u/Instantlemonsmix

This is kinda stupid I know but this is the only place I can think of where people would have the type of experiences to share some advice

I’m a very experienced person when it comes to the classic psychedelics (this is where it gets kind of dumb) I just went to the dentist got put on laughing gas and at first eh nothing to bad but then major anxiety set in and I managed to keep my self calm which then sent me into a pretty euphoric state

But then all these weird thoughts started to flow… I had this vivid dream of one of my employees and I walked up behind him said his name as if he was a sight for sore eyes I grabbed his shoulder from behind turned him around and said his name with a surprised expression… he was like “I’m not [his name]…” and walked away

The point of this: I got home a few hours ago but I was filled with rage… I wanted to punch something so bad then it got so bad I balled up and clinched my fists like an idiot and started grunting bc the anger was to much to bare…

After that I kind of came down and started thinking of things that happened like 15 fuckin years ago…. Shit that doesn’t even matter is now news to me

I feel really annoyed and angry and I just fucking HATE everything right now like everything I look at just pisses me off to no end for no reason! Even typing this is getting old…

When is this going to end? I don’t feel high at all just mad at everything.. I never even wanted to be gassed… I didn’t even know it was going to happen until I got there I had like 4 hours of sleep before that and my god I just can’t stop fucking complaining about everything…

I know we all have different reactions to the same things and all which isn’t surprising to me that I have a less common yet still kind of common idfk… side effect

Please god tell me this will end soon and I’m not stuck like THIS I’ve def had quite a few negative experiences on shrooms or acid that followed me for days so I’m guessing it might kind of be like that?… now I just feel drained… no energy I get 2 days off a week and I just can’t stop thinking about how this day and possibly tomorrow will just be wasted and I’ll be thrown back into the work loop once again… I don’t even usually think like this

And worst of all as I’m sitting here time is wasting I need to go make money thru door dash but it’s 102 degrees in hell rn and I just can’t bring my self to go out there but if I don’t I’m fucked…
Idk why I’m even mentioning that… ugh

Idk what the correct term is for the shaft that connects the chain to the opposite side to drive the wheel… but anyway where can I find one compatible with a predator 79cc engine? I’m very familiar with these engines I know they can produce a decent amount of power and they fit right into the Oklahoma engine size law for street legality.. as well being a 4 stroke which is more appealing for me

How long does it take to adjust and feel normal again? I did cap 2 for 2 years became an over night lead hated it spent 11 months doing that and now I’m back to cap 2 but as a lead this time
(Sorry if that was confusing)

Anyway point is I’m majorly struggling with no energy confusion lack of motivation basically just dragging on to get things done

I get a good amount of sleep 8-9 hours a night but I wake up exhausted and it takes an hour or two for the cortisol spike to wake me up but then as that fades I’m left feeling tired again and thru out the day I just can’t wait to get off work…

I still push my self to do what I enjoy when I’m off but lord… why do I feel 50 at 24?? I when I do get home all I want to do is sleep again but that will destroy my sleep schedule..

I work 2-11 3 days out of each week and 7-4 2 days out of the week

So far I line the job it’s not that bad at all but I wonder how long it could take for me to readjust to a normal life again

I’ve had to cut out news on e bikes which is annoying because I still need to know what is happening legally because it does affect me..
the problem is people post nothing but click bait the same thing over and over again and most of the time are misleading or really unimportant

The main reason I cut out news related to e bikes is because it just seems to be fear mongering non stop I kind of realized as they are blowing up the feed with this it’s actually very peaceful outside…

90% of what I see is related to throttles or speed limits or something a long the lines of “kids riding surrons getting e bikes banned” I can just google the current laws so that’s not a problem but why does everything have to revolve around fear to stay relevant?

I want to put a bafang mid drive on my bike but I would love to create a custom shifter anyone got any pics of custom projects? I’m thinking about using down tube shifters and connecting them to my desired shifter of choice (a stick with an 8 ball) I want a rat rod look little bit of “rust” here and there

So I finally did it.. I finally rode a bicycle on mushrooms! It’s been something I’ve always wanted to do but never had a bike to with or the right place but I recently got E-bikes which has majorly improved my life style

Me and my gf took an unknown amount of shrooms (I quit weighing them a long time ago and started gauging it by eye) we Prepped some lemon tek for 30 minutes and then made the 10 minute drive to the trail

When we go there I unloaded the bikes and set up and then we drank the juice
We hit the throttle and went about 8 mph just cruising along for about 15 minutes and then I could tell it was starting to hit me

I saw a bridge in the distance and the bridge had a house in the distance on a hill and that entire area was illuminated by an old street light that turned purple (that do that when they get old) I thought to my self “WOAH?! We’re going there?!!” I was amazed shit looked like dark souls or something.. going along this long dark gravel trail and seeing a big castle In the distance…

We kept riding and everything felt pretty normal until I noticed the grass was making these weird zig zag patterns and the gravel was moving around

I saw the gravel swarm like Ants and it distracted me and sent me into a day dream where I couldn’t actually see I front of me and then reality did this weird shift and I snapped back into it and swerved a bit regaining my awareness…
That kind of scared me and I thought “can I keep going?” And I figured I had my senses about me so I continued on

This one patch in the gravel really started swarming like bugs and it looked cool but I just kept paying attention to what was infront of me

At this point everytime we would stop for a moment I felt all of my energy just deplete slowly and if we set there long enough I would zone out forget to even breath and basically just shut down like an engine running out of gas
My gf noticed this and asked if I was okay to which I replied while now breathing heavy “yeah… I just need.. to keep… going…” so we did and my energy came back I got more talkative again and felt much better

But she kept wanting to stop for some real which was getting annoying because we usually don’t and the shut down mode was very uncomfortable

At one point we stopped for like the 50th time and I was getting very paranoid because the park technically closed at 10pm and we were there at 2:00 am… (it’s a trail that connects to multiple parks thru out the city there’s not really a way to actually close it and people are all over it anyway) I kept trying to keep going but she wanted to sit there and asked why I can’t just sit here for a minute

We argued back and fourth and she was like “all you want to do in life is go.. just sit here and enjoy it”
I replied “but I want to move it doesn’t feel good to stay here…”
And she said “but look around us… there’s no one here”

This changed everything for me and I became less willing to move from there
We talked did I think 15 minutes and then went on we both noticed that the entire park was empty…(we had ridden 8 miles at this point) there’s usually late night joggers bikers or people illegally riding dirt bikes or homeless people… but it was completely different this time no one at all

As we rode on the dark woods kind of creeped me out so I turned on the Bluetooth speaker and that totally changed everything again

The bike felt great in my hands and felt good to sit on surprisingly the sjrooms stopped my ass from hurting like it usually does I felt like I could sit on that seat for days

I started to think about a friend I had to cut off for saying some really weird shit and I thought “oh gkd what kind of weirdo found his way into my life?… it always kinda seemed like he was planning on.. raping me or something” that really freaked me out and then this scene of me and him on that trail that we used to bike on played in my head he was holding a shotgun and I turned around to see bro locking his lips and staring at me with this look… he said “got you now you sexy little blonde bitch” and then I said “well damn… this is how I’m going out” and then he shot me and I was dying and thinking about how my gf and my family would never know what happened to me…

That really stuck with me and still kind of has.. it’s one of those things with psychedelics you have to be carful with thankfully I am okay and I’m not really letting all that get to me and I try not to think about it…

I realized the trip might be turning bad and to avoid that I started talking to my gf about what was happening and then I decided to stop thinking about it because it was very negative and scary… this worked very well I used what I’ve learned and practiced in my everyday life and I used mindfulness

Feeling much much better and nearly forgetting what I experienced we rode on

I remember riding along and thinking about identity and how I left my wallet at the truck but then figured I didn’t need it anyway.. Imagined my drivers license and thought “how do they even know that’s really me?” What ever that means
Then I felt like I wasn’t me I couldn’t figure out who I was I didn’t know anything about my self not even my name… so I thought “come on me where are you?” And then scenes of me digging in this universe with my hands looking for my self as I kept turning into different characters I would rummage around and then stop because I had turned into an animal or something then a surgeon then pomni from the amazing digital circus.. and then I dig again and turned into the tree that’s on angry orchard apple ale boxes…

And then finally I was turned back into my self again.. the self I lost while working over night for a year the self I lost from all the anger I was going thru in a toxic work place the loneliness I felt when all my friends stopped being available at all due to life’s obligations… the self I lost that used to take care of him self that wasn’t so socially anxious that wasn’t so depressed and just genuinely unhappy

But I also realized how much control I’ve actually achieved over my mind I can actually cope with serious anxiety and depression now I’ve gotten a really really fun hobby that gets me out into the sunlight I’m working regular hours again and next year Ill be able to move out of this apartment that I hate so much because of the area it’s in is not a safe or comfortable place

I don’t feel strong after glows anymore I just feel like a normal happy person and my imagination is much less full of negativity

I stepped outside today and just breathed man… god that moment felt so good I feel good to just be alive and exist I’m glad I was born

The music was so good it seemed to make the entire experience much more positive the city looked beautiful as we came up on it we both noticed it looked static lights were fuzzy

Nothing creepy happened or anything and we turned back at about 5:30 or 6:00 am (we set off at 1:30 originally) got back to the truck at 7:45 and the trip was well over at that point so we drove home hit the bed and crashed hard and slept for I think about 10 hours

It’s been a couple years since my last trip I’ve definitely tried to trip but the shrooms weren’t very good this how ever was amazing

So Ive rode with 3 different people and all of them seem to constantly fall behind and often stay really far behind for some reason

I don’t go very fast about 10-15 mph to save battery and just cruise around for fun on trails not really into street riding anymore

One guy was terrified of breaking the bike.. he waited until 3 months of owing it to actually go into P5 and test that out he wouldn’t ride thru grass.. he wouldn’t ride it if the weather wasn’t nearly perfect… he wouldn’t ride on gravel even tho it was a far tire e bike with off road tread… it was an Amyet 1000w fat tire e bike and he would usually just peddle it at 5 mph i wonder why he didn’t just get a regular bicycle at that point

Second guy was very inexperienced but very experienced with regular bicycles but that one I didn’t really mind as much because… I’d be kind of an a**hole to be impatient with a beginner but I was surprised that he only wanted to go 5mph the entire time I went about 7 because it was hard to keep balance at 5 lol

Now that I have a second bike me and my gf ride around which is nice and I got her to get with the idea of keeping up and she does that well

But after I tried following someone in mine it was kind of nice? For some reason to just follow a leader brings a strange sense of comfort… even tho I know those trails very well it just seems more content to follow behind someone

Why people fall behind about 40 yards while I’m at 10 mph I don’t know… and when I come to a complete stop mention it and we agree to stay side by side or at least within a 6 foot radius so we can communicate they still somehow fall behind and at this point I can tell their going slightly faster
But even when I try to force my self to go 5mph they keep hitting the brakes… wheh i ask why they say “oh I was trying not to pass you” at that point I’m lost… idek

It’s really not that big of a deal but it’s more of a curiosity thing for me I think it might come from then worrying about sudden stops but usually I veer off to the side and slowly stop to make myself more predictable or I’ll just signal that with my hand

Anyone else have this experience? Or do your group or duo riders stay with you? Haven’t done a trio or four person ride yet but I’d like to once I get my Hurley BS2 to work again (that doesn’t mean big swell 2 btw… but that is what it is lol)

I’ve bought and sold quite a few things on FB marketplace but for some reason when I’m selling something I get flawless response times that would even surpass 911…

But when I’m buying something I swear money makes these people into Himalayan monks that hate money

What really gets me is when they you say “hey I’m interested in the XXL thong” and they reply “okay” and then noting.. and then minutes turn to hours and I eventually move on

And then 6 hours later “hey you still interested?” Reply: “yes absolutely what time?” And then…. Silence

Why even post it if you can’t respond? They say about 90% of the time when this happens your probably not getting the deal and that is true but I’m extremely persistent and managed to get what I wanted took 3 days but I actually got an address finally and got the E bike i wanted…

When I sell things of I don’t have the time in that moment I will send a detailed message with an attached plan and actually go thru with it costumer service is important! And I turn on notifications when I’m selling something

I usually sell things within 1-3 days and it always goes well but god forbid if I try to buy something thru face book marketplace can’t we just have a separate app for marketplace?