u/Gullible-Rough4149

So I know that you shouldn’t say “what’s the lowest you’ll go” because I looked it up and it said not to do that. I have a hard time starting conversations but there are 2 poorly made kig heads, one is 340 dollars and the other is 310 dollars. These are both offers from the seller and not the original price. Nobody wants them because almost everything is glued on but I want them so I can fix them up. They aren’t the worst kig suits I’ve seen but the one I want is out of my price range (my price range around 200 dollars and the one I want is 340) and I don’t want to be rude and ask them to go lower. Please give me any suggestions or ideas.

I love my dad but he’s seen my self harm twice now and he freaks out. The first time he looked at me and said “be careful what you’re doing to you wrist there… ‘they’ are going to take you away…” WTF who is they? The police? The doctors? No father, they don’t do that here, we live in a town that sucks and doesn’t care about its people. Him doing this caused me to panic and relapse (I had been clean for a few days.) The next time he saw he just stared at my arm for a while and then demanded I get ready to leave. I had an idea what he meant and i panicked again, going to tell my friends and my boyfriend. I got dressed and he told me in the car that they would probably take me away for at least a week. He loves to corner me in the car and yell at me so I can’t run away (he claims he’s not yelling but he’s definitely yelling) He kept on yelling that it was unacceptable and how I have so many outlets for my anger. It’s all quite fuzzy but I know he asked me something I forgot about and I told him i forgot and he brought up how I remember so much about Homestuck (not the fucking time dude) and I told him not to bring up Homestuck right now. Now it’s today, I just relapsed last night because a person I know brought up something that happened four months ago where they blamed me for something I didn’t do. (I don’t feel comfortable talking about it) I don’t think he’ll find it or anything but I just don’t want to go to the horrible mental hospitals around here. I don’t know how I should feel about my dad? I love him but I’m also constantly scared he’ll try to put me in a mental hospital.

I am 14, I pass pretty well in my opinion for someone with no access to testosterone. I have a small amount of facial hair, I use a binder when I go out, I have a realistic STP. I’ve been called sir more than once but I’m not sure when I should start using the men’s bathroom, I’ve only been twice (first time was an accident and second time was because the woman’s bathroom was closed off and I was about to piss myself) I know I would have to go in the men’s while being alone because my stupid fucking family thinks I’m confused. (Apologies for bad grammar)

Im 14, i have been feeling like this for years but only recently have I actually started acknowledging it. When I was in the fourth grade a classmate touched me inappropriately and this happened multiple times throughout the school year, this was happening INSIDE THE SCHOOL. I was introduced to a world no fourth grader should have been in. I was also groomed online MANY times. This is relatively when I began to feel like an animal more than a human, I wouldn’t bathe often due to depression. For a while I thought I was a therian but i decided that wasn’t the right label. Right before I turned 13 I got back in contact with one of my old boyfriends and we got back together. After I turned 13 I began going over to his house, he sexually assaulted me and raped me multiple times. Luckily he broke up with me after I came out as transgender. I always felt dirty and disgusting after he did those things to me. I have noticed many animalistic behaviors in myself recently (biting, scratching, odd animal like noises, preferring to walk on all fours, sleeping on the ground) and I’ve had these for a while but they are becoming more prominent. My therapist says it’s very likely I have autism (I have told none of this to her yet) and that I also have severe anxiety and depression. Feel free to ask any questions.