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Hey, all. I've lost my husband on 25th of May. Needless to say, I'm suffering a lot. I've began exploring NDEs, read a lot about it, read a book by a scientist and now reading through another. I began doing this in order to answer myself if my hubby is out there somewhere or that's it, everything ends with our body.

I feel the need to ask people who have had an NDE this question, because I feel like you're closer to the truth - is there an afterlife? If so, how would you describe it? If not - why not?

I welcome every NDEr in this discussion. I want to... no, need to know your opinion.

Thank you beforehand.

This is unbearable. Almost 40 days without him. I miss him so much, I need him, I feel so lost. How can this happen to us? We were so happy and loved each other so much. Why is life so cruel? How am I supposed to continue with my days without him? I'll never make it. This would be the end of me.

I feel like those 11 years we had never happened. Like it was all a dream. Has anyone felt like this in the beginning? Our past feels so surreal and yet I miss him so much.

Am I going insane?

I've lost my husband two weeks ago. I'm lost and scared and I miss him so much. I just can't live in this reality where he is not here with me. I'm so heartbroken, every fiber of my body misses him.

I need to know what happens after we die? I want the truth, not sugarcoating. I want to know if he is still out there somewhere or that's it, that's the end.

I don't even know what an I doing. Every little task I did feels weird without him, even if I never did it with him. I miss him so much and my heart is bleeding. I think I'm realizing that life is going to continue without him and this realization feels so painful. I'm not ready. I'm scared. I love him and I need him. He was 39 and I'm 33. This life is going to be hell without my dear hubby.

My last post https://www.reddit.com/r/widowers/s/J1NrPEJAOW

It's so heavy. Everything seems so pointless. I don't want to eat. I only smoke and drink water. I remember him lying in the floor, dead, in my arms. My beautiful loving husband who didn't deserve this.

I've been kissing his clothes, hugging his pillow. I don't think there's a way out of this. Not without him.

I love you, my dear boy ❤️ and I miss you so much.

Колко пари му трябва на сам човек в Пловдив да живее, без да се разхищава твърде много, като се има предвид, че не се налага да се плаща наем?

This was my first post https://www.reddit.com/r/widowers/s/PhlRMHU0vc

I kissed him, caressed him. Told him I love him. He was so cold. I just buried the love of my life, my soul, my life, my dear boy. This was it. The end of everything. I don't know what happens now. I just know that I love him, need him and don't want to spend a day without him. It's over, I lost him. And I miss him so dearly. My sweet amazing man.

I lost my husband yesterday in my arms. I don't know what to do, I don't know how I'll survive this. It hurts. I love him. I don't even know why I am writing this.

Edit: Please tell me something. Anything. My heart is bleeding. I need support.

My husband was diagnosed 4 years ago when his lungs filled out with fluid. After the hospital, everything was fine up until two months ago. He now has pitting edema in his legs and fluid buildup in his stomach.

He's been on beta blockers and torasemide 10mg once a day and the next day two pills in the morning and afternoon, and then the next day one pill and so on. These are his only symptoms. Blood work shows that everything is fine, including the liver and kidneys.

Why is this happening now? Isn't this a very low dose of the water pills? Can it resolve or this means things are getting bad? Did someone find a way to live with this? I'm incredibly worried and frankly panicking. I just want him around for a long long time.

EDIT: He was with his cardiologist one month ago. She said that his heart is the same as before, no change. I'm starting to doubt her.

EDIT2: During these 4 years after the hospital stay, he's never been on a low sodium diet, eating all kinds of crap. He was relying on the water pills, which at the beginning was 10mg a day. Now with this episode, he is on this new regimen where one day he is on 10, the next day 10x2. He doesn't listen to me. I don't know where we are at and if that could be the culprit, or if he is getting worse.

I'm perfectly fine and I'm grateful for it. But I can't shake that feeling that my first big relapse is expecting me. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in a year, 5 years?... But is out there, waiting.

I've only had two optic neuritis in the left eye and double vision for 4 days that went away on its own, so I don't know how a big relapse feels. I wanted to share that I'm scared of it, since I try to act strong for my family and friends. But I'm not. I'm scared of the future.

Why me?

Does anyone has edema in the legs, feet and stomach?

My partner was fine a few months ago, but suddenly his stomachs started becoming huge. So much so that he couldn't sleep. After eating a lot of bread one night, his stomach became huge. Around two-three hours passed in which he passed gasses and after that things calmed down.

I figured it could be celiac disease and we stopped gluten a few days ago. However, when he ate vegetables, his stomach bloated again, although not as bad as when he ate bread.

What bothers me is the edema in the legs and stomach. It's not much, but it's there - it sometimes disappears I think, though I'm not sure.

The skin on his hands is very dry and has small cut-like wounds. He also has red pimples on the legs.

Did anyone have symptoms like these?