderful person with a kind heart, and i see her as my future wife, but i don’t know what to do. She scared the shit out of me and that situation really got into me as it was my second time on someone trying to take away their life.

im 17 and my parents found me a summer job through my dad’s school partner (a hotel).

The thing is, they want to test my skills before they take me in, the thing is im supposed to work 12h on saturday and sunday, and THEN they will tell me if they want me or not and my parents said i wont get any money for this probably. Im supposed to work in several places, in the kitchen washing up dishes (because theres some event), as a waiter, in general several diffeent related to hotel jobs. I told them its not fair that im supposed to work more than full time job on my free weekend (since im still at school) and get absolutely nothing for it, and then they will decide if they take me or not. We argued very hard and idk if its just my way of thinking or its fucking stupid to work so many hours for literally nothing

Since czechia and Poland have smiliar pricing im very curious about the price of hula girl and everything else! :> lmk if those who went know how much the merch overally was costing