I let it happen, again. I feel so goddamn stupid right now.
I was in an abusive relationship 3 years ago. He was violent to me all the time.
I tried dating again. Within a week I’m in a hostage situation where he won’t let me leave and hid my keys. I escaped because I found my spare car key he didn’t hide well enough.
I just feel so fucking stupid. The first time I try dating again and I’m IMMEDIATELY met with violence and abuse. I just need to vent somewhere, I feel so stupid and ridiculous having to get ANOTHER restraining order against a guy. At this point I’m heavily victim blaming myself because I know better than to be love bombed and I let it happen again. I gave all my power away and put me and my dog in a dangerous situation.
I’m safe and reported him to the police. But ffs why do we have to live like this? Why can’t we find healthy love, just why.