Do other darksin women deals with masculinization ?
Obliviously I know all darksin women deal with being masculinized but I'm talking about how it can impact the way you perceive yourself. I'm a darksin woman,since recently I only had white friends. 2 months ago I became friends with two light skin girls. I don't know how to describe it but since I have blk women in my sphere it's like I'm becoming the "dark skin" one (whereas with my white friends I was just "the black girl").
I'm having a hard time not thinking of that and I began to perceive myself as masculine even though I know I'm not. Every time I put on makeup I just feel like a guy who would cosplay as a girl.
The ironi is that I'm really feminine in my day to day life and put on more effort in my appearance compared to my friend (I always have my hair, my nails, my makeup done etc..) but I don't know I just stopped being confident in my skin color.