I remember being 14 and one teacher called me fake and two faced. Need some insights.

hi. I'm 18 now. But this incident has impacted me so much. I remember sitting there when she came over to a dog to feed it treats..and i started asking her about her day/how is she etc etc when she said "you don't have to be two faced in front of me". I freezed and said nothing. I ignored it. I said bye. And then when she left i remember breaking down in tears...

It was during my internship when it all happened. I would say I didn't have much insight into my own self identity and my likes or dislikes and i just wanted to get along with people. Maybe i was overly polite or overly humble. But i for sure wasn't faking it. I loved making people feel seen and making them feel heard. Ask them about their day.

This isn't the first incident, my other teacher has called me out in the class for being a people pleaser. Not sure why. I used to admire, talk nicely, chat with almost everybody and kids were asking her to let them sit with me. It does sound fake or cringe as I'm saying it but i just need some advice onto how do I recover from this.

I haven't been the same since. I've lost my enthusiasm..my spark or excitement in social settings. I just don't feel the same anymore and it has been 4 years since it happened. Please help!

edit: i forgot to clarify in the post but i did message the first teacher who called me two-faced and confessed how badly i was hurt and told her i am just 14 and still learning how to engage with people socially. That internship expected me to be polite and formal and i was trying my best to learn those skills, and then she replied saying sorry and asked if she could have dinner with me. i said yes, then she said she mistakenly projected her way of being happy onto me. i was 14 and did not understand what she meant and thus it still stings very badly, i wonder she said sorry cause otherwise she would face some professional consequences which i am scared she later did for that comment when my mentor asked me why i was skipping work and i said i've been feeling down and anxious because of this.

that mentor later on scolded me for not telling her earlier and said it was an excuse for me to skip work which just made it even worse. she later said she would not give me the certificate of the internship and i agreed, she for sure has cut ties with me and hates me, which i do not mind because i dont love how she handled it as well-especially when i was a kid in a formal space.

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 12 hours ago

Foundation or direct entry?

Hello everybody. I just got in 2nd year semester 3 of b.com hons. Is it okay to appear for cma foundation or should I prep for inter and do direct entry after grad? Since inter ka syllabus is vast. I just wanna land a decent paying job (3/5/6 lpa) after grad

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 1 day ago

Guys, don't take drop for colleges unless you get a really really terrible one.

I'm from jmc And even during my 1st year i was hell bent on giving cuet again because of the hype of top north campus colleges. TRUST ME..IT IS NOT WORTH IT. now I think if I had invested my time somewhere else i would have achieved more by now. I still have 2-3 years left for college tho. But..

Please..if you get a good one. Stay there. Even decent is fine.

Aim for off campus placements first with awesome CV and skills

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 8 days ago
▲ 7 r/IndiaCareers+1 crossposts

gap years

hi everybody, i've been wanting to ask a question. suppose after 2 years of my b.com degree, i end up switching my college and restarting it from 1st year. However, if during my 2nd year i did enroll in the course for foundation, cleared it and started for Inter- it will still be counted as 2 years gap or one? What will my resume look like?

Asking this question to better understand year gaps.

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 9 days ago

Guys. Currently jmc 2nd year. Might get srcc for b.com hons. Should I take it?

It might sound stupid but I couldn't give the exam in the first year and I come from a local public girls school to a girls college, didn't have a lot of confidence/communication skills and thus worked on them in the time being. I couldn't really attend first year properly because of motion sickness and many health issues thus I feel like my time here went down the drain.

Mba is not an option for me because of some personal issues, I will need a good placement straight out of UG first to build work experience...will consider masters later. I really need/want to build a strong profile and thus was considering a tier1 ug.

Should I take it?

Edit: 2nd year completed but not a lot of experience on my plate. Missed out a lot due to health issues, that is, couldn't travel to college and barely managed to pass.

Edit 2: same course currently.

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 10 days ago

I feel like my boyfriend (20M) has resentment over how I (18F) treated him before i got together with him and he holds it against me. How do I move forward?

Hi everybody. I've been with him for about 9-10 months now. The thing is, when we initially started talking, everything went well. but then when he confessed, I really didn't pay a lot of attention to it and told him many times that I was unsure and uncertain but i wanted to date him as well. While i was extremely friendly and loving for the coming few months, i was also uncertain and I used to try to want to breakup over any minor disagreements because i was just uncertain and quite immature and didn't know what i really wanted. I think I do share some avoidant attachment traits which i am working on. Then..one day. He told me how much all of this has hurted him. My uncertainty about our relationship..he told me he has struggled to feel peaceful and cried a lot of nights..all of this hurted me and i promised to work on this because I was sure now about him. Now, since past 2-3 months, I have dealt with our fights and arguments neutrally without jumping to breakup or conclusions and have became more normal now..but I've noticed one thing..

  1. during our fights. He gets extremely defensive and reminds me how i was emotionally abusive to him because i didn't pay a lot of attention to him.
  2. he tells me things like "I feel like I pay more attention to your emotions than mine" when during our fight yesterday I tried to reach out and communicate about my anxiety and sadness.
  3. everytime we fight..he always thinks I'll be the one breaking up and he sorts of says "I knew you would want to breakup" when in fact, I do not.
  4. I'm also somebody who's not very mature and i said a lot of bad things/got defensive in our past when we initially started dating. I take things personally but I am improving constantly.
  5. I have apologized profusely for whatever happened and for what i did..and I've worked on it. But i feel like he is constantly unhappy and unsatisfied with me. He tells me all he needs is for me to work on these things which i am doing. But i do feel like he will never forget what happened between us. I don't want him to forget, just want him to fully feel safe and loved with me. And I'm trying to do that.

Any advice: how do I move forward? I really can't make sense of this situation. I still don't know how to fix it or make him feel loved and safe with me again.

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 1 month ago
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How to start with prep?

Hi everybody. Im sorry if I come across as ignorant or a little Dumb, but as far as I know:

You have to be 21 of age to sit for the exam and there are two tiers? First is the exam you appear for to get eligible for tier 2 exam that is the main deciding factor. I hope that's correct.

In currently pursuing b.com hons 1st year at Jesus and mary, delhi University. I don't have much info about SSC CGL but i need some help as to where to begin my prepartion from free resources/videos/courses/book for the tier 1 exam first and all of its subs. Please. I'll be eternally grateful :p

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 1 month ago

Guys tell me.

Suppose you are in a decent college. And you are in 2nd year. Is it stupid to want a different college or the tier1 ug for your stream and try to appear for the entrance again? It sounds really dumb cause then it'll take you 5 years to just finish your grad overall. What do u think?

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 2 months ago
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Introduction to ssc cgl

Hi everybody. I don't know a lot about this exam and what it comes with..the syllabus, the attempts or anything else. I would be really grateful If you could provide a speedrun(intro) about this exam! Please!

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u/FollowingGlum434 — 2 months ago