u/Helpful-Ad3010

​ Note I am from India Yesterday, I went to the hospital for my regular check-up and decided to get an ADHD assessment while I was there. I prepared my documents and went to the room of the doctor. I explained my problems—trouble focusing, difficulty with task initiation, and so on. Then I handed over my documents. She read them carefully, but all she said was, "It's just anxiety." She didn't explain how my impulsive actions, constantly dropping out of college, running away from hostels, my hyperfocus, quitting jobs within a few days (sometimes barely ten days), or suddenly performing much better in a public exam could all be caused by anxiety alone. There was no proper explanation at all.

Yesterday, I went to the hospital for my regular check-up and decided to get an ADHD assessment while I was there. I prepared my documents and went to the room of the doctor. I explained my problems—trouble focusing, difficulty with task initiation, and so on. Then I handed over my documents. She read them carefully, but all she said was, "It's just anxiety." She didn't explain how my impulsive actions, constantly dropping out of college, running away from hostels, my hyperfocus, quitting jobs within a few days (sometimes barely ten days), or suddenly performing much better in a public exam could all be caused by anxiety alone. There was no proper explanation at all.

I genuinely don’t understand my own brain anymore.

I’m 27 from India. My life on paper looks like a complete failure:

multiple course dropouts

jobs joined and quit within days

interviews cleared but never showed up

debt from impulsive microloans

severe inconsistency with routines and work

But at the same time, I somehow:

passed AWS Cloud Practitioner after barely studying consistently

passed AWS AI Practitioner after months of on/off preparation and booking the exam almost impulsively

built AI projects using AWS Lambda, Gemini API, OpenCV, DynamoDB, Streamlit, RAG pipelines, local LLMs, etc.

trained a tiny language model on my phone

built a serverless video analysis system in one night

The weird part is I can sometimes do extremely technical things under pressure, but completely fail at normal life consistency:

commuting stresses me out badly

noise overwhelms me

I struggle maintaining jobs

I start things intensely and then collapse

my sleep is chaotic

my mind never stops thinking

I’ve been treated mainly for depression/anxiety for years, but I keep wondering if there’s something more related to executive dysfunction or ADHD.

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m trying to understand if anyone else has experienced this “spiky” pattern where capability and real-world functioning seem completely disconnected.

Has anyone here had a similar experience?

I genuinely don’t understand my own brain anymore.

I’m 27 from India. My life on paper looks like a complete failure:

- multiple course dropouts

- jobs joined and quit within days

- interviews cleared but never showed up

- debt from impulsive microloans

- severe inconsistency with routines and work

But at the same time, I somehow:

- passed AWS Cloud Practitioner after barely studying consistently

- passed AWS AI Practitioner after months of on/off preparation and booking the exam almost impulsively

- built AI projects using AWS Lambda, Gemini API, OpenCV, DynamoDB, Streamlit, RAG pipelines, local LLMs, etc.

- trained a tiny language model on my phone

- built a serverless video analysis system in one night

The weird part is I can sometimes do extremely technical things under pressure, but completely fail at normal life consistency:

- commuting stresses me out badly

- noise overwhelms me

- I struggle maintaining jobs

- I start things intensely and then collapse

- my sleep is chaotic

- my mind never stops thinking

I’ve been treated mainly for depression/anxiety for years, but I keep wondering if there’s something more related to executive dysfunction or ADHD.

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m trying to understand if anyone else has experienced this “spiky” pattern where capability and real-world functioning seem completely disconnected.

Has anyone here had a similar experience?

I genuinely don’t understand my own brain anymore.

I’m 27 from India. My life on paper looks like a complete failure:

- multiple course dropouts

- jobs joined and quit within days

- interviews cleared but never showed up

- debt from impulsive microloans

- severe inconsistency with routines and work

But at the same time, I somehow:

- passed AWS Cloud Practitioner after barely studying consistently

- passed AWS AI Practitioner after months of on/off preparation and booking the exam almost impulsively

- built AI projects using AWS Lambda, Gemini API, OpenCV, DynamoDB, Streamlit, RAG pipelines, local LLMs, etc.

- trained a tiny language model on my phone

- built a serverless video analysis system in one night

The weird part is I can sometimes do extremely technical things under pressure, but completely fail at normal life consistency:

- commuting stresses me out badly

- noise overwhelms me

- I struggle maintaining jobs

- I start things intensely and then collapse

- my sleep is chaotic

- my mind never stops thinking

I’ve been treated mainly for depression/anxiety for years, but I keep wondering if there’s something more related to executive dysfunction or ADHD.

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m trying to understand if anyone else has experienced this “spiky” pattern where capability and real-world functioning seem completely disconnected.

Has anyone here had a similar experience?

Okay, so I was with this girl from Egypt, and she was really sweet and caring. I even asked her to marry me. But here's the thing, she didn't block me and still talks to me. I just don't get it. Can anyone explain what's going on?