I just want my uterus out, a fucking hysterectomy.
I hate my fucking body. I have endometriosis and the pills I was taking to help are starting to lose effectiveness, but I’m struggling to get in contact with the doctor who prescribed them since it was through college’s healthcare team who is closed for the summer. I feel bloated, in pain, and like shit. I either have to have a surgery in my hometown or at college with a four week recovery period in order to get a chance of helping, but that alone is taking forever to do. I wake up, I’m cramping, I go to sleep, I’m cramping worse. I can’t even get off to help with the pain because that makes the pain 10 times worth. A laparoscopic surgery isn’t even guaranteed to help, and if it does the pain could come back within as short a time as a year. A hysterectomy wouldn’t be a cure, but apparently it can really help.
It’s not even like I want kids. My genes are something that should be passed down, by 16 I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, by 18 another chronic illness, I get dizzy standing up or standing too long, i don’t need a kid and if I, one day, for some reason, decide I want one, I can adopt! I want this stupid fucking organ out of me. At least then maybe I can get some relief.