u/Interesting-Camel385

I really get the feeling that I’m not supposed to be here. I have struggled with anxiety all my life and it’s just getting worse as I get older.

Working gives me so much stress and anxiety that I can end up crying on a before going into work or even on my lunch break because I feel so overwhelmed. I constantly overthink my relationships and every little change in people convinced they hate me.

I feel so far behind in life at 29 sleeping on a couch at my parent’s house because I can’t afford my own place.

All the things I like or I’m “good” at are either pointless or I’m not good enough at that thing for it to really mean anything.

The only thing Iv really accomplished is graduating uni but I’m not good enough at what I done so I’m working minimum wage at a job I’m really not even good at and wondering how they haven’t sacked me yet.

I really feel like I wasn’t ment to be born, my mum was told she could have kids then she had me and I feel like that says a lot. I shouldn’t be here I’m a mistake.

I work as a embroider for a smallish family run business (I’m not in the ‘family’) I have been there a year and I started with no experience, had never touched an embroidery machine before. The person who was supposed to train me left about 2 weeks after I stared and I have been winging it ever since.

I absolutely love my job, I love making things and the challenges that it brings but I struggle a lot with work place anxiety, this isn’t new it’s something Iv had in all the jobs Iv had but it’s been bad enough at times Iv had to talk Kalms just to go into work. I cry in the car before work and sometimes at lunch. My main worry is I’m just not good enough at the job, I’m slow and I make silly mistakes that I know I shouldn’t make.

I’m making minimum wage and I’m thinking i might be better off just finding another job that’s less stress but I know I’d also hate the job. I don’t know what to do I think no matter what I do I’ll be miserable.

I work as a embroider for a smallish family run business (I’m not in the ‘family’) I have been there a year and I started with no experience, had never touched an embroidery machine before. The person who was supposed to train me left about 2 weeks after I stared and I have been winging it ever since.

I absolutely love my job, I love making things and the challenges that it brings but I struggle a lot with work place anxiety, this isn’t new it’s something Iv had in all the jobs Iv had but it’s been bad enough at times Iv had to talk Kalms just to go into work. I cry in the car before work and sometimes at lunch. My main worry is I’m just not good enough at the job, I’m slow and I make silly mistakes that I know I shouldn’t make.

I’m making minimum wage and I’m thinking i might be better off just finding another job that’s less stress but I know I’d also hate the job. I don’t know what to do I think no matter what I do I’ll be miserable.

Is there any strange rules you’ve heard of people following before they will count a ground such as

Must be in the home end
Must be in the away end
Must have bought a pie
Must have bought a match program

Does anyone add grounds that you have played at? I played at few while I was in school not too sure if I should add them in or not.