Am I being paranoid, or could there actually be something going on? Looking for advice from people into the occult.
This is going to sound strange, but I'm genuinely looking for some perspective from people who are experienced with occultism.
A few years ago, I was involved with a guy who was very interested in the occult. He openly practiced rituals and used to tell me that he had performed things involving me, including something involving a pentagram. At the time, I honestly didn't think much of it. I thought it was strange, but I didn't take it seriously.
We eventually stopped seeing each other, but he continued contacting me for years afterwards, until around two years ago.
The strange thing is that I've never really felt completely disconnected from him.
I can't properly explain it. I don't constantly think about him or miss him, but sometimes I have this very strong feeling that there is still some kind of spiritual or energetic connection between us. It almost feels like something was established between us that I never consciously agreed to.
I've also been feeling like my life has been unusually stagnant for a long time. Things don't seem to move forward, and sometimes I get this strange feeling that something is holding me back. I don't know whether these things are connected at all, but the feeling has made me think about him again.
He also still appears to keep an eye on my social media. More recently, he got together with a Brazilian woman, which caught my attention because I'm Brazilian too. I know that's probably just a coincidence, but combined with everything else, it felt unsettling.
I have no evidence that he has done anything recently, and I don't want to convince myself that something supernatural is happening when there could be a completely normal explanation.
So I'd really like to hear from people who actually practice or study occult traditions:
Do occult traditions have beliefs about spiritual or energetic attachments between people that can persist after a relationship has ended?
Do practitioners believe that these kinds of connections can continue without both people consciously maintaining them?
And if someone experiences a feeling like this years after a relationship, what would an experienced practitioner generally recommend doing about it?
I'm genuinely open to being told that I'm overthinking this. I'm not looking for someone to confirm that I'm cursed or that this person is secretly doing something to me. I just want to understand whether the experience I'm describing has any place within occult traditions, or whether it's more likely something psychological/emotional left over from the relationship.
I'd really appreciate honest perspectives from people with actual experience in this area.