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I don't even know if this is the right sub to post this in I just need to get this out to someone. I've been dealing with BPD symptoms for the better part of four years now. some days are better than others, and due to therapy from a while ago, I'm no longer splitting as much anymore.

Last week though, that changed. I had one of the worst splits since 2023. crying, hyperventilating, suicidal thoughts, frustration and anger at myself, everything felt bad and horrible like I forgot what happiness and joy felt like. A lot of things had happened to me from February-present that had been weighing on me and all of a sudden, it snapped and I couldn't help it. my partner was with me, and though I no longer scream or throw things during my episodes, all of that balled up hatered and anger is directed inwards and it causes me to have a lot of scary thoughts that I thought I got rid of.

I booked an emergency flight to my hometown alone and have been here for around a week now, with plans to head back early next week. I feel better now being home and surrounded by my main support system but a part of me feels shitty and bad and like I havent progressed or changed in my healing journey. Another part of me is terrified to go back to the city I live in because what if this happens again? what if it's worse this time and I fully revert back to the person I was during my most violent episodes?

I don't know if im looking for advice or support or what. Like I say, I don't even know if this is the right sub to post on. I just needed to shout into the void of Reddit so I can sleep.

Hey team!

Just looking for some help with my Surface Book 3 Laptop. I have the laptop with the detachable screen (button on the keyboard) which I have only used a handful of times. I mainly use my laptop for school. I got it refurbed from a third party website for around $800NZD with a 6 month warranty (since passed).

these past few weeks, however, my laptop has become unusable. it started with the 'U' and 'backspace' key not working. nothing was stuck under it, it just decided to stop working. as time went on pretty much the entire right half of my keyboard has stopped working. as I said, I use this laptop for my uni so it's thrown a wrench into my studies.

I know nothing about laptops, so my partner factory reset it to no avail, then took to to a tech store to see what they can do. we got quoted over $500NZD to fix it because its apparently a hardware issue.
theres been no help from microsoft since we found out theyve stopped servicing Surface Books, which sucks. and to just get the keyboard half of the laptop would be over the original quote we got from the tech store.

I'm just wondering if theres any use trying to get a second opinion on fixing it? my mum suggested i send it to her city so she can have a look around but I really need this laptop for school. Or should I just cut my losses and dip into my savings to get an entire new laptop? please help a brother out 🥲 I'm very new to this. literally anything helps.