u/Ivl231889

The time's come, tomorrow is my first day at collage. And I don't know how imma manage, my sleep schedule is shit, like genuinely waking up till 11 am. And although I used to managed to do all my homework by Wednesday. This past semester I've been turning all assignments in till the last minute. Once I was very organized, I had time to meditate in the mornings and at night. I used to draw, and write, I wrote a lot. I used to submit poems to contests. In a way, I believe I kept myself busy, at the time I was battling insane depression and was one of the reasons for online school. However in that first year, I was working with a bunch of professionals my parents had hired for me. To make me 'normal' again. I had a really great therapist who set up my routine. And many teachers, for sports and arts. I didn't take the classes every day, but they helped me stay on track. When I finally got out of 'it'. I stopped seeing my therapist, and thought I'd do well on my own. And I guess I do, like I'm not depressed anymore, I look forward to living and all of that stuff. But I'm not super into a routine anymore, I wanted to 'chill'. But somehow I don't know..... I got too soft on myself and messed up. I still have very good grades but my management is awful. I do nothing all week, and in the weekends I rush to do my homework. And I'm like: I can write until I finish ALL my homework, and I never finish before Friday, therefore I never write. And that's the vicious cycle I'm in, I don't know how my days' been slipping away. But anyway, the torment's over. Today I finished all homework and exams. But tomorrow I'm starting fresh to College, how do I no mess this up? I want this next years to be mine, and have school be like a hobby. I enrolled in a - you could say- easy major. And have like 4 subjects, I got rid of English since I got 100 in the collocation exam, But still, I know I can limit school to the 3 daily hours I got to attend. The problem is how? I've done it before in middle school, well I know the comparison is not the best. But I'm willing to go to classes to improve my concentration and speed at doing the assignments. But I do need advice, on how to get back on track with my hobbies, I don't know why I've been in such a slump this past few months. I can'r bring myself to write or draw. It's like I'm a whole new person. So that's what I care about, improving and actually finishing the projects I have in mind. I KNOW, this all comes in hand with having a better sleep schedule and everything else. It's just, that I want this new routine to last. I don't want to try it for one week and give up the next. I know I can maintain I just need a little guidance.

Say, they genuinely hate you, and every time they go see their partners the family is there. And the partner doesn't stand up for them. Why do they choose to stay, wouldn't it be better to get a boyfriend/husband whose family actually likes them?

Is a man really worth the humiliation? What is the process-thought behind making that decision, do they believe they are can stand up to the family? But even so, why stay?

Oigan en redes sociales he visto, que se andan organizando para ir este domingo al Ángel de la Independencia para festejar, como tipo despedida de la selección. Pero no se si vaya mucha gente, y he visto dos horarios, dicen unos que al mediodía y otros dicen que a las 5pm. Cuál es el correcto?

If anything were possible, if you could travel to whatever country in milliseconds, and have an unlimited budget. What would your perfect day look like?

So I could pretty much eat anything when I first got my brackets on. For starters my dentist only did the upper half, said I needed to wait for it to be more room for the down half.

So today was finally the day, and it's impacted my ability to eat a lot. I know it gets better, but here's the thing.....

I'm afraid I won't be able to be as reckless with my food choices anymore, since my braces are ceramic, and now that I have both sides done. I can already feel much more pressure on them. So even if I could eat more like before. I don't wanna risk it. I was guessing maybe salads could be a strong choice for my daily diet? With grilled chicken or steak, but idk. What do you guys eat? Gimme ideas.

RIP my cheese chips 😞

The Iron Lady

My mother was made of steel.
Firm, plate, cold steel. 
When I was a child my skin flaked off silver ridges.
All over my arms, hands and legs.

But what could I do with so much love,
Had I been gold 
No sawing would I have had to endure.
So then, 
after, 
I was polished. 

Tarnished, beautiful polish,
and such baleful warmth, 
baleful sun.

Then my skin would melt,
not so lovely steel, 
clinging on to my dearest loves.

Pick, 
such they would,
till’ their skin grew red, 
with rash. 

But what could I make of so much love,
not vases,
not keys,
This was bulwark steel. 

So this is embarrasing and also confusing? Today was mh first time drinking alcohol. I had HALF a margarita. And now that I’ve gone to bed I just felt the urge to let a gas out. And quite literally shat myself. Over HALF A MARGARITA!