u/Fragrant_Advice_4906

What happened there was one cup of tea and a plate There was a box. My father tried to take the box from my mother and he spilled tue tea on the plate. Now what he did as usual was started blaming my mother and showed his elbow to hit her but didn't hit.It was quite disturbing. I called mother and asked her that why u came into my room with this man

Then that incident kept revolving around my mind

My father was busy blaming my mother and they were fighting. I went to him and held his arm to repeat and portray what he did but he kept blaming my mother and even tried to hit her again. So I just started hitting my father and then as he can't hit me, he hit my mother and then I hit him again and then he hit her again now I hit him so much that my hand is blue like there is no strength and my mother was like why did u come here that wasn't so big issue that u made out if it. Yes, I told her that why didn't you die if you couldn't go back to your parents' house.

Day before yesterday this man started shouting for no reason and I held his mouth to stop the verbal abuse.

He was diagnosed with depression before getting married and even after marriage he was in depression for many years. I don't know why has he started showing those elbows. He used to verbally abuse not physically. Blame shifting has been a part of his identity and tolerating bullshit has been a part of my mother's identity. Showing the people outside that they are a happy couple gives them satisfaction.

Idk maybe I am turning to a monster. But this house is no longer a place to live. I have my savings but I was saving money for something else. But I think it's high time to move out otherwise I will never be able to heal. Fuck the salary, work from home and fuck the job. I will keep on doing it till I get a good one. 

I just despise both of them. You people gave me a roof, good education, clothes and freedom to do whatever I want to pursue in career but I can't tolerate this and these are illiterates. This is one of the biggest reasons I don't wanna marry.

Everything will be normal in a day or two and then after two or three days or max a week they will start the bullshit again. It's very easy to say put your headphones when they are fighting. But when you hear the noises you will run to see wtf is happening and you will feel like take the knives and kill each other forever. Their fights have been disturbing me from a long time. Those exact scenes make me cry under a blanket. 2025 was the breaking point and I cried in front of them but they didn't stop and they will never. This is the 3rd continous night of the migraine today but who cares. I puked thrice day before yesterday due to migraine but who cares. Then they say why are u letting it impact you. Really!! I want my body to get sick. Then they say they love you. Love and care are different. Both of them are bloody toxic and the moment I start loving myself a bit and start enjoying my company they ruin it. My nervous system is ruined - I have been experiencing electric zaps. They work very hard to feed their children but what about love, respect, being real.

I am currently in my rahu Mahadasha amd ketu antardasha. It started Nov end last year. My rahu md started in 2015 when I was 14 years old. Now I am 24. I have worked too hard. I was a brilliant student but I have faced many other issues including bullying, jealousy and insecurities. However later I transformed myself internally and externally. My internal transformation has been quite intense since Ketu ad began as I have lost all my friends. I have been feeling betrayed. I guess Ketu is doing its work.

But there is one thing I can't understand. The career transformation has been confusing. From commerce to abroad cancelation to MBA prep to writing. The journey has been baffling. Some circumstances pushed me to this. But I have been working hard and I am still underpaid and having health issues despite my previous transformations. Maybe another one is on its way. But the journey is quite lonely. I enjoy my company but as a social being sometimes I need people. But working from home has made it more difficult and the health issues is the add on

My rahu is with jupiter in 2nd house gemini

Ketu in 8th Sagittarius

Saturn moon 1st Tauras

Mercury venus 5th Virgo

Mars 9th

(If anyone can tell the reason please do)

I have been working as a full time writer in a media house. When I switched from internship to full time, I wasn't given the offer letter. Infact they ended up giving me the increment and promotion letter which wasn't signed. There was no employment contract or offer letter. They just mentioned in the letter that I have been promoted to junior writer.

P.S. they gave me the increment letter so that they could keep the salary low, so I am underpaid. I don't even get the salary slips. It's been a year.

I am confused, ashamed of my mistake that I didn't ask them. But I mailed them today. Idk even know whether I exist in their company.

It is a wfh job.

What to do now? How to get the documents soon?

I work as a content writer in a media house. This is my first job. I did a huge mistake by underselling myself in the salary expectations round. It's going to be a year. The annual review will take place soon. I am significantly being underpaid compared to the listed salary for a fresher in the company I work. Now it's been a year and I want my salary to align with the market rate. What if they end up giving up salary that they should given me in the start. I'll be still underpaid this year. I am stuck. I am 24 and I have been feeling ashamed due to my salary. Now, I know why as others were getting much more doing the same work. Now, I am regretful. How to tackle this?

P.S. I work from home, the work environment is good, I like my work.