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Trying to get into a few schools that are borderline impossible for me. My marks barely qualify, allowing there to be a sliver of a chance for me to do it. I'll have to work like a fucking dog. I want it so bad. I'm going to cut off communication from others because it hurts too much. I'm doing this thing alone. All odds are against me. I used to be someone people had high hopes for until life and my disorder got the better of me. I know I'm smart enough to do it. I just don't know if I'm tough enough though. I'm going to try still. If there's anyone who has succeeded in something like this, I'd love to hear from you.

I was gifted until very recently. I'm not used to the "You're a failure" treatment and I'm trying to make it easier to digest. I got diagnosed with severe OCD too so it's making the process worse. I'd like to have my own journey away from prying eyes and judgements. Any insights that made you feel better about who you were supposed to be and where you are now? Any exercises to make yourself feel productive when you're depressed and able to accomplish 10% of what you're capable of? Self affirmations? Self care habits? I'd love to learn something from people who can handle this better than me.

I read the books, yes. I was not a huge fan, but I did like them. I did not expect the show to breathe life into the story to such a great extent. I think the way Mika Abdalla played Allie humanized her in this unique, refreshing sort of way. Yes, the Hunter, Dean and Allie thing is not faithful to the book. But, I personally believe that the show made the characters more three-dimensional and real, while Elle wrote them in a way that honestly follows tropes I've seen in other books so well that I couldn't connect with them.

I think it's because the show makes deviations like this, that I enjoyed the show, so so much more. Allie felt like a kind person just trying to navigate messy feelings and her ambitions whilst being a supportive best friend because of the ensemble thing they did with the story telling. I did not get her at all in book one, and even for books where every installment is a standalone, that is not ideal imo. People may disagree, and that's okay. I'm just always happy to see hollywood get book adaptations right, and not fall flat on their face when making changes to the story.

Very different example; but my favourite move is the 2005 Pride and prejudice; even though I love the book to pieces and the miniseries is fantastic. It chose to adapt the story in a different light, so it's just another way to enjoy your favourite characters. Both examples are similar in that way, at least in my head. Maybe I'm just stupid lol.

OCD treatment is a war that does get less intense over time, but that can be....a while. While I'm in treatment, I don't really have people with actual OCD that can give me tips to work around the bs of my brain. ERP, therapy, medication are in place. Just want to know what progress looks like for people that have experienced wins. Like academic, social, self care, relationships and how you got there. A million life gurus give you a different paths to take, but when you've got extra baggage it gets hard to follow most of them. So, some advice and answers would be greatly appreciated!

The Internet is one giant game of red light green light and people cannot give grace anymore. The recent Reddit stories episode proves that. Not saying criticism is wrong. But this has progressed to the point of hysteria. I cannot imagine being under this much scrutiny. Being a content creator sounds like a nightmare. Especially for women. Hope everyone, especially smosh women and especially especially Amanda, can protect their mental health from all the bs and absorb only the sensible criticisms. I'm not parasocially attached to them, I'm just so fascinated and horrified by discourse surrounding them.

Designing a welcome chart for second graders. It has to relate to green. I usually draw and paint characters surrounding the lettering that relate to the colour as well as delight kids. I did Naruto and Nezuko last year for blue. Can't think of any this year because I don't know what second graders like. Any suggestions welcome regarding characters they like or mainstream refs. Anime, cartoons, music, film and whatever works. Thank you!

I kid you not this might be hell. That's not improbable to be really fucking honest.

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I come from an unstable, abusive household. My mom and I frequently get threatened and berated in as aggressive of a manner as you can imagine. There's been physical abuse in the past but not anymore; although we occasionally still get threats. I've been bodyshamed into hating myself my whole life.

My mother's extremely depressed. Then there's this fucking thing.

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I'm not even exaggerating when I say my life feels like a never ending psychosis episode because of my OCD. It's truly terrifyingly debilitating. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember and became a recluse a few years ago and stopped going outside completely. Everyone has lost all hope in me because of this and I've lost all the respect people had for me because of my talents. My future looks extremely dark and there's no hope in sight. I'm getting my results soon and they decide which uni I'll qualify for. I have no reason, absolutely no reason to keep living.

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But I'm still living.

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I take my meds. I try to practice composure. I support people as much as I can. I give advice. I paint. I write. I try to study. I listen to music. I try not to harm myself. I try to eat healthy. I'm struggling to sleep on time but again, I'm trying. I know life will keep getting worse and worse, but I'm not going to give up. I don't even know why, I just know that some day I'll be good enough at fighting this disease so that I find happiness. The things that bring me happiness might be small, they might be different from everything I've wanted my whole life, but I'd like to see what they are. Maybe my life might end in a way that's not in my hands. But I'm not going to do it. I'm going to try my best to get by and appreciate things as much as I can.

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If you think you have no reason to keep on going, maybe finding one is your reason.

Let's keep going.

Not making excuses. HELP NEEDED URGENTLY.

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I suffer from very severe OCD. Did not realise it was affecting every part of my life until heavily medicated. I need to lose a lot of weight for health reasons. I'm not looking to lose it very fast so asto avoid sagging skin and I want to make space for occasional indulgences.

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I genuinely cannot resist my cravings. I feel things very intensely and cannot stop obsessing over one thing. For example, I will not use the bathroom even if I'm literally close to peeing unless I finish what I'm doing. I cannot physically stop talking about a topic even if I am asked to and get berated about it.

I have sensitivity issues to a lot of food such as raw vegetables, steamed white rice, anything with seeds, any semblance of peels, bone in meat, ALL fruits.

I know some people will say "just get over it". I've had mental episodes over being force fed things I don't want to eat. My parents tried but

I cannot physically handle it. This is not just limited to food, but I won't go into that.

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Diets are rules, so unless I follow them strictly, I can't move forward and become self destructive. Following them strictly, makes me miserable because I can't control myself in the face of cravings or hunger. Last time I went on a diet I became a completely non functioning human.

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I know this is a long read, but I'd really love some advice. I just want to be healthy and I'm already tired from fighting this disease in all other aspects of my life.

Please be kind.

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Thank you!

I like owning physical copies of my favourite creepypastas and horror stories. I'm new to SCPs but so incredibly obsessed. Are there any books compiling longform and shortform scps like "the flesh that hates" "this is where I died", scp 3000 and more?

I love crafting as well, so if anyone has tips on making my own books or merch I'd love that too

Thank you!

Feel free to move on from this. It's not important anyway. I'm so sick and tired of everything being about this stupid disease. I am a liability to everyone who loves me and I've willed myself into a depressive state that I will never escape. I don't need reassurance for this. I'm just tired. I hate myself. I wish there was a way for me to back out of this life without causing anyone pain but I can't do that so I have to just grit my teeth and move on. I've already ruined my life and most of my relationships, I'm incapable of loving anyone because I'm constantly scared of messing it up or I'm scared of the uncertainty that comes with trusting people. I wish I was gone. I wish nobody ever had the misfortune of meeting me.