u/Isaias_Azathoth936

What I want is relatively hard to find.

That being :

The SI ( OC is fine too but I really wanted and SI ) is a being of some power and experience BEFORE they arrives at worm.

They could be some one like the MC of Doors to the unknown. A experiemced wizard and planeswalker who arrives at worm by investigating a new pathways in the multiverse that was not there before.

They could a Jumper ( a person who does the type of CYOA where they go into a chain of different worlds of adventure instead of just one - got it ? Jumpchain? Heh ) who alredy have being on some worlds, acumulated some power

Heck they do not even have to be a multiverse traveller as long as they are experimced enough to might as well be. Like Lato Cleff and Jack Bright ( SCP characters ) in my beloved but never finished " Contaiment report "

The first and fore most request is that they are not some newbie who was transited from the normal world straigth to worm

I got that desire after being sort of let down by 2 fics:

After that one fic were a sort of evil Jumper guy chooses Taylor to become his companion she goes into inter-multiversal adventures and comes back with multiple power from other worlds ( including naruto I think ) I was just like :

Great concept but I not nice execution.

Also ther eis lame twist where the Jumepr was so Lame he actually originally want to take Jack as a companion but chsnged his mind on a whim sort of.

Them I read Doors to The Unknown and think :

Awesome concept and even a good execution but I can't bring myself to like this MC and some of the writting choices thick me off.

So I am searching for a fic that has what I liked on those ones but actually delivers it

English not my forst language sorry for awkward grammar

With time SCP started to include way more actual story telling and character and consequentially many compellying and memorable researcher characters came about.

I wanted to ask you guys what researchers stuck with you. Those that even if just appearing in 1 or 2 SCPs or Tales are worth remenbering and have interesthing personalities.

Also that might be a sneaky way of asking for recomendarions of stories. Stories with not just SCP goodness but character too

+Jumps good for power collectors

You guys got what I mean. Sometimes we want powers not even so much for a purpose but just to collect them as figurines.

For that a simple power thief perk like " All for One " or something is enough.

Them got to Jumps like :

JJK ( defntely stealing all the Zenin curse techniques)

One Piece ( Lots of villains could do without their devil fruit )

Worm ( lots of awsome powers at the hand of shitty people )

I wanted suggestions from you guys of places to go.

Places with a great variety of cool powers and stuff

Eu preciso de ajuda.

Eu tenho o problema de destruir coisas em momentos de frustração. Mais especificamente, eu destruo as folhas de caderno nas quais estou fazendo meus treinos de prova e redação. Não é uma raiva e frustração normais. Não é um sentimento que se acumula na superfície da mente de forma perceptível e depois explode.(esses dá pra perceber e ai tentar desarmar a bomba). Não... ela se acumula abaixo da linha da percepção. Então, posso achar que estou bem, estar respondendo às questões e escrevendo a redação... e aí, de repente, ataco a folha. Risco toda, às vezes até a rasgo.

Não é como se eu não tivesse ideia do porquê de isso acontecer. Eu tenho uma ideia:

1. Tenho certos "traumas" em relação a provas e redação. Toda vez que não passo em um concurso público (a melhor forma de conseguir um emprego estável aqui no Brasil), estou, essencialmente, perdendo uma oportunidade de emprego pela qual estive estudando por meses. Isso significa que, novamente, eu fracassei e não poderei ter um emprego para ajudar meus pais e realmente me considerar um adulto... Com o tempo, esse fracasso repetido pode criar uma carga emocional bem pesada, então meu cérebro não reage bem a treinar para a coisa que ele passou a entender como uma das grandes fontes de sofrimento da minha vida — apesar de ser a minha única chance de passar para a próxima fase, me tornar um adulto e ajudar minha família. A psicologia é complexa.

2. Eu sou autista, então a minha capacidade de processar e lidar com as minhas emoções, bem como o jeito que meu cérebro funciona, pode, às vezes, resultar em comportamentos menos que funcionais. Sou considerado uma pessoa altamente funcional, mas também tenho — desde a infância — reações ruins a certos tipos de situações. Situações de fracasso acadêmico, como ir mal em provas, eram algo que me fazia chorar (durante a própria prova) até os 12 anos. Já conheceu uma criança de 12 anos neurotípica que chora durante uma prova? Claro que melhorei com o tempo. Passei na universidade e até na prova da Ordem dos Advogados. Mas, mesmo assim, a verdade é que já existe algo sobre esse tipo de situação que belisca as partes mais sensíveis do meu cérebro e, com o tempo e uma quantidade significativa de fracassos impactantes para minha vida... Sei lá.

Independentemente de saber de onde isso vem, a questão é que agora tenho que superar esse obstáculo. Como eu disse, passar em provas de concurso público é a minha melhor chance de ter um emprego (o mesmo vale para grande parte dos brasileiros da minha idade e formação), e desenvolver um tipo de reação nervosa à simulação de prova e redação não é algo com que eu tenha tempo para lidar neste momento. Passar no concurso, sendo capaz de treinar regularmente, já é difícil o bastante (muito, muito difícil), e o meu emocional colocar ainda mais barreiras não é algo que eu possa aceitar.

Queria conselhos, qualquer coisa que vocês consigam pensar e me dizer que tenha alguma chance de ajudar.

Até agora, a minha melhor esperança é um novo remédio recomendado para pessoas com TOC, entre outras condições, que supostamente "atua modulando neurotransmissores como a dopamina e a serotonina no cérebro". O psicólogo que o recomendou diz que já foi muito efetivo em outros pacientes autistas com estereotipias disfuncionais e autoagressão ( a esqueci de mencionar que as vezes além de atacar a folha eu começo a me bater também ).

Vou ouvir a opinião do meu psiquiatra de confiança e, se ele concordar, vou tentar, mas... Eu me sinto mal se pelo menos não tentar algo por mim mesmo também. Algo para vencer esse problema causado pela minha própria mente.

Have you guys ever thought, "Damn, I want to write about a jumper going to this world!"?

But then you later thought, "Okay, but this can't be a beginning world. I want to go to this world as a somewhat experienced jumper with lots of tricks under my belt and plenty of stories to tell when the locals ask. I want at least two different types of magic, one type of supertech, three cool weapons, etc. It will be awesome."

But then you realize... you don't actually have the willpower to write all the jumps leading up to the one you want.

So, here is a new idea I am excited about: "The Retroactive Chain"

Basically, you write a jump—let's say it's your ninth jump. You give yourself all the powers and companions you feel like having. Since it's told from a third-person perspective, it won't reveal too much. Any reveals about the past will only come straight from the mouth of the jumper or their companions.

I thought of this after starting five different chains and sort of losing interest before getting to that one specific jump I was super excited about.

Can anyone relate?

Has anyone else always wanted to write a story about a jumper who has a dozen powers from different places, but you just can't keep writing long enough to have a single character go to a dozen worlds and live a dozen different adventures?

Have you ever wanted to go to a jump like Marvel, DC, Warhammer, Worm, or SCP... but just never did? Mostly because they are the kind of jumps you never pick as your first destination (since it makes you too powerful too fast, and that ruins the fun), so you always put them further down the chain and never actually get that far.

Oh, and the "retroactive" part is not for nothing.

Another benefit of the mystery created by the writing of this jump is boosting my motivation to write at least parts of the jumps that preceded it.

As one geeks out about how cool that particular moment was where the jumper pulled the Chains of Heaven out of a mech suit, motivation builds in the brain to write that specific previous jump where the jumper stole said chains from Gilgamesh, and so on.

The Guilt of writting fanfiction

So... How do you guys justify it to yourself's?

Through most of my life I was told by my parents that I have to do something with all this creativity and artistic intelligence I got. Dad even Offered to help me build a Youtube Channel for myself ( he has his own for his business so he knows his stuff)

And What I have to hold myself from telling him is that all the things they say I should do would take WAY to much work and time to actually do it right. Its not like I do not want to - somewhat - write my own book or have a Youtube Channel, I just ... am not up to the challenge. At least not in this period of my life.

But enough context, lets go to the part about fanfiction.

Well... I feel guilty about writting it.

Because, If I am taking part of my day to do something creative, why not do something creative that is also at least somewhat close to "Productive". A voice in my head says "If you want to write a book one day - If you really want to - why are you not using this 30 minutes you are using for this fanfiction into actually writting original stuff. Maybe you are not as tired and as out of time as you say you are."

In the past I justified to myself as "everyone deserves some no compromise fun. Gabriel plays videogames and you would not reprimend him for it, why reprimend yourself for fanfiction, which is defntely more productive than videogames."

But that line of thinking does not work anymore, because I realized how much actual creative energy I am "Burning" with fanfiction and... I don't know.

Part of me wants to do original stuff.

Part of me just wants to relax and do some low effort fanfics.

and a lot of me feels guilty on how I spend my time and energy.

I wanted advice If anyone has it

Hey guys, I’m looking for some advice. Specifically, how do I succeed in establishing a good habit and dropping a bad one when I’ve failed many times before and no longer believe in myself?

The habits I’m talking about aren’t complicated or abnormal. They are the 'good old' basics: sleeping on time, meditating every day after waking up, and not spending every free moment consuming fiction on the internet. It's stuff I think most of you are pretty familiar with… and yet, it hasn’t worked for me.

I try to solidify these habits in my life, but they just won’t stick. The part of me that resists change keeps winning. I know I probably won't hear anything new by posting this here, but I felt like I had to try because I’m out of ideas