Its harder for the new staff to understand we cant save every dog. Even if there seems to be a chance to "help" the dog, we need to put our energy and resources into our adoptable dogs. These decisions arent made lightly but are very important ones.
I know, I know. Please just listen and please be kind. My husband and I have been together since kids. He has had lots of unresolved problems and still does. Not an excuse at all. He has made the effort to work on them. He has had his slip ups but is doing much better. I have hope for our future even though it doesn't seem 100% promising right now. We have children together too. Part of me reminds myself why we are here in the first place. That we got to this point for a reason. There is a lot of history. He was borderline emotionally abusive and just a selfish person. Lots of mental health problems. He has owned up to it and has started taking meds and is going to therapy. He is very apologetic and wants this to work. He doesnt understand why he did the things he did. Its been about 6 months. I know I was stuck in a trauma bond. I know my nervous system stayed put for so long because its what was normal. My heart wanted to be loved and to be chosen. I have come such a long way myself. I would never, ever settle for something like that again. While I dont think we can be together any time soon, I see a future for sure. Do I follow through with the divorce? I hate that we have such a great arrangement with the kids as is and the courts get so confusing and dificult. Part of me just wants me to pull out. Any advice?
I'm sure its just negative thoughts and shame. But its almost like I have this voice/thought it my head that shames me for trying to meditate. Like I feel like I'm a phony for even trying. Almost like I'm being made fun of. Its hard to take it seriously but I recognize and see this block.
It also hard to know when I'm actually meditating if that makes any sense. In my head this voice keeps saying "you are just closing your eyes....what are you doing....."
Anyone?
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I think I've read most of the well known books. Many I read are repeating the content. Looking for something else now. About anything. Share whatever you like!
I 100% know that I cannot expect someone to show up for me. It only hurts my own feelings. My own husband couldnt show up for me. I questioned why he did the things he did to me. How could one possibly treat someone so terribly? Someone you had children with and agreed to marry. I only wanted love. I see now he is a lost soul. A reflection of how he feels about himself. Yet I hold micro expectations till this day and disappoint myself to no end. I just want to feel free from all this already. I have to let people be who they are. Who they choose to be. It just hurts.
Genuinely asking. Looking to take a deep dive! Any book recommendations, podcasts, videos. Send them my way!
I carry a lot of shame. I dont love it but I recognize that I do. I am getting a divorce from a narcissist. Breadcrumbs, controlling, unkind, and everything else. I was starved of love and affection for a long time.
Recently I've grown this "crush" on a person. However, I often feel like I'm questioning whether its healthy or if im trying to fill a void of some sort. I feel like its shame not allowing me to feel this desire. I feel shame for having this desire. That desire is wrong. That there MUST be an underlying reason. I think its good to self reflect but I think I'm overthinking it. I dont wanna be with just anyone. Male attention usually makes me uncomfortable actually. Probably because I carry more shame. I dont know. It makes me feel guilty when I think about this guy. I think about him often and it makes me feel "obsessed" or that I overthink about him. I feel guilty for getting butterflies when I see him. I feel guilty for wanting a connection.
I feel like if I wanted to fill a void or needed emotional validation then I would get it from anyone. Thats not true. I feel a lot of shame for having feelings for someone else.
Part of me wants to validate it. Part of me wants to let it go. I cant seem to find a good balance. It will be out of nowhere when I'll get this urge to retreat and crawl into a hole. Not let anyone in. Mind you, the closest people to me are those who wronged me or continue to. I cant cut them out completely. Its complicated. But I see I am very hurt. Im being patient with myself but it also feels like I'm never improving.
When someone does something to upset me Im having this mental battle between choosing to see it in a different perspective (love) and not allowing myself to dwell on the negative. I dont want to spend a second more thinking badly about them. Its just really hard. I want to reach a point where it didnt bother me at all. I can easily look over it. But it hurts. Due to my false expectations. Im having a hard time. How do I carry on after someone upsets me. I feel like they need to know they wronged me. That they hurt me. So they dont think everything is just dandy. Do I Remove access? Limit access?
Ive done a lot of deep diving as is. One can say my "lover" is a direct mirror of myself. However, i really struggle to see this but want to understand it so badly. I am so empathetic, kind, compassionate. He is a hurt man. He is struggling and he hates who he is. We are completely different people. He has no idea who he is. This caused him to hurt me for many many years. I reached a level of grief that led me here today. We arent together anymore but still live together. We also share children. We get along just fine. I am very forgiving. It takes way too much energy to keep a grudge and to be bitter. Its not who I am. I cant do it. However, there are moments where he slips up. He doesnt have the emotional capacity to hold much. It ends up hurting me. I see there is something here but I cant figure it out. Am I giving him too much access?
If you have any good advice, reads, or can point me in a certain direction I'd really appreciate it!
What do these 3 things mean? How are they different? Why are they important? I would love any and all input!
I have come such a long way in my journey and making progress everyday. Many relationships died that needed to. I have one friend who I've kept around but it is getting harder everyday. She loves to complain. She has such a negative mindset. She needs to vent all the time. She wants me to take her side and validate her. Its so hard. The harder part is she cannot handle any sort of....direction. If I dont feed into it, she would get annoyed and shut down. Part of me wants to be a supportive friend and be there to listen. Thats what friends are for right? But if i offer her advice instead of just a listening ear, she doesn't take it well. I might just set the boundary again (ive mentioned it before) but it wont land well. Its almost not enough for me to cut her out but im not sure what to do. Its draining!
So many are BLATANTLY AI and i can't stand it 😭 i sound crazy but where can I find NORMAL cards?
Im very new. Like almost clueless about numerology. Is there a good start somewhere?