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Going to college(iiit) as a 22 yo , class 8 fail ... If you dont want to know my depression part start at part 3...

Part 1 start of depression:-

So , the story starts with one of my earliest memories.. i remember my father taking to a club near my home to watch a football game , i saw all the uncles excited and saying stuff like" wo baccha ajj khelega" and ye player ka favourite hai , future star and staff , it was messi debut match for Argentina (yess i am older , i will get back to this) ... I looked around i saw a passion in them i have never seen , growing up i craved for that , i would watch football related stuff all day - some years past

I am now going to a football practice camp , i was not talented at all , started very undervalued but without thinking anything i would show up an hour or an hour 30mins before i grinded till i was one of the best there in my position

All this and when i became a bit older i realised i was not special only thing that separates me from others was that i improved , and need better players , so i went to alot of trials and got rejected not because i was bad , i always was one of the final candidates but at the last min , the coach would bring in some kids with some connections and give them the spot (happened to my 5 times in 2 years) .. i signed for a jr 5th devision side , played and something weird happened ... We were about to get promoted (when the season was half over we were 2 on the table) but after that the coach kept off the best players subbed them off .. basically he took money and lost on purpose.... That was my breaking point .. left football, i loved the game too much to be mediocre at it.. i wanted the world , not sports quota job

Part 2 - failed class 8

So after i left football , i stopped everything- going to school , studying, playing and everything - i would sleep at 10pm and wake up at 10-12 am , I didn't do assignments , didnt study , and so i failed class 8 - my parents got frustrated with me and didn't let my teachers promote me on consideration, repeated that year but continued with the same routine and failed again but this time because of corona they promoted everyone , but schools were closed (i know bro i am very old) , so my father said "peso ka dikkat hai , ye toh padhega nhi saal ke end m admission krwa dena (class 9 ) , when my mom went to admit me in class 9 , they said it was too late to take admission in this batch because registration for next years 10th boards was done already, so i had to take admission further a year down ... 2 years wasted

I didn't care , at this time i was playing games all day and shi..

Part 3 - class 9 finally

I got over the stuff and online game , every late in the academic year , when i finnally thought naaah i need to pass i was late i didnt understand anything at all and so i just did assignments and studied a bit and just passed at year .. late that year i got a gf and i had gf before but not anything like this ... This one was special, it meant something to me ... Before this i was playing eSports at the game i was playing so much but left because i knew there was no future in it and game got banned too ... So 10th came this time i knew i was in trouble i didn't know anything at all , i didn't know how to solve even the basic equations and what the hell was physics and chem (icse student) ... I tried self study didn't work , some of my friends told me come to this teacher , he became a mentor for me and didn't say nothing when i said i dont know anything abou this , just explained, gave extra classes , had me come over for overnight session, taught me and some of my friends for nearly the entire nighttt... I got 78% percent in 10th boards

Part 4 - science

11 starting bhaiya told me you knew nothing still scored this much , you can do it and even crack jee (my dumbas* didn't even know what jee was) , he explained and i thought yess i can catch up with my age people if i get such a boost after clg .. this was the 1st time i tried to study for actual, it was hell and i couldn't.. i blamed pw for it and jumbed from this lecs to that to self studies and wasted that year, passed bearly

12 i was still going to that bhaiya for maths for 11 and 12 , only reason i wass 11th - he calmly explained tum gadha hai pw mai koi burai nhi hai teacher acche hai tum time do jo samaj na aye acche mere ake pucho mai concept samjha dunga or pre-requisites padha dunga

Did that , tried but couldn't at the end got 78 percentile at jm and 76% in boards

Final part - class drop year

My stubborn as* didn't/ couldn't give up , hahhhh took a drop

Yess wasted two years and still took a drop , guts on me 🤣

So studied like crazy , did every lecture from prayas and every pre requisite from yt videos .. i would do the lecs what i didnt know from 7 8 9 10 class( tbh i never studied properly and what ever i knew i forgot when i was at home in depression), did every dpp and even did modules , but all that doing lower class things and all i didn't have the energy to revise everyday .. i thought everything is going fine , i can revise after my syllabus is over .... 🤣🤣

So started with this , and and and when did test I found that i did sh*t coz i dont revise, so gave no tests either ... After syllabus ended i just did my short notes and gave jm 1 2026 (yes this year) and scored shiiiii .. got 82%tile

And then jm 2 - this time i revised all things (nearly) but just gave like 3 tests , but i was confident 🙂... Jm 2 came , i went saw the paper ....PANICKED HARDD!! Still did physics first did 18 , chemistry 16 thennn maths panicked sooo much i just attempted 5 or 6 dont even remember.... Result came i got 9x.x percentile

And advance positive 124 , overall 74 ... 🤧 (Panicked as well)

But bhai itna toh bol sakta hu exam mai dar ke fir hagne ke baad bhi IIIT jara hu... A EIGHT FAILED STUDENT GOING TO IIIT NEARLY WENT IIT OR NIT BUT STILL IIIT

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My age - 22 (got admitted in nursery when i was 5)

Location - west bengal ( corruption in sports is just wow)

Failed - class 8

Why did i say i was depressed ?

-> i didnt know it at that time but sleeping for that much time is a symptom , and i didn't want to do anything at all , even didn't like eating

My gf?

-> she is the reason i could get out of it and supported me through it all and she is still with me , we are of same age

Why i am writing this?

-> maybe someone will see this and get inspired from it and get a bit motivated, if i who was a complete retard academically can do this much you can too.

My advice to aspirants

• if you think you can study for more than 10 hrs , go for the drop (dont lie to your self)

• revise every day and give every test , even 16 hrs a day wont matter if you don't revise and give tests

•stop making plans , just start studying and everything will fall right into place .. you are just kidding yourself that youll start when you have the perfect plan

.... And f*ck you, if you think i shouldn't have taken a drop or i am too old , i should've done this that and shiii.. i had thought it through and honestly i am more mature than you'll ever be and i wont explain this to anyone .. i have done it for myself..

To those who think "i cant " ask yourself you can't? Or you wont?

Peace ✌️

Ps ,- my gf had a lot of hand in my life but i dont want to share that much with people online about her , she's the best thing that ever happened to me .. And alot happened to me but all that details would take forever to write , anyone who read this and didn't i hope you make it big .. thanks

Hear me out , in the first world there were true gods Earth sun sea rain , true embodiment of the universe blessed with the task of life and all in this op world ... One of them corrupted either sun or earth during the first world resulting in death of all others except the sea god but due to prayers of people of this world bodies of three gods gave rise to devil fruits or blessings so that people may prosper .... In the 2nd world imu and joy boy became the earth and sun god , and found about the true gods bodies imu tried to obtain the body of nika while joy boy tried prevent it resulting in death of joy boy and imu taking host in nika's body giving hime access to true divine powers and at some point the sea goddess grew hate for mere mortals to wield a fraction of godly power so she decides to curse anyone who eates it resulting in drowning of the fruit bearers....Maybe there where even more people associated with those gods who were present in the first world and whose ancestors now hold the name "D".

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