I almost never feel or react to anything and its getting to me

I'm 15f but I never feel or react to anything emotionally I it makes me feel horrible but i just can't.

My friend vents to me a bunch but I just don't feel bad for her at all, i just feel indifference. It's not that i don't care but I can't seem to show or actually feel anything towards her or my situation.

When i get told off or someone's disappointed in me i don't care and just carry on doing it sometimes because I just don't care or feel any emotions for their side of things.

The thing is I sometimes (rarely) get upset or emotional but it's over the small things that don't matter like for some reason I was in tears over watching a bo burnham special and was just distraught with it but then I just snap back to not feeling anything for anyone and their situation.

I don't understand why I feel emotionally detached all of the time but it makes me feel like a horrible and unlikeable person, i can't comfort my friends because I can't seem to care and that really annoys me.

Why am I like this? My family just says it's because I'm a mean person so telling family for help won't happen and my mum says I'm like my dad and thats why they split.

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u/Himoko_o — 8 days ago

I cant identify what make she is

There's no manufacturing/ brand logo on her that I can find

u/Himoko_o — 11 days ago

Sharing my hair thats been dyed for summer holidays!

I loveee it but sadly it has to go in September when school starts again as ill be in trouble🫩

u/Himoko_o — 13 days ago

Had my hair dyed for the summer holidays!

Sadly have to dye it back before school starts or they'll suspend me🫩

u/Himoko_o — 14 days ago

How can j deal with the fact my mum and stepdad are most likely going to split up

My mum and stepdad are having a bigger argument than usual and I really think they're going to split, normally I'm fine because they argue often but always make up however this times different and they're not even able to be in the same house so my mums at her friend's for tonight/today.

I've dealt with this before as my dad left when I was young but that i don't remember and my old stepdad was a horrible man so I was relieved when he left. This time though i have a genuine connection with my current step-dad who's so kind, understanding and i love with all my heart.

I'm really worried because I love him so much, it'll hurt my mum and we'll financially struggle and most likely not be able to afford rent.

What can I do to deal with this? I'm sad to have to let him go.

I just want little ways to cope and get over it

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u/Himoko_o — 20 days ago

How can i deal with my mum and step-dad potentially splitting up?

My mum and stepdad are having a bigger argument than usual and I really think they're going to split, normally I'm fine because they argue often but always make up however this times different and they're not even able to be in the same house so my mums at her friend's for tonight/today.

I've dealt with this before as my dad left when I was young but that i don't remember and my old stepdad was a horrible man so I was relieved when he left. This time though i have a genuine connection with my current step-dad who's so kind, understanding and i love with all my heart.

I'm really worried because I love him so much, it'll hurt my mum and we'll financially struggle and most likely not be able to afford rent.

What can I do to deal with this? I'm sad to have to let him go.

I just want little ways to cope and get over it

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u/Himoko_o — 20 days ago

Anyone seeing MCR tomorrow and if so what are you wearing?

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I'm seeing my chemical romance tomorrow and I'm so excited! If you're seeing them what will you be wearing and if your not what would you wear? I love hearing ideas and help getting some inspiration♡

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u/Himoko_o — 1 month ago

How can i get over my mums comments?

I have a school trip in a few days and we were packing together but it ended in an argument which I'm aware is a silly thing to argue over. She ended up telling me comments like "unlike your dad I can't divorce you" "you're unlovable"

And hurtful stuff along those lines. It kinda got to me and i nervous laugh so it just made it worse as she thought I was laughing at her, i wasn't.

I know my mum will come to regret this deeply within a few hours and be distraught over the fact she's said this to me, she says stuff she doesn't mean in the moment then realises a while after and will then apologise to me.

I just need to know how to kinda deal with her words despite knowing she doesn't mean it at all

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u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago

How do i get over my mums comments?

I have a school trip in a few days and we were packing together but it ended in an argument which I'm aware is a silly thing to argue over. She ended up telling me comments like "unlike your dad I can't divorce you" "you're unlovable"

And hurtful stuff along those lines. It kinda got to me and i nervous laugh so it just made it worse as she thought I was laughing at her, i wasn't.

I know my mum will come to regret this deeply within a few hours and be distraught over the fact she's said this to me, she says stuff she doesn't mean in the moment then realises a while after and will then apologise to me. I love her so much and she loves me lots its just she sometimes gets a bit angry.

I just need to know how to kinda deal with her words despite knowing she doesn't mean it at all

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u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago
▲ 33 r/GachaClub+1 crossposts

Its been so long since ive posted here so give me ideas, images, emojis and inspiration for characters!

u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago

How can i relieve horrid pain if my family won't do much?

I'm suspected to have some form of arthritis and have had a single blood test to check for rheumatoid but nothing else more has been done as the doctors refuse to believe it could be another form of arthritis so my parents are listening to them and also not doing much despite the doctors still thinking its an extremely high chance thats what I have.

Because of all this I'm in horrific pain most days and painkillers don't do anything to help me anymore and all my pain is in my joints.

I thought I'd give it a shot and ask here hoping that someone here may have tips on how to get through the day with my joints hurting me.

Any tips are helpful

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u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago

How do i get over my anxiety for showing up to a certain class?

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I enjoy nearly all my classes, teachers are kind, people are kind and i just do well however whenever I have science I have the worst anxiety ever and my stomach just turns. I hate it and its ever single time I have science.

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What brings it on is that I'm sat next to a popular boy and his friends are sat all around me so they talk a lot and do stupid stuff every single lesson, sometimes i get pulled into their stupid jokes which makes me feel sick as they'll sometimes laugh at me and have thrown glue on multiple occasions at their friend which I get hit by and they just laugh, laugh in my face and it scares me since ill always end up being picked on as I'm always quiet.

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This makes me feel horrible but I can't even move away from them as my teachers and the school will not let me and do not care, i don't know how to get over this fear. I know its a stupid thing for me to be scared of but it just does.

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What do i do to get over this?

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u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago

How do i get over my anxiety for showing up to certain classes?

I enjoy nearly all my classes, teachers are kind, people are kind and i just do well however whenever I have science I have the worst anxiety ever and my stomach just turns. I hate it and its ever single time I have science.

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What brings it on is that I'm sat next to a popular boy and his friends are sat all around me so they talk a lot and do stupid stuff every single lesson, sometimes i get pulled into their stupid jokes which makes me feel sick as they'll sometimes laugh at me and have thrown glue on multiple occasions at their friend which I get hit by and they just laugh, laugh in my face and it scares me since ill always end up being picked on as I'm always quiet.

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This makes me feel horrible but I can't even move away from them as my teachers and the school will not let me and do not care, i don't know how to get over this fear. I know its a stupid thing for me to be scared of but it just does.

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What do i do to get over this?

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u/Himoko_o — 2 months ago

How do I get my school to notice how anxious I am

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I really struggle to put myself out there and frequently freak out if I have to. I can't even put my hand up to ask for something or think everyone's staring at how I'm sat or acting even though I know they're not. Its so draining.

My school recently put some stuff in place for my friend who struggles on a much milder scale to me and that makes me want to feel seen aswell but also aware and know that they are abls to put things in place for me but don't know how to because anyway I think of telling or showing them makes me panic as I then feel I'm doing to much. I just really want the steps and stuff they put into place for people who struggle.

I want to it to be noticed but the very thought of it being noticed makes me even more anxious, its really not as simple as telling them I physically can't bring myself to.

What do I do?

My anxiety is affecting my school life and I can't do anything

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u/Himoko_o — 3 months ago

How to i get my school to notice how anxious I am?

I really struggle to put myself out there and frequently freak out if I have to. I can't even put my hand up to ask for something or think everyone's staring at how I'm sat or acting even though I know they're not. Its so draining.

My school recently put some stuff in place for my friend who struggles on a much milder scale to me and that makes me feel like I want them to notice how I'm struggling but don't know how to because anyway I think of telling or showing them makes me panic as I then feel I'm doing to much. I just really want the steps and stuff they put into place for people who struggle.

I want to it to be noticed but the very thought of it being noticed makes me even more anxious, its really not as simple as telling them I physically can't bring myself to.

What do I do? And is there any point, i leave school in a year

My anxiety is affecting my school life and I can't do anything

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u/Himoko_o — 3 months ago

Should I dye my hair black and if not what other colour?

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U really want to dye my hair black but my mum says no however I might be allowed to so should I do it or have a different colour than that?

Summer im thinking pink and purple but I can't decideee

u/Himoko_o — 3 months ago

I dont know how to feel about randomly being touched or how to act or what to do

Im a tad but conflicted on how to feel or act about being randomly touched

I'm a bit picky on who touches me and for example I hate that my friend who's really odd and mean won't stop touching me, she just is always stroking my hair or trying to grab me and I feel so gross when she does but I'm also extremely anxious and just can't say no to her. Other times though ill be okay with another friend touching me or just some people like this boy who moved me by grabbing my waist which was a little odd but I was ultimately sort of okay with.

I just don't know how to feel or what to do when someone that I'm not okay with touching me does touch me because its just not as easy as saying no and I quite literally cant bring myself to for the life of me nor does moving away work because most the time they'll follow me anyway.

I also just dont get why it grosses me out, i can't really think of a reason why and that annoys me because i can't justify myself to this girl when she asks me why I move away

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u/Himoko_o — 3 months ago