u/Fourth_Amigo

A relatinship I had ended and I'm ruminating too much on this person. What pages in the big red book, or other literature, can I find information on this.

Thanks

Looking for whole dried bananas instead of the dried banana chips that are crispy. Anyone know where to find those?

Because I grew up in a narcissistic family system I went on to have narcissistic partners and friends.

My "best" friend for 20 years abused me. She skipped out on rent, broke my boyfriend and I up by implying that he was cheating then went on to date him while still sleeping with his best friend. During that time she went on a smear campaign telling everyone I was trying to steal her man.
Eventually she started dating her now husband. She wrote a nasty song about me which talked about how I tried to steal her man. He suggested she play it for me one time when I flew to visit them. Obviously she'd lied, gotten her husband to believe it. After all thats what narcissists do. She'd eventually go on to smear my name to other family members of her. Eventually her sons would confront me passive aggressivly and tell me I was a bad friend for not visiting enough.
Over time she became nastier on the phone with me. One day I started talking to her about investing, something I was excited to learn how to do. She got nasty and said that she didn't have to worry about it because she had a family but that I was all alone and had no one to take care of me. It was a final straw. I cut her off about a year and a half ago.
I finally decided to unblock her on facebook and found that she sent a note to my mother. My mother basically said "I don't know why she does that she just gets in weird moods sometimes". This was in reference to why i cut my best friend out of my life.
Reading that brought up a bunch of resentment and anger at both my ex best friend and my mother. My mother has always chosen other people over me. And this just makes it even more apparent. I am just so damn angry and hurt and dissapointed that she said that. That my own mother didn't give a crap about what I'd been through. And worse, gave the narcissistic horrid human that abused me validation.
Rather than shame spiral I decided to say how hurt and angry this makes me. I'm frustrated and I hate how unfair life it. It doesn't help my life isn't going the way I want it to, and the narcissists (all of them) are having good lives. I just don't understand why life is like this - unfair, impossible, lonely. I'm just frustrated, sad, angry, dissapointed, and maybe even feeling a little hopeless. Years of working on healing and I still don't have a healthy support system. I've got aca, but I don't have anyone close.
I also hate and love my mother.

I'm currently in CO interested in relocating to Binghamton or surrounding. I grew up in NJ and am very familiar with the winters and cultural differences- so no need to give any warnings.

If you or any businesses or organizations you know of are hiring a GM or manager with a minimum pay of $70K a year, please let me know or PM me. Thanks!

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Hi,

I've been writing a script called Vagilla the Musical. It's about a giant space vagina that crash lands on earth, develops a severe yeast infection, but is then rescued by a local scientist.

While curing her yeast infection the scientist falls in love with her. She needs fresh warm meat to live and starts going into the city at night visiting clubs, bars and lurking around back alleys, luring men and gay women in with her scent. She then entangles them in her prehensile pubes, immobilizes them with her acid cum and eats them.

You get the drift. So, from a financial and production standpoint, is something like this better as a play or a movie? I know its not going to be a popular thing, and Im wondering if maybe an independent film on a shoestring is more realistic than people actually wanting to see this on stage.

Thanks for your thoughts. Also, please hold the insults. I know its calmly and kinda trashy but I need to express myself creatively and thats what I have right now. Thanks for being respectful.

Been on an active healing journey for years and life is not getting better. I don't believe the promises anymore, sort of like I lost faith in a higher power. I just can't believe it.

I cut off most of my toxic family - grieved that loss. Same with friends - grieved that loss. Accepted I wouldn't have the kids, husband and medical career - grieved that loss. Moved on from a 7 year abusive relationship. Got into two more relationships but ended them quickly because they were unhealthy - i.e I no longer people please and fawn. Started my own business - i don't like it but its what I had to work with and I hate working for other people. Living in a shitty illegal dwelling with an abusive landlord I absolutely loath and can barely afford but can't afford anything else within 100 miles of here. Hate the state I live in because its hot, dry and arrid. Plus I can't afford a home here. Owning a home is literally the only hope/dream/whatever I have left. I can't afford to move so I'm stuck struggling making nothing building a company I hate in hopes that if I just stick with it that it'll pay off.

I've gone to therapist after therapist. I go to the damn meetings, i do the stupid work. I read all the damn books. I listen to all the podcast. I cut off toxic people, work on identifying my own shittiness, stopped fawning, no longer fight/flight all the time, have a healthy diet, exercise, yadda yadda yadda. Life still is just one damn horrible struggle. I fucking hate it and I want an answer from someone on what the fuck I am not doing or need to do to make life not so goddamn horrible. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Has anyone had a problem finding a therapist that is able to keep up with them intellectually. I feel like the therapists I keep getting aren't well read on CPTSD, narcissistic abuse, CEN, existential depression etc? I feel like I'm talking to fast, throwing out too many things and the replys I get show a lack of engagement with what I'm saying. It makes me feel like what I'm saying isn't important or something. Anyone have similar experiences?

Hi, I run a small food manufacturing company and just got into a few stores that need expiration dates and lot codes on the product. The product is in a glass jar with a label and standard lug lid. Can anyone recommend any handheld printing devices that are very innexpensive for startups that will print on one of these mediums? I tried a rubber stamp but because of the film on the vinyol label (soon to be BOP material) it just rubs right off or smears. Perhaps I was using the wrong ink? Chatgpt is useless and google searches are turning up a bunch of very expensive options. Thanks.

I got involved with another aca person. The guy has a lot of relationships with women across various groups. He says they are all friends but I found in this relationship this guy was very controlling and psychologically manipulative and abusive. He'd been accused of predatory behavior in another group - supposedly for touching a woman's arm.

I was thinking of contacting other women in one of my groups and asking her if she'd had a similar experience to mine with this person. I believe he led another woman on or had relations with her too. All the women he seems to be close to stop attending meetings.

I nearly lost my mind in the brief relationship I had with this person. I ended up ranting and screaming via text - which was also possibly abusive.

I need your advice and thoughts on this.

Update: Thank you all for the awesome advice, words of wisdom, sharing your stories, encouragement and helpt getting perspective. I truly appreciate it. You helped me get up this morning and start moving forward. I'll try to respond to as many people as possible. Thank you so much. My faith in people has genuinely been restored. I appreciate all of you, you're all good human beings.

I'm losing my business because the kitchen I'm renting from is reneging on their promises. I'm losing time and space and will not be able to continue operations. This is also going to cost me my income leaving me with no other option than to move. I can go to court and sue but I'm also having issues with my unscrupulous landlord. I can't take everyone to court. It'll just cost me more time and money. I'm cutting my losses and moving on. But, how do I move on emotionally from this. I'm extremely jaded and cynnical now not to mention feeling pretty depressed. What are your words of advice, wisdom or experience.