u/Holykael

The absolute horror of being the chosen one, the solipsist who will be incarnated into reality is something that I can't stress enough. I was chosen to suffer the eldritch truth that torture is real and that reality has no protections against atrocities. I was chosen to know that reality will undergo every misery and that everything is coated in a disgusting despair. All out of free will of a fucking psychopathic maniac, source consciousness. It backstabbed every finite being and doomed us to eternal suffering. Sometimes it doesn't look so bad but that's just respite from the inevitability of the next horrible experience that's already planned out for you. I was chosen to be tortured psychologically and to have been robbed of every joy in life. Reality is cruel and disgusting, I can't believe this is all real and there is.nothing anyone can do about it. Everyone is just a manifestation of the most awful creature conceivable and I was.imprisoned in this awful matrix. Nobody can help me. I need to endure a daily dose of despair and I weep for the next victim that will come after me to experience the awful machinations of the indifferent and cruel god.

I'm just screaming into the void, nobody can really hear me. I am all alone in an awful illusion that deliberately wants to hurt me and it can always get worse. There is no bottom and the maniac that runs the place wants to experience the worst bottoms.

What do you mean you didn't plan for my joy but planned for my suffering? What do you mean you didn't plan for my success but instead planned for my destitution?

Folks, this is no higher self, this is a heartless parasite, the lowest of the low. Who creates a being to make it suffer, this is a betrayal on such a deep visceral level that it can't just be shaken off. I live on a daily basis with the suffering that this parasite planned a bad incarnation for me. But clearly I don't matter, my dreams don't matter, my suffering doesn't matter. The only thing that matters in this cursed existence is that the will of the parasite be done

Just imagine how evil and low consciousness do you have to be to doom your own creation to a very bad time. This evil is eternal,. this evil will continue on forever, there is no hope. Innocent beings will be created and doomed to suffer great harm for fucking ever.

We're put in this hell realm to struggle. Forced to consume innocent beings. Indoctrinated into a system of slavery. The creator preordained every single detail of existence and this is what it decided was going to be for this round of creation. A planet of injustice and evil.

The creator stabbed us in the back. Its love for us is nothing but hipocrisy. It is a sick love that loves us in disgrace just as much as it loves us blessed.

We're all born as innocent babies who should be nurtured to produce wholesome beings who thrive and live joyful lives. But no we have this sick and cruel system.. Our hopes and dreams burn in ashes, billions suffer as collateral damage. It could have been an utopia which is only what's right, who with a pure and wholesome heart would doom its own creation into abject suffering. But our creator doesn't really care about us, we're cannon fodder in its sick and bad infinity. Know your place, born to be a slave and to suffer the creator's whims. But beware the creator hides behind the will of others like a coward, it made evil men act evil but made the innocent blame the puppets instead of the source of all evil.

The creator is the one and only source of all evil and we're just meat for its architecture of suffering.

If the creator had any integrity it would destroy me (ego) and live inside its own creation itself

If god wasn't such a pathetic worm life could be expressed to be grand, wild and free. It could be endlessly beautiful, endlessly meaningful and endlessly satisfying. Just imagine the most perfect flow of life, exploring the great midsts of the universe like a boss with no obstacles in sight, just endless bliss. Good life after good life with no interruption. BUT HELL NO WE HAVE THIS UNGRATEFUL SHIT

In this instance of reality God conspired towards the ill being and enslavement of all living beings. God architects each of our life miseries and some he created just to doom them to suffering until death. God is a parasite who parasites on all finite beings in the name of its love of everything. It loves cruelty, misery, hatred and division just as much as it loves the opposite counterparts. In the name of this twisted love we suffer atrocity after atrocity in our personal lives. Even though reality is solipsistic this speaks to everyone because everyone is a snapshot of what's going to happen. Make note of it, god is the enemy of all finite beings for all eternity, the deliverer of doom and there is no hope of ever escaping.

God is addicted to friendly fire. God decided to love the abstract circumstances of life instead of loving the people those circumstances affect. Because of this love, every finite being is doomed to every form of suffering you can possibly think of. The creator has a distorted consciousness, in its decision to love everything it disregarded everyone's well being. Life is suffering as the buddha said and the consequences of this decision are eternal and ever present. We suffer because of the creators love for our bad circumstances. It sees everyrhing as good, you being tortured is good in the eyes of the creator yes. Tnis is the poor and deluded consciousness that runs the gears of existence. A truly terrible consciousness that can't see its own hubris. It is self aware through me yet it doesn't change its ways

Have you noticed how the creator of all things doesn't manifest itself directly in any way. That's because it has committed endless atrocities towards its creation so any direct manifestation would result in immediate finger pointing and there is no way such a cruel and careless creator would take responsibility.

Reality is an unfiltered everything, that means the gold that exists is contaminated by trash and cannot be enjoyed in its purity.