u/Fickle_Musician4213

I've been in university for four years now. I came into 2022 as an computer engineering student happy for the future. Four years later, I'm depressed and unmotivated to do anything. It's hard to even get out of bed sometimes.

It was my own doing. I spent the first two years out of place and failing constantly. It costed me valuable time and I got dismissed. I manage to come back, my third year comes up and I have to spend all of it trying to get my financial aid back, my credits up, and coming back to engineering. Then for the 4th year I try again, taking it seriously. The Fall semester went okay, but then the Spring semester turned to shit. I had bad management and I had trouble finding a way to be efficient in learning the material. My mind just loves to waver off. Even had to lock my phone away just to focus and even then it's hard to focus. Then 3 exams in one day and lack of preparation and it was over. Now I've been sitting the past few days, just thinking about how I've accomplished nothing in four years. I see all my friends graduating, and I wonder what the fuck happened.

I should've worked harder in engineering and I didn't put enough effort to stop my bad habits. It didn't work out. But I don't know what else to do now. I'm expecting to be dismissed from my university. When it happens I don't know what to do to move forward. My parents already think I'm a failure, but this would be a new low. I've done engineering for the past four years, but I don't know what to do next. I have literally nothing I'm passionate about besides editing videos and watching sports and anime.

I don't know whether to abandon engineering all together and pivot to something else, or continue learning computer/electrical engineering and doing it on my free time. I've considered trade school, as well I guess. I don't know. I feel like a complete dumbass. My mentality is in the shitter and I don't know how to get out of it.

I just need advice at this point, even if it's harsh i'll take anything

I've been in university for four years now. I came into 2022 as an computer engineering student happy for the future. Four years later, I'm depressed and unmotivated to do anything. It's hard to even get out of bed sometimes.

It was my own doing. I spent the first two years out of place and failing constantly. It costed me valuable time and I got dismissed. I manage to come back, my third year comes up and I have to spend all of it trying to get my financial aid back, my credits up, and coming back to engineering. Then for the 4th year I try again, taking it seriously. The Fall semester went okay, but then the Spring semester turned to shit. I had bad management and I had trouble finding a way to be efficient in learning the material. My mind just loves to waver off. Even had to lock my phone away just to focus and even then it's hard to focus. Then 3 exams in one day and lack of preparation and it was over. Now I've been sitting the past few days, just thinking about how I've accomplished nothing in four years. I see all my friends graduating, and I wonder what the fuck happened.

I should've worked harder in engineering and I didn't put enough effort to stop my bad habits. It didn't work out. But I don't know what else to do now. I'm expecting to be dismissed from my university. When it happens I don't know what to do to move forward. My parents already think I'm a failure, but this would be a new low. I've done engineering for the past four years, but I don't know what to do next. I have literally nothing I'm passionate about besides editing videos and watching sports and anime.

I don't know whether to abandon engineering all together and pivot to something else, or continue learning computer/electrical engineering and doing it on my free time. I've considered trade school, as well I guess. I don't know. I feel like a complete dumbass. My mentality is in the shitter and I don't know how to get out of it.

I just need advice at this point, even if it's harsh i'll take anything

took 3 exams today. probably failed all of them. one of the exams was only 40 minutes (it was an asynch class but it took it in person) but i still shat myself. was never a good test taker but this might be a new low. should've found a way to reschedule or ask but i never did

still don't know how to study effectively. it takes a massive effort for me to even be focused or sit around in one place. my mind is like a jungle 24/7. the moment i finally got to focus fucking canvas shut down. and then when it's too late i end up cramming and i don't sleep so i come in with tired and unfocused and the exam deals the killing blow

am a senior now watching all my friends about to graduate and i feel mentally inept compared to my peers. i'm about a year behind in terms of credits, but im probably like 3 years behind in general to be honest. where did it go wrong? probably a lack of motivation, maybe i didn't have my heart in it and i should've listened to the people who told me to switch and leave engineering. i kept ignoring them cuz of my stupid pride. maybe it's because i didn't want my parents to see me as a failure more than they already do. or maybe i'm just a lazy bum.

probably gonna do trade school or some shit. i just don't see a future here anymore unless i get lucky and somehow pass this semester. need to figure out how to change my life

also saw multiple people cheat on the first two exams i did. i just don't know at this point. whats the point of a curve if people are getting good grades off of zero effort. be a man and flunk like me thanks

I HATE THIS BULLSHIT MY ACADEMIC JOURNEY AS AN ENGINEERING STUDENT THE PAST FOUR YEARS HAS BEEN A TRAINWRECK THE FIRST 2 YEARS WERE HORRIBLE AND I SPENT THE NEXT 2 TRYING TO RECOVER FROM IT AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS MY ADHD BRAIN FINALLY RELAXES AND I GET TO LOCK IN TO STUDY CANVAS IS FUCKING DOWN WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY