is my bf just really a boring partner or he just doesn’t love me?
hi! i’m 23 F and my partner is 24 M. my partner and i have been in a relationship for 2 years already at never ko naramdaman sakanya na inisip niya yung kapakanan ko bago siya.
una, sinabi ko na sakanya na hindi ako komportable na umiinom siya pero he kept on doing it until ako na mismo yung sumuko na pigilan siya at hayaan siya sa gusto niya while i’m here at home, always waiting for him na safe na makauwi. for context, pinipigilan ko siya uminom because his friends are assholes. ako na lang din naaawa sa bf ko kasi minsan sa sahig natutulog at nakakahiya ‘yon para sakin. every time din na nakainom siya, aayain niya ako na lumabas tapos mag cocomplain lang siya na masakit ulo niya, may hangover siya tapos susungitan niya ako and mag aaway kami.
pangalawa, he never plans date. one time sinabi ko na gusto ko mag beach sana at planuhin niya for our birthday or anniv. he said na dapat may ibang kasama kasi mas masaya raw kapag maraming kasama haha :/
pangatlo, whenever we’re having sex, it feels like we’re more of a fubu than lovers. never cuddles, no after cares, no kisses in the forehead, no i love yous during sex even though i say it multiple times but never said it back. i envy those couples na sobrang soft lang ng relationship because the guy loves the girl more.
i don’t really know how ako tumagal ng 2 years. binigyan ko siya ng maraming chance but ngayon ko lang na-realize how sad i am in this relationship. pinipilit ko na buhayin pero sobrang pagod na ko maging lalaki sa relasyon na ‘to. sobrang tanga ko na and i know it already bago niyo ko sabihan ng harsh words because people here mostly likes to throw harsh words when they read a story how far can someone go through when they’re in love. i wish mine will be read by someone who’s empath enough to listen and be kind 🙃
mali ko lang sa relasyon na ‘to is how i chose him over my friends kaya ngayon, halos wala na rin akong contact sa friends ko kasi masyado kong ginawang mundo yung lalaking pinaramdam sakin na importante ako sa buhay niya haha.