I was talking about this with my friends and we need to know if anyone had ever dropped acid or Molly at an Astros or Texans game. I said it’s had to happen she said no, any stories?
I accidentally broke through on dmt at griztronics gorge.
I’m not here to be judged, I did what I did and obviously I regret it or I wouldn’t be here typing this. But it is what it is, and it is 100% my fault. However I do wish I got a warning how strong said dmt was in comparison to one I had done before which so minor to this experience. However if you disrespect drugs, they’ll fuck you so hard back. And here I crossed the line. I wanted to trip acid. I took 2 tabs and None of it was hitting. I guess were old idk. so my friend mentioned our other group of friends had a dmt pen, so we went to find them in the crowd. I take a hit of a dmt and enter a dimension of how I read it is how the brain processes color, which is the neon orbs of energy of every being of living life is perceived, it was truly beautiful and euphoric unlike anything I’ve ever seen witnessed.
But for whatever reason, my ego made me take another hit.
I had tried DMT once before at a friend’s house, and it barely affected me — just a very light version of the colorful beings and altered perception I described earlier. This was completely different.
After the second hit, it felt like I zoomed out of life itself, almost like Google Maps Street View pulling away from my own existence. It felt like I was seeing reality from outside the perspective of being human — like viewing life from the developers’ screen of a video game before textures and colors are added.
I saw a blended reality made up of every person, memory, and experience I’ve ever had, all merged together into one giant “menu” of existence. It felt like I was scrolling through my own consciousness — sight, color, memories, emotions — almost like navigating the home screen of a video game.
At one point, I saw every person I’ve ever known lined up individually, almost like Mii characters on the Wii menu. But they slowly became grayscale. Everything became grayscale.
Life itself looked like an unfinished CAD model or a base-rendered video game world with no textures loaded in yet. Every human figure was just gray — no individuality, no features, no customization. Just empty models.
Then suddenly, everything I knew — every sense, every memory, every piece of reality — got sucked into what felt like a black hole.
I collapsed.
I screamed “NOOO!” and grabbed my girlfriend’s arm because I genuinely believed everything was disappearing and that I was dying. It felt like reality itself was being erased.
Then, slowly, my senses started returning one by one. Eventually I opened my eyes and realized I was back in reality, with everyone standing over me in shock and concern. For a second, I honestly thought I had stopped the entire show because I saw people waving flashlights, but the set had actually just ended.
Part of what I felt afterward was embarrassment. But another part was pure existential horror over what I had just experienced.
For several minutes I just sat there terrified, repeatedly saying, “Oh my God,” trying to process what I had seen.
I’m Catholic, so afterward I started questioning everything. Was that experience showing me some deeper truth about existence? Is life really just a temporary “model” or simulation-like experience that eventually collapses into nothingness? Is that why faith exists in the first place — because this world is temporary, while the soul and what we truly love continue somewhere beyond it?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that the experience completely changed my perspective on life, death, consciousness, and reality itself.
I’m sharing this because I’m still trying to process it all, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had similar DMT experiences or similar thoughts afterward.
Sorry if this sounds confusing. I’m still trying to understand it myself.
I accidentally broke through on dmt at griztronics gorge.
I’m not here to be judged, I did what I did and obviously I regret it or I wouldn’t be here typing this. But it is what it is, and it is 100% my fault. However I do wish I got a warning how strong said dmt was in comparison to one I had done before which so minor to this experience. However if you disrespect drugs, they’ll fuck you so hard back. And here I crossed the line. I wanted to trip acid. I took 2 tabs and None of it was hitting. I guess were old idk. so my friend mentioned our other group of friends had a dmt pen, so we went to find them in the crowd. I take a hit of a dmt and enter a dimension of how I read it is how the brain processes color, which is the neon orbs of energy of every being of living life is perceived, it was truly beautiful and euphoric unlike anything I’ve ever seen witnessed.
But for whatever reason, my ego made me take another hit.
I had tried DMT once before at a friend’s house, and it barely affected me — just a very light version of the colorful beings and altered perception I described earlier. This was completely different.
After the second hit, it felt like I zoomed out of life itself, almost like Google Maps Street View pulling away from my own existence. It felt like I was seeing reality from outside the perspective of being human — like viewing life from the developers’ screen of a video game before textures and colors are added.
I saw a blended reality made up of every person, memory, and experience I’ve ever had, all merged together into one giant “menu” of existence. It felt like I was scrolling through my own consciousness — sight, color, memories, emotions — almost like navigating the home screen of a video game.
At one point, I saw every person I’ve ever known lined up individually, almost like Mii characters on the Wii menu. But they slowly became grayscale. Everything became grayscale.
Life itself looked like an unfinished CAD model or a base-rendered video game world with no textures loaded in yet. Every human figure was just gray — no individuality, no features, no customization. Just empty models.
Then suddenly, everything I knew — every sense, every memory, every piece of reality — got sucked into what felt like a black hole.
I collapsed.
I screamed “NOOO!” and grabbed my girlfriend’s arm because I genuinely believed everything was disappearing and that I was dying. It felt like reality itself was being erased.
Then, slowly, my senses started returning one by one. Eventually I opened my eyes and realized I was back in reality, with everyone standing over me in shock and concern. For a second, I honestly thought I had stopped the entire show because I saw people waving flashlights, but the set had actually just ended.
Part of what I felt afterward was embarrassment. But another part was pure existential horror over what I had just experienced.
For several minutes I just sat there terrified, repeatedly saying, “Oh my God,” trying to process what I had seen.
I’m Catholic, so afterward I started questioning everything. Was that experience showing me some deeper truth about existence? Is life really just a temporary “model” or simulation-like experience that eventually collapses into nothingness designed by some cosmic teenager like a computer game? Is that why faith exists in the first place — because this world is temporary, while the soul and what we truly love continue somewhere beyond it?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that the experience completely changed my perspective on life, death, consciousness, and reality itself.
I’m sharing this because I’m still trying to process it all, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had similar DMT experiences or similar thoughts afterward.
Sorry if this sounds confusing. I’m still trying to understand it myself.
Edit: has anyone ever seen Indiana jones crystal skull? I felt like I was gaining that information from those aliens and this was all just their computer program. Like what I was seeing at first was their sophisticated world. Then I got access to behind the scenes of our shitty world that was shittly designed by them with shitty graphics.
Edit: another movie comparison, ready player one. I felt like the first hit brought me to that life and I was looking around at this sophisticated world with so much color and texture. Then, one by one I got sent back to square one of the games creation and deleted into pixels. Sorry for the wold jumble just trying to see if anyone relates.
I accidentally broke through on dmt at griztronics gorge.
I’m not here to be judged, I did what I did and obviously I regret it or I wouldn’t be here typing this. But it is what it is, and it is 100% my fault. However I do wish I got a warning how strong said dmt was in comparison to one I had done before which so minor to this experience. However if you disrespect drugs, they’ll fuck you so hard back. And here I crossed the line. I wanted to trip acid. I took 2 tabs and None of it was hitting. I guess were old idk. so my friend mentioned our other group of friends had a dmt pen, so we went to find them in the crowd. I take a hit of a dmt and enter a dimension of how I read it is how the brain processes color, which is the neon orbs of energy of every being of living life is perceived, it was truly beautiful and euphoric unlike anything I’ve ever seen witnessed.
But for whatever reason, my ego made me take another hit.
I had tried DMT once before at a friend’s house, and it barely affected me — just a very light version of the colorful beings and altered perception I described earlier. This was completely different.
After the second hit, it felt like I zoomed out of life itself, almost like Google Maps Street View pulling away from my own existence. It felt like I was seeing reality from outside the perspective of being human — like viewing life from the developers’ screen of a video game before textures and colors are added.
I saw a blended reality made up of every person, memory, and experience I’ve ever had, all merged together into one giant “menu” of existence. It felt like I was scrolling through my own consciousness — sight, color, memories, emotions — almost like navigating the home screen of a video game.
At one point, I saw every person I’ve ever known lined up individually, almost like Mii characters on the Wii menu. But they slowly became grayscale. Everything became grayscale.
Life itself looked like an unfinished CAD model or a base-rendered video game world with no textures loaded in yet. Every human figure was just gray — no individuality, no features, no customization. Just empty models.
Then suddenly, everything I knew — every sense, every memory, every piece of reality — got sucked into what felt like a black hole.
I collapsed.
I screamed “NOOO!” and grabbed my girlfriend’s arm because I genuinely believed everything was disappearing and that I was dying. It felt like reality itself was being erased.
Then, slowly, my senses started returning one by one. Eventually I opened my eyes and realized I was back in reality, with everyone standing over me in shock and concern. For a second, I honestly thought I had stopped the entire show because I saw people waving flashlights, but the set had actually just ended.
Part of what I felt afterward was embarrassment. But another part was pure existential horror over what I had just experienced.
For several minutes I just sat there terrified, repeatedly saying, “Oh my God,” trying to process what I had seen.
I’m Catholic, so afterward I started questioning everything. Was that experience showing me some deeper truth about existence? Is life really just a temporary “model” or simulation-like experience that eventually collapses into nothingness? Is that why faith exists in the first place — because this world is temporary, while the soul and what we truly love continue somewhere beyond it?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that the experience completely changed my perspective on life, death, consciousness, and reality itself.
I’m sharing this because I’m still trying to process it all, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had similar DMT experiences or similar thoughts afterward.
Sorry if this sounds confusing. I’m still trying to understand it myself.
I accidentally broke through on dmt at griztronics gorge.
I’m not here to be judged, I did what I did and obviously I regret it or I wouldn’t be here typing this. But it is what it is, and it is 100% my fault. However I do wish I got a warning how strong said dmt was in comparison to one I had done before which so minor to this experience. However if you disrespect drugs, they’ll fuck you so hard back. And here I crossed the line. I wanted to trip acid. I took 2 tabs and None of it was hitting. I guess were old idk. so my friend mentioned our other group of friends had a dmt pen, so we went to find them in the crowd. I take a hit of a dmt and enter a dimension of how I read it is how the brain processes color, which is the neon orbs of energy of every being of living life is perceived, it was truly beautiful and euphoric unlike anything I’ve ever seen witnessed, but forever reason, I guess my ego made me take another hit. I’ve tripped dmt at home once before at my friends house and it was nothing, barely the sense how I described before of the colored beings and how I perceive color but very very lightly. After this second hit, I began to how other describe it zoom out on life itself like Google Maps street view from the perspective of myself, or if you would say I was viewing life itself from the designers of grand theft auto that was standstill with no color added. I also saw a blended reality of all people and memories I’ve ever had blended into one, as if I was in the home menu of my own video game shuffling through each of my senses, sight, color, and memories I guess. I also saw each person I’ve ever known basically in the home menu of your mii avatar characters on the Wii each lined one by one with their own, individual, model, these figures slowly turned gray scale and life itself was like a walk through of auto cad. Or if you don’t know what that is like imagine your mind is gone from reality, to color, then to this gray scale model of life and all figures that you can scroll through like Google 3d street view or auto cad engineering program or like I said GTA, but only on gray scale. No color. All figures were just light gray as if it were a base model of a computer game that hadn’t had any color added yet. And people were just gray colors with no customization or features added yet. Then everything as I knew it, all those senses I described before was ripped into a black hole, I then collapsed, screemed NOOO In horror and grabbed my girlfriends arm as I collapsed to the ground believing everything I ever I knew was turning into a black hole and I was dying. Then one by one those senses started coming back and I ended with what I saw in reality which was everyone standing over me in horror and I realized what I just had done. I deadass thought I stopped the whole show because I was down and they saw people waving flash lights or something but the set had just ended so part was complete embarrassment and part horror how what I realized reality may all be in life. I sat terrified and screaming oh my god for about 3 minutes as I was wondering what the fuck I just saw. I’m catholic so I’m partly sitting wondering if that’s really what life is, just a computer game gray scale model that has shitty graphics from the perspective of some cosmic being or myself, that will eventually just spiral into some black hole and turn into nothing completely out of my control and I can only scream noooo and say oh my god. Is there after life? But then that leads me to believe that’s what faith is all about. Knowing that this life as we know it just only a gray scale model that means nothing. And eventually that will all be gone, all objects all meaningless possessions all figures all life as our simple mind processes it in the base model of how i described google street view or a base model video game. But our soul, and what we love and know and remember still lives on else where. I choose to believe this now because I’m able to and I have this sense of perspective. I guess I’m wondering if anyone has had similar trip experiences or perspectives on life’s now. I’m sorry if this is confusing I’m still researching and processing what I’m thinking.
I accidentally broke through on dmt at griztronics gorge.
I’m not here to be judged, I did what I did and obviously I regret it or I wouldn’t be here typing this. But it is what it is, and it is 100% my fault. However I do wish I got a warning how strong said dmt was in comparison to one I had done before which so minor to this experience. However if you disrespect drugs, they’ll fuck you so hard back. And here I crossed the line. I wanted to trip acid. I took 2 tabs and None of it was hitting. I guess were old idk. so my friend mentioned our other group of friends had a dmt pen, so we went to find them in the crowd. I take a hit of a dmt and enter a dimension of how I read it is how the brain processes color, which is the neon orbs of energy of every being of living life is perceived, it was truly beautiful and euphoric unlike anything I’ve ever seen witnessed.
But for whatever reason, my ego made me take another hit.
I had tried DMT once before at a friend’s house, and it barely affected me — just a very light version of the colorful beings and altered perception I described earlier. This was completely different.
After the second hit, it felt like I zoomed out of life itself, almost like Google Maps Street View pulling away from my own existence. It felt like I was seeing reality from outside the perspective of being human — like viewing life from the developers’ screen of a video game before textures and colors are added.
I saw a blended reality made up of every person, memory, and experience I’ve ever had, all merged together into one giant “menu” of existence. It felt like I was scrolling through my own consciousness — sight, color, memories, emotions — almost like navigating the home screen of a video game.
At one point, I saw every person I’ve ever known lined up individually, almost like Mii characters on the Wii menu. But they slowly became grayscale. Everything became grayscale.
Life itself looked like an unfinished CAD model or a base-rendered video game world with no textures loaded in yet. Every human figure was just gray — no individuality, no features, no customization. Just empty models.
Then suddenly, everything I knew — every sense, every memory, every piece of reality — got sucked into what felt like a black hole.
I collapsed.
I screamed “NOOO!” and grabbed my girlfriend’s arm because I genuinely believed everything was disappearing and that I was dying. It felt like reality itself was being erased.
Then, slowly, my senses started returning one by one. Eventually I opened my eyes and realized I was back in reality, with everyone standing over me in shock and concern. For a second, I honestly thought I had stopped the entire show because I saw people waving flashlights, but the set had actually just ended.
Part of what I felt afterward was embarrassment. But another part was pure existential horror over what I had just experienced.
For several minutes I just sat there terrified, repeatedly saying, “Oh my God,” trying to process what I had seen.
I’m Catholic, so afterward I started questioning everything. Was that experience showing me some deeper truth about existence? Is life really just a temporary “model” or simulation-like experience that eventually collapses into nothingness? Is that why faith exists in the first place — because this world is temporary, while the soul and what we truly love continue somewhere beyond it?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that the experience completely changed my perspective on life, death, consciousness, and reality itself.
I’m sharing this because I’m still trying to process it all, and I’m wondering if anyone else has had similar DMT experiences or similar thoughts afterward.
Sorry if this sounds confusing. I’m still trying to understand it myself.