u/Ilikeponyhooves

I switch my schedule from waking in the morning to evening every few weeks on accident, whenever i’m awake during the day I just feel like a dry burnt corpse after one hour and all I can think about is wanting to lay in bed and wait for the next day. It feels similar to when u sleep 5 hours but without the adrenaline benefits.

When it’s evening I just feel.. neutral. I’m tired either way but this is more like default mode instead of hardcore, just groggy at the start and meh in-between, why do day schedules suck me out of my soul to the point it feels like torture

The day I reverted my schedule I instantly feel more refreshed lol

all the corny mouthbreathers with sukuna pfps are using this as a response to anyone that remotely dislikes something about a game mechanic

you try to criticize flaws about a game that are pretty well known? skill issue

want to vent ur frustrations or ask for advice on how to improve? skill issue

have any opinion that isnt positive? skill issue

genuinely this phrase ruined 80% of originality when it comes to balance discussing, what happened to explaining why you think you disagree, it became the new “seek therapy” but for video games lmao

like what do people get from repeating the same thing over and over without even using it for appropriate situations most of the time, ive even seen this on gacha game posts unironically, whats with all the band kids with foam at their mouths camping their favorite game subreddit with their 50k hours played trying to snipe this in as much as possible as if theyre being paid per hour, it genuinely adds nothing to the conversation but people keep getting boners over this

One of the few good things of this stimulant i've noticed is that I can somehow ignore that i'm tired? It's not like my sleep quality improves AT ALL on it, if anything this med ruins my sleep cycles by waking me up every hour in an alert state. When i'm finally awake however it's still way better than the normal 8 hours of undisturbed sleep. Funny how that works.

I'm still not functional either way at all and my body still screams for me to pay attention to it being sleepy and exhausted all the time but "muting" it is kinda cool. I guess this is what normal people feel when they drink coffee.

Eggs and bacon for breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and meat with 5 different servings of vegetables for lunch ike in movies? Do people actually make this effort just for food every single day? Blew my mind to learn this.

I kinda just take a big slice of bread and throw a salami on it or smth and if I remember at night maybe unfreeze a cheap burger, eat a fruit or cook something like 2 eggs if i'm feeling daring. I can't imagine ever spending 20 minutes for 2 meals and like one hour for the last one JUST TO EAT A SINGLE TIME, that sounds exhausting.

I know I sound lazy as shit but think about it, you need food to be fueled but need fuel to cook properly, it's a fucking stalemate.

To start off it does have a few slight positives , it's just that they don't help with productivity or pretty much doing anything? They do give me a warm feeling in my chest for a few minutes once an hour almost like when you get really hyped about something, it's a bonus but I don't know what i'm supposed to do with this feeling that barely lasts. It also makes me feel a bit more content with the fact my life sucks, I still can't do shit but i'm 30% less pissed about it.

For negatives i'd say they make my heartbeat feel awkward and "strong" but not actually increase the beats and overall just 50% more sleep paralysis. I could however live with these if the med helped with adhd at all?? I'm not here to shit on concerta but does anyone have any idea why it's so underwhelming (even wellbutrin feels around the same and its a mere antidepressant) and what could cause its efficiency to be so low? I tried all dosages possible up to 100mg+ but mostly took 56mg.

I've read that it's supposed to give you the tools and you have to learn to use them but I don't think that's my issue, I can't even do things I want and enjoy to do without feeling paralyzed by executive dysfunction and overall too tired and unsatisfied to do anything. I'd just move on to another stimulant if I could but this is the only one available in my country.

I stopped taking xyzal for the first time in a decade for over a week and I start to feel so sad all the time? Way angrier too but I need a specific trigger first otherwise it’s fine. I feel a kind of sadness like I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders and feel so defeated? Anger and sadness is possible while medicated but it’s more of a vibe and it doesn’t consume me. It feels like I lost my numbness but not in a good way.

Is this a good or a bad thing for quitting?

If someone pinches or punches my arm slightly or something it starts to burn like hell to the point I have to hold the spot with my other hand at full power to get some relief, lasts a few minutes and no one else I know has this

I never get hit as shelly in these blushcrunch runs and the distractors always die randomly floor 30-40 to a lag spike or smth or the shellies just straight up disconnect for no reason? I have over 200 attempts and they always sell it every single goddamn run, I even joined permas with hfs over 120 and they still end like that, how is this possible and how do so many people have this badge but can't last fucking 40 floors? Winning the lottery is easier than this

edit: are there any european permas that can help me secure an f100 goal? im genuinely so tired

I read a few posts and most people specified their eyes are closed and they only see a dream replica of their room? What?

I just see everything as it is and my eyes are 100% open, even the lighting is the exact same

While I didn't take hours to beat it this boss is literally lace 2 on steroids and 500 mixed patterns, its rough and nobody mentions how much u have to lock in without any tools, probably the roughest boss for me so far

I usually only sleep when it’s light outside 99% of the time but exceptions can happen and.. that’s literally the only time I hallucinate… why?

Can do absolutely anything during the day but no matter how much I panic or try to inflict something there’s nothing happening, only for like some special cases here and there. Last night I had an example: I kept seeing some hands walking around and when I close my eyes I feel something kept trying to shove and hit me as if it wanted me to witness, then I reopen my eyes and see a hand walking with a knife.. then I close my eyes again and feel stabs on my own hands. I wasn’t even panicked just very uncomfortable.

Might not sound that crazy at first but these hallucinations are so well coordinated from auditory to visually that it almost feels like i’m dreaming. Whenever I hallucinated during the day it was very surface level stuff like either 2d spiders or just hearing some random gibberish and maybe some random pain, and these are like 1/20 times when I sleep during the day and not even all together at once. When I sleep at night? I’m a horror movie protagonist.

Is there any science behind this cuz it’s not like I expect it to happen or get too scared, I barely process what happened after I wake up.

Why does nobody talk about the shitty tiredness sleep paralysis gives you afterwards that doesn’t disappear until you fall asleep again which is literally impossible cuz it literally repeats itself over and over again unless I wait for the next day. Any ways I can remove this horrible disease sensation without going back to sleep?

First off I gotta say waking up has to be the hardest part of the day to me, it's probably how zombies in movies feel when they rise from their grave. Everything just hurts like i'm rotting on the inside and it takes so many attempts of counting to 10 before I actually find a window where i'm not too "lazy" enough to do it, it's just exhausting and not worth the payoff.

The only part of the day I look forward to is drinking my monster energy drink at the start of the day even thought it doesn't give me the caffeine benefits, I just really enjoy the refreshing taste. 30 mins later is when I start to feel miserable, my eyes become blurry and have to really struggle to hold focus on what's happening on the screen and I just doze off and daydream. I feel like i'm dragging through mucus to do any simple task.

Also, my chest becomes "waterish" and I get hit with a sense of sorrow that completely kills my mood to do anything I enjoy, my posture becomes hard to keep up and I feel my neck tilting very slightly to the side involuntarily and overall yawn a fuck ton and can't focus on anything. After half of the day my body switches into some "overclocked" state and everything feels like it's on fire instead of being too groggy. My eyes burn, my forehead burns, my ears burn, my chest feels uneasy and I feel more angry.

All I can think of at this point is when I can go to sleep to restart my body decaying process but guess what, the only time i'm not sleepy is when I get in bed, ideas about what i'm gonna do the next day start flowing in my brain giving me a bit of dopamine (only the idea of doing stuff brings me joy) and I can't rest. I feel like when I stay in bed with my eyes closed it's like I forget how tired I am so that gives me motivation to try things.

I wasn't always like this, for 5-6 years it got this bad, i'd have around 8-9 hours of feeling good before my body would start to feel sleepy. I'd have this state where when my chest would become warm and tingly everything would just feel good for no reason, music would sound pleasant instant of screeching my ears like it does now, I could focus on anything i'd like to do, and i'd just feel content way easier. The thing is that I still get this state of mind sometimes but only for 20 minutes maximum per week or something. A bit easier to inflict it if I overdose on caffeine but it's not worth it.

On a last note I want to mention that I also started getting sleep paralysis 5-6 years ago and it never left since then, I don't know what's the correlation though.. so.. should I actually bother to get tested in your eyes or does this just sound like what untreated ADHD can do to you or just bad sleeping habits? I don't really have a schedule tbh but I do sleep 8-11 hours