u/Interesting_Box_342

I am not sexually active at all so i lowkey feel weird asking but i deadass cannot take being on my period anymore. I know imma be on my period bc a week before I start, I get EXTREMELY depressed and truly hate myself to where I start getting SI thoughts. I also just get so pissed that I have to go through this much pain when I hate kids like leave me tf alone I can’t take ts anymore 😭. I am somewhat active and love to do things but the first three days of it I deadass can’t walk or do things but I have to bc I can’t just stay still. I have my physical next week and want to bring it up bc being on my period is so fucking inconvenient to me like if I had a wizard I wouldn’t wish for no money. I would wish for me to not bleed out of my vagina. I deadass told my friend I would pay someone all I got to give me a hysterectomy bc I hate kids and my period that much.

I got off my meds like 2 years ago out of nowhere because I couldn’t afford my meds anymore. I’ve been stuck on a depressive episode for a couple of months now and it genuinely hurts to get up, move or even do anything. Then recently the guy I been liking for forever started seeing someone so it got me even more depressed. Like i genuinely don’t know how im ever going to get out of this episode. Every day seems the same. Work, sleep repeat.

I hate hearing people say that I need to eat healthy, sleep well, go to the gym. I DO THAT ALL. I go to the gym I eat healthy I been sleeping well. When is this going to end. Yesterday i literally slept all day deadass.

I go on road trips by myself. I travel to places by myself. I force myself to get up everyday. I have cats and i literally only get up for them bc I have no motivation to do anything else I hate this so much.

Does anyone have like a mock up view or something of what I would see form section 114? I wanted the floor but ended up with section 114😭

I have a saalt regular and saalt small. The regular one I put in when I’m on my last two days. When I’m just starting, I usually put a tampon in (but I don’t want to) it’s just that for some reason i literally can not put the regular one in as it falls out. The saalt small is not enough for my vagina or something I guess because today was the first time I bled through my pants in a LONGGG TIME. I used the saalt small one because I was at work and didn’t want to get up and change my tampon. I had a period underwear on as well and I went to the bathroom at one point and realized that all of the blood was on my underwear. When I took out the disc, literally nothing was inside. Like it didn’t even look like any amount of blood even got in there. I went home took a shower and everything and tried to put in my regular one. I can literally feel the blood coming out. I’m not sure what to do because i genuinely hate being on my period and having to change tampons, underwear, pads gets me so mad. I have been using discs for like 8 months now. I’m only happy on my period when I’m on my last two days bc the blood stays well inside the disc and I still bleed a good amount during the last two days I also don’t feel it. But lately it’s just pissing me off more than it should. Should I switch to a firmer one? A larger one? I’m so confused 😭

I have tried the diva disc before as well and literally could not put it in as it was way too flimsy.

Im currently in a different state right now. I asked a friend who already has a ticket for the game if they can get me a jersey. Would they be able to get me the jersey if I buy a ticket and ask them to get it for me or are there rules regarding that? Hopefully my question makes sense

Do you guys think that the deluxe machine will go on sale even more during Memorial Day? I was thinking of getting the 5 in one since it is 170 right now. And then I saw the deluxe and now I want that one. It is currently 220. I was thinking of getting it and then I saw people say to wait to see if it gets down to 170-190 or so 😭

I moved to a whole different state away from my family and friends. (I have an internship right now) I technically haven’t signed a lease on anything yet. I’m currently living in an apartment through VRBO. Lowkey, the landlord who posted the apartment made it look so good with the photos. I’m here for about 2 more weeks, In this current place. I can’t seem to get over the loneliness I feel. I call my family every day. I put up cameras in the place. I feel like living alone now, I can hear every single little noise and it is completely scaring the shit out of me. I lowkey want to go home and be with my family and not even do the internship but I know that it is something I have been wanting but idk like I’ve just been scared and lonely 😅. The internship ends in August. I asked my sister if she would come with me because she does not work right now and she is thinking about it so that is what is keeping me going but other than that, idk how to describe how lonely I feel.
I hope that maybe I just been to get used to it a bit since it’s a completely new change yk? Idk I feel like I need to have someone here with me

I can barely take my cats in a car ride that is 20 minutes. Since I am taking everything and moving states, I figured it would be best to drive in my car but I refuse to give my cats to someone else. My cats are my everything. It is a 16+ hr car ride 😭😭 has anyone ever done something like that? What is the best thing to do.

Also, yes. I did a budget of Taking an airplane and shipping out my car and all my stuff VS driving there and driving there was SIGNIFICANTLY cheaper