ot the full door, but opening a little space to allow some breeze in, that little bit that would sweep us back into each other and work the magic again, IF you wanted to give us another try.
I have a feeling fate might want it.
The sad part about growth.
There are moments
I cant erase your image & your smile
I feel you and I understand...
I understand if you feel that high tide
Coming over you just at the chance of
A near-miss? An almost little rendez-vous.
It's just that you are special & I miss you.
I hope you understand that it's not easy to show my feeling in front of others, bcs it is meant for you only,
Not to mention, I cannot control it so I'll be like a little crazy chick following her mommy/daddy (figure of speech) who are at the same time out of reach.
It's painful what this does to the heart.
I don't think anyone around understands in the slightest.
I just know what I feel and what my heart says
Time and time again.
I want to believe that I feel you becs you feel me too & we are somehow magically connected
Your image is a beautiful stain on my being
And I don't know at all how to recover from You.
I wish when people say "kindness" and "respect" remember to add "with proper boundaries" because there will always be people who will abuse them or refuse to give them back. So no, kindness should NOT be free and respect should NOT be unconditional because duh it is earned. Only dignity is free because it is every born person's right. People sometimes do things that make them lose others' respect if not their own self-respect. Trust seen it too many times.
Please try, repeat, if you tried to whisper it, I didnt hear it because the noise of our buttetflies was much much louder. Once isn't enough after I have been clear & boldly consistent, showing you all the signs from the beginning. And it's not even like I meant to, I did mean all of it but it also came naturally and no money or faking can buy that except true natural feelings.
Goodbye for now... and if ever chance or fate or time or whatever circumstance put us face to face again, I'll just let that moment or whatever is responsible for it deliver. Thank you for being good to me; I couldn't ask for more than kindness and for meeting you at the time we met; you felt like a cozy sweater for my soul thank you, thank you again 💖
Goodbye for now... and if ever chance or fate or time or whatever circumstance put us face to face again, I'll just let that moment or whatever is responsible for it deliver. Thank you for being good to me; I couldn't ask for more than kindness and for meeting you at the time we met; you felt like a cozy sweater for my soul thank you, thank you again 💖
Please try, repeat, if you tried to whisper it, I didnt hear it because the noise of our buttetflies was much much louder. Once isn't enough after I have been clear & boldly consistent, showing you all the signs from the beginning. And it's not even like I meant to, I did mean all of it but it also came naturally and no money or faking can buy that except true natural feelings.
This is a loveletter because I never doubted my feeling about you since the day I met you..
We end up another week in silence. But I'm still missing you and burning to talk to you and I sense you want that too.
But my subconcious mind made that stupid rule to separate love from friendship, keep love hidden and my loved one secret even if they have to suffer quietly in a prison it built. It makes me seek you put alone so I can savor your presence and enjoy our union when we collide together. But then it tells me away when we are around friends. I know, I'm not the most brilliant socially, not at all. But I feel brilliant with you.
I never got upset or stopped feeling the exact same fpr you until the day you said something very inadvertently triggered me because I compared to the damaged man's image in my life. It's damaged but that's not why I've been attracted to you and I shouldn't have been triggered that day when you said you went on a guy trip, forgive me and also you have no idea, because I cut off our conversation and walked away.
At the end of the day, I want you just you so much that even a little piece of you is enough. Even glancing at yout face or your back moving past me is enough to see you and renew my suffering.
Please come back around and ask me the same things we've asked each other before. Keep it boring but make it long, trick my subconsious into staying a little bit more so I can enjoy a little bit more of you.
If you'll look in my eyes again soon \[I actually caught you staring at me today, I know... I think you know just the same 💞😘🫂... That I'm crave you as you crave me...\] You won't find the same softness You once found; doesn't mean it's bad or anything. I'm sorry but I'm changing And it's no fault of mine or yours It's just how life turned out to be for me And I - like everyone else- need to grow & move on eventually. So please, don't assume I dislike you now! No, it's still the same for me. Thing is: I've been working so hard to heal & improve myself from the inside out. That doesn't just include walks or diets. Healing must has slowly been changing the way I breathe. True healing resets one's whole nervous system, their reactions to toxicity, the way one conducts oneelf & treats others. I'm regaining my strength, dignity & respect both & it's coming to me naturally. I'm doing this for me but also for those I love & who love me. If you're one of them all the better & I would love that.
😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊-J-.