my porn addict of an ex won’t leave me alone
i’m just so tired of having the same conversation over and over again. i’m 19 and he’s 23. he’s genuinely a porn addict to say the least, and was watching it behind my back on multiple occasions despite me being very much against it and very vocal about the fact. it wasn’t even regular adult content with two people having intercourse. it’s like the solo twitter girls who only post on there i think. he did it so often, he was literally retweeting the stuff. it genuinely made me lose my confidence and self esteem. i don’t know why he felt the need to look at those girls when i sent him pictures when i could and i think we were pretty active in that area.
he texted me today on an app that he never even uses so i just didn’t bother blocking him on there, which was dumb i’m aware. we live and we learn after all. he texts me asking me not to block him (i did regardless) but he asked me not to because he “just wants a way to contact me every once in a while” isn’t that just so selfish, and he says what he did is a mistake. once is a mistake, twice is a choice, what does that make the fifth time? you not giving a shit anymore of what? i haven’t spoken to him in months and i don’t feel anything for him anymore i just want to be left alone. he wants to be friends, but i have made it clear many times that he’s not my friend and never will be. anyways that’s all i had to say, i just hate him so much for doing that to me over and over again.
i don’t even want to talk to my friends about it because this is just so embarrassing and humiliating. i kinda feel insecure that i don’t want my partner watching porn but i also feel it’s not that big of a request. i guess i just don’t understand because when im in a relationship i don’t want to see anyone like that except my own partner.