I hate the delayed reaction to disrespect
Unless I keep in mind that a person is scum and will be disrespectful, if I'm not confrontational I literally do not register disrespect until way later. A collegue told me some disgusting things that were worthy of a punch in the mouth, but I literally felt zero anger right there, I laughed it off. And now I can't sleep and I feel like a bitch.
It took me hours to register how insane that was. I feel so humiliated now. It wouldn't have been hard to defend from that, yet it just didn't register. I'm feeling such a deep shame