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Especially in my case. Yeah, I said I had alcohol and was thinking of getting pills. But if former therapist dug deeper into my thinking, I wouldn't have been handcuffed, thrown into an ambulance, had my fucking rights taken away, and been stripped naked, the entire fucking event wouldn't have happened. I never wanted to end my life.

She never did an adequate suicide risk assessmemt, she never did a safety plan. Nothing.

She also fucking let me leave, book another appointment and carry on my day.

Which I did.

I did everything a "normal" person would do: went to my orthodontist appt, took care of my dogs, and hung out with friends.

A fucking phone call would have changed everything!

Now, I have to live with the fucking experience of getting fucking betrayed by the first person I trusted since my Dad passing, the experience of getting handcuffed, and everything I mentioned above. While, former therapist happily lives her life.

I thought mentioning those thoughts would allow me to process it with her and help me out of those thoughts, but no. They did the fucking opposite! It made my thoughts so much fucking worse and I'm going to end it when I sign my will tomorrow.

The big fucking thing is I wasn't even suicidal when I first started therapy. I just wanted an ESA letter. Then of course, a client becomes attached to therapist, because that is what happens. She didn't even do anything to mitigate the attachment. I feel so much worse after my sessions.

If I can't process these thoughts with her, then where can I?

I never wanted to end my life then. I wanted to be understood, valued, and seen.

I'm in so much fucking pain. God fucking damn.

There were a number of things that she lied about. I already read through it once and it fucking aggravated me. Now, I need to read through it again and take some notes so I can make a complaint to the board about her lies.

Reading my file just gives me proof that a therapist's empathy is fucking fake AF. Their notes are written to protect them; not the client.

It also makes me feel like a fucking lab rat and not as a human being that needs help.

I wish I never went to therapy. A coworker was pressuring me to fucking go after my relatives unalived themselves last year. I care about my relatives dying, but I wasn't so depressed over it to the point where I needed therapy. I fucking hate people saying: "go to therapy!!" for everything fucking thing.

I wish I never gave into the peer pressure.

I'm so fucking angry.

My will will be complete on Tuesday and I'll be gone from this world. I can't wait to be free from therapy abuse.

I'm dealing with so much psychological damage, missing work, trauma, suicide attempts...just want justice.

Has anyone felt this way?

I feel like the pain will never go away. I just want the pain to stop. I regret going to therapy because it made my life so much worse.

I've been thinking of drafting up a will to make sure my dogs are protected if anything were to happen to me.

I don't have friends or family who would take my dogs and take care of them if anything were to happen to me. I don't have a spouse. I am acquaintances with the people at the dog park I frequent. I am considering on naming them in my will....

My only wish is my dog's ashes are spread with me if i were to pass away first. Or if they pass away first, I'd like their urns with me in my casket.

Would my wish be fulfilled? Would my family remember? Would my dog's new adopters do this?

Anybody experienced this?

I genuinely want outside opinions because I don't know if my feelings are valid or if I'm just seeing this through my own hurt.

I've been seeing my therapist (associate therapist at a private practice) for quite a while. Overall, I trusted her a lot. Probably more than I've ever trusted anyone since my dad died several years ago.

On Wednesday, during therapy, I told her I was having suicidal thoughts. I mentioned that I had alcohol at home and had been thinking about buying pills. I never gave a timeframe, never said I was going to do it that day, and honestly I was hoping she'd ask me more questions about why I was feeling that way.

Instead, after the session ended, she apparently called the police for a welfare check.

Here's what she didn't know because she never called me:

• I went to my 3 p.m. orthodontist appointment.
• Around 4 p.m. my kickball game got canceled because of the air quality, so my team decided to meet at a bar instead for movie trivia.
• I went home, took care of my dogs, and left around 6:30.
• I had a genuinely great time with my friends.

I didn't look at my phone until around 8:30 p.m., and by then I had multiple missed calls from my sister and unknown numbers. My sister told me the police were looking for me.

I called the police back because I was confused. They told me to come to the station. I ended up being handcuffed and taken to the psych ER for evaluation.

The whole experience was incredibly traumatic for me. Being searched, having my clothes taken, sitting in a locked room for hours, losing my freedom...I honestly feel like I have PTSD from it.

The part I can't get past is this:

Why couldn't she have called me first?

If she had called me, she would have learned exactly where I was and what I was doing.

She would've found out I was with friends.

She would've found out I wasn't sitting alone drinking.

She would've found out I wasn't actively trying to end my life.

I know therapists have obligations when someone talks about suicide. I understand that. But I keep wondering if there was room for one more conversation before involving the police.

After I was discharged from the hospital on Friday, I emailed her explaining how hurt I was. I told her I wished she'd asked more probing questions and simply called me. I also said I didn't know what treatment looked like going forward, that I didn't trust therapists anymore, but maybe after some time I'd be open to working with her again.

Her response basically said she agreed terminating therapy was the most clinically appropriate decision, gave me a list of referrals, and wished me well.

The whole thing felt incredibly cold.

So I guess my questions are:

• Was my therapist justified in calling the police based on what I said?
• Should she have called or texted me first to better understand what was happening?
• Am I unreasonable for feeling like the therapeutic relationship ended in a way that lacked compassion?
• If you were in my shoes, would you ever trust that therapist again?

I'm honestly looking for honest opinions, including from therapists if there are any here. I know my emotions are probably influencing how I see this, and I'd like to hear perspectives I may be missing.

I genuinely want outside opinions because I don't know if my feelings are valid or if I'm just seeing this through my own hurt.

I've been seeing my therapist (associate therapist at a private practice) for quite a while. Overall, I trusted her a lot. Probably more than I've ever trusted anyone since my dad died several years ago.

On Wednesday, during therapy, I told her I was having suicidal thoughts. I mentioned that I had alcohol at home and had been thinking about buying pills. I never gave a timeframe, never said I was going to do it that day, and honestly I was hoping she'd ask me more questions about why I was feeling that way.

Instead, after the session ended, she apparently called the police for a welfare check.

Here's what she didn't know because she never called me:

• I went to my 3 p.m. orthodontist appointment.
• Around 4 p.m. my kickball game got canceled because of the air quality, so my team decided to meet at a bar instead for movie trivia.
• I went home, took care of my dogs, and left around 6:30.
• I had a genuinely great time with my friends.

I didn't look at my phone until around 8:30 p.m., and by then I had multiple missed calls from my sister and unknown numbers. My sister told me the police were looking for me.

I called the police back because I was confused. They told me to come to the station. I ended up being handcuffed and taken to the psych ER for evaluation.

The whole experience was incredibly traumatic for me. Being searched, having my clothes taken, sitting in a locked room for hours, losing my freedom...I honestly feel like I have PTSD from it.

The part I can't get past is this:

Why couldn't she have called me first?

If she had called me, she would have learned exactly where I was and what I was doing.

She would've found out I was with friends.

She would've found out I wasn't sitting alone drinking.

She would've found out I wasn't actively trying to end my life.

I know therapists have obligations when someone talks about suicide. I understand that. But I keep wondering if there was room for one more conversation before involving the police.

After I was discharged from the hospital on Friday, I emailed her explaining how hurt I was. I told her I wished she'd asked more probing questions and simply called me. I also said I didn't know what treatment looked like going forward, that I didn't trust therapists anymore, but maybe after some time I'd be open to working with her again.

Her response basically said she agreed terminating therapy was the most clinically appropriate decision, gave me a list of referrals, and wished me well.

The whole thing felt incredibly cold.

So I guess my questions are:

• Was my therapist justified in calling the police based on what I said?
• Should she have called or texted me first to better understand what was happening?
• Am I unreasonable for feeling like the therapeutic relationship ended in a way that lacked compassion?
• If you were in my shoes, would you ever trust that therapist again?

I'm honestly looking for honest opinions, including from therapists if there are any here. I know my emotions are probably influencing how I see this, and I'd like to hear perspectives I may be missing.

I genuinely want outside opinions because I don't know if my feelings are valid or if I'm just seeing this through my own hurt.

I've been seeing my therapist (associate therapist at a private practice) for quite a while. Overall, I trusted her a lot. Probably more than I've ever trusted anyone since my dad died several years ago.

On Wednesday, during therapy, I told her I was having suicidal thoughts. I mentioned that I had alcohol at home and had been thinking about buying pills. I never gave a timeframe, never said I was going to do it that day, and honestly I was hoping she'd ask me more questions about why I was feeling that way.

Instead, after the session ended, she apparently called the police for a welfare check.

Here's what she didn't know because she never called me:

• I went to my 3 p.m. orthodontist appointment.
• Around 4 p.m. my kickball game got canceled because of the air quality, so my team decided to meet at a bar instead for movie trivia.
• I went home, took care of my dogs, and left around 6:30.
• I had a genuinely great time with my friends.

I didn't look at my phone until around 8:30 p.m., and by then I had multiple missed calls from my sister and unknown numbers. My sister told me the police were looking for me.

I called the police back because I was confused. They told me to come to the station. I ended up being handcuffed and taken to the psych ER for evaluation.

The whole experience was incredibly traumatic for me. Being searched, having my clothes taken, sitting in a locked room for hours, losing my freedom...I honestly feel like I have PTSD from it.

The part I can't get past is this:

Why couldn't she have called me first?

If she had called me, she would have learned exactly where I was and what I was doing.

She would've found out I was with friends.

She would've found out I wasn't sitting alone drinking.

She would've found out I wasn't actively trying to end my life.

I know therapists have obligations when someone talks about suicide. I understand that. But I keep wondering if there was room for one more conversation before involving the police.

After I was discharged from the hospital on Friday, I emailed her explaining how hurt I was. I told her I wished she'd asked more probing questions and simply called me. I also said I didn't know what treatment looked like going forward, that I didn't trust therapists anymore, but maybe after some time I'd be open to working with her again.

Her response basically said she agreed terminating therapy was the most clinically appropriate decision, gave me a list of referrals, and wished me well.

The whole thing felt incredibly cold.

So I guess my questions are:

• Was my therapist justified in calling the police based on what I said?
• Should she have called or texted me first to better understand what was happening?
• Am I unreasonable for feeling like the therapeutic relationship ended in a way that lacked compassion?
• If you were in my shoes, would you ever trust that therapist again?

I'm honestly looking for honest opinions, including from therapists if there are any here. I know my emotions are probably influencing how I see this, and I'd like to hear perspectives I may be missing.

I genuinely want outside opinions because I don't know if my feelings are valid or if I'm just seeing this through my own hurt.

I've been seeing my therapist (associate therapist at a private practice) for quite a while. Overall, I trusted her a lot. Probably more than I've ever trusted anyone since my dad died several years ago.

On Wednesday, during therapy, I told her I was having suicidal thoughts. I mentioned that I had alcohol at home and had been thinking about buying pills. I never gave a timeframe, never said I was going to do it that day, and honestly I was hoping she'd ask me more questions about why I was feeling that way.

Instead, after the session ended, she apparently called the police for a welfare check.

Here's what she didn't know because she never called me:

• I went to my 3 p.m. orthodontist appointment.
• Around 4 p.m. my kickball game got canceled because of the air quality, so my team decided to meet at a bar instead for movie trivia.
• I went home, took care of my dogs, and left around 6:30.
• I had a genuinely great time with my friends.

I didn't look at my phone until around 8:30 p.m., and by then I had multiple missed calls from my sister and unknown numbers. My sister told me the police were looking for me.

I called the police back because I was confused. They told me to come to the station. I ended up being handcuffed and taken to the psych ER for evaluation.

The whole experience was incredibly traumatic for me. Being searched, having my clothes taken, sitting in a locked room for hours, losing my freedom...I honestly feel like I have PTSD from it.

The part I can't get past is this:

Why couldn't she have called me first?

If she had called me, she would have learned exactly where I was and what I was doing.

She would've found out I was with friends.

She would've found out I wasn't sitting alone drinking.

She would've found out I wasn't actively trying to end my life.

I know therapists have obligations when someone talks about suicide. I understand that. But I keep wondering if there was room for one more conversation before involving the police.

After I was discharged from the hospital on Friday, I emailed her explaining how hurt I was. I told her I wished she'd asked more probing questions and simply called me. I also said I didn't know what treatment looked like going forward, that I didn't trust therapists anymore, but maybe after some time I'd be open to working with her again.

Her response basically said she agreed terminating therapy was the most clinically appropriate decision, gave me a list of referrals, and wished me well.

The whole thing felt incredibly cold.

So I guess my questions are:

• Was my therapist justified in calling the police based on what I said?
• Should she have called or texted me first to better understand what was happening?
• Am I unreasonable for feeling like the therapeutic relationship ended in a way that lacked compassion?
• If you were in my shoes, would you ever trust that therapist again?

I'm honestly looking for honest opinions, including from therapists if there are any here. I know my emotions are probably influencing how I see this, and I'd like to hear perspectives I may be missing.

I'm looking for therapists' opinions because I'm trying to understand this from the clinician's perspective. Non-therapists can comment too.

I've been seeing my therapist for quite a while, and over time I developed a very strong attachment to her. It's not romantic, but I deeply wanted a friendship with her outside of therapy. After researching, I know this won't be possible in this lifetime...

Throughout therapy, she consistently maintained boundaries. She redirected personal questions, emphasized that I should build connection and fulfillment with people in my own life rather than through her, and never entertained discussions about becoming friends in the future. If I asked whether we could ever be friends someday, she said it wasn't appropriate for her to answer that question.

Eventually I became overwhelmed by the grief of realizing the relationship would always remain therapist/client. I found myself thinking about it constantly. It affected my concentration, my music practice, my social life, and even my ability to enjoy things that normally make me happy.

As the weeks went on, I became increasingly depressed. I started having suicidal thoughts because the emotional pain felt unbearable. I am comparing this to a friendship breakup even though we were never friends. I reached a point where I was thinking about suicide and seriously considering it.

My therapist knows about the attachment. We've been working through it in multiple sessions. She doesnt know about the suicidal thoughts.

Instead, I told her I was taking a two-week vacation. That wasn't true. During that time I actually sought out another therapist because I wanted a second opinion and because I didn't know how to tell my current therapist how severe my depression and suicidal thoughts had become. I think part of me also didn't want to burden her with how much I was struggling.

I wasn't trying to replace her or compare therapists. I honestly just wanted help understanding why I couldn't accept the boundaries, why I wanted her friendship so badly, and why this loss felt so catastrophic.

Now I'm wondering several things:

• If a client came back and admitted they lied about being on vacation, how would you respond? Would you refer out?
• Would you feel hurt by the dishonesty, or would you see it as clinically meaningful information?
• If you learned the client saw another individual therapist during that time, would you continue treatment or discuss transferring care?
• If the client signed releases so both therapists could communicate, would you want to coordinate care?
• From your perspective, what usually causes this level of attachment to a therapist?
• Is it common for clients to grieve a therapist almost like they're grieving the loss of an important relationship?
• If you were the therapist in this situation, what would you hope your client would do next?

I'm genuinely looking for therapists' perspectives, especially from those who have worked with attachment, grief, or transference.

TL;DR: I developed a very strong (non-romantic) attachment to my therapist and struggled to accept that our relationship could never become a friendship. As the grief worsened, I became depressed and had suicidal thoughts. Instead of telling my therapist the truth, I lied and said I was taking a two-week vacation while I sought a second therapist for another perspective. I'm wondering how therapists would view this situation, whether they'd continue treatment, coordinate care, and what they'd hope the client would do next.

I'm looking for therapists' opinions because I'm trying to understand this from the clinician's perspective.

I've been seeing my therapist for quite a while, and over time I developed a very strong attachment to her. It's not romantic, but I deeply wanted a friendship with her outside of therapy. After researching, I know this won't be possible in this lifetime...

Throughout therapy, she consistently maintained boundaries. She redirected personal questions, emphasized that I should build connection and fulfillment with people in my own life rather than through her, and never entertained discussions about becoming friends in the future. If I asked whether we could ever be friends someday, she said it wasn't appropriate for her to answer that question.

Eventually I became overwhelmed by the grief of realizing the relationship would always remain therapist/client. I found myself thinking about it constantly. It affected my concentration, my music practice, my social life, and even my ability to enjoy things that normally make me happy.

As the weeks went on, I became increasingly depressed. I started having suicidal thoughts because the emotional pain felt unbearable. I am comparing this to a friendship breakup even though we were never friends. I reached a point where I was thinking about suicide and seriously considering it.

My therapist knows about the attachment. We've been working through it in multiple sessions. She doesnt know about the suicidal thoughts.

Instead, I told her I was taking a two-week vacation. That wasn't true. During that time I actually sought out another therapist because I wanted a second opinion and because I didn't know how to tell my current therapist how severe my depression and suicidal thoughts had become. I think part of me also didn't want to burden her with how much I was struggling.

I wasn't trying to replace her or compare therapists. I honestly just wanted help understanding why I couldn't accept the boundaries, why I wanted her friendship so badly, and why this loss felt so catastrophic.

Now I'm wondering several things:

• If a client came back and admitted they lied about being on vacation, how would you respond? Would you refer out?
• Would you feel hurt by the dishonesty, or would you see it as clinically meaningful information?
• If you learned the client saw another individual therapist during that time, would you continue treatment or discuss transferring care?
• If the client signed releases so both therapists could communicate, would you want to coordinate care?
• From your perspective, what usually causes this level of attachment to a therapist?
• Is it common for clients to grieve a therapist almost like they're grieving the loss of an important relationship?
• If you were the therapist in this situation, what would you hope your client would do next?

I'm genuinely looking for therapists' perspectives, especially from those who have worked with attachment, grief, or transference.

TL;DR: I developed a very strong (non-romantic) attachment to my therapist and struggled to accept that our relationship could never become a friendship. As the grief worsened, I became depressed and had suicidal thoughts. Instead of telling my therapist the truth, I lied and said I was taking a two-week vacation while I sought a second therapist for another perspective. I'm wondering how therapists would view this situation, whether they'd continue treatment, coordinate care, and what they'd hope the client would do next.