This is probably some algorithm BS but now when I try to search a sub for a specific term I get all kinds of random results which don't actually include the term I searched for, even though I know it appears regularly in the sub. Is there any way to turn off whatever is going on and just make it return the results I actually asked for?
I'm about to turn 40, I'm married, I've never been assaulted so far as I know, and I still feel so confused about my sexuality. I vacillate between thinking I'm straight but mostly asexual (my few crushes and Noticing of bodies have been with men), to wondering if I'm actually a repressed lesbian, but then when I mentally explore that route it doesn't really appeal either, to thinking that all that is just a way my brain is trying to protect me from getting hurt. I can admire my husband's looks and enjoy intimacy with him emotionally (he knows this) but I think I've ever felt bodily sexual arousal, towards him or anyone else outside of my own head (and when I imagine things I am never in the fantasy). I've never felt a spark from anyone's touch. And yet I doubt if I'm truly asexual because I feel the lack and grieve it. And yet I have no idea what's wrong or what would help or if anything can even be done. I don't know whether to keep niggling at it in the hope of some kind of insight or whether to try to make peace with this just being how I am.
Any thoughts or sharing of experience would be very welcome!
I'm sitting in the garden trying to work and instead find myself once again pondering what to do about this horror of an end of house. I've been trying to figure it out for 7 years and I give up. I don't really want to mess with the extension due to cost and the fact that it would mess up all the work we've done inside but surely there must be a way to get it looking better than this? I suppose we could just paint it white but being north-facing I think it would go manky again fast. So far ideas are some kind of cladding, some kind of mural, or just growing Boston ivy over it. CasualUK, lend me your wisdom! What would you do?
Non-smoker, non-drinker, moderately actively lifestyle, moderately healthy diet. No family history of illness or bad periods so far as I know. I'm not on any hormonal or permanent contraceptives and never have been.
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Since I started them my periods have been pretty text book, more or less regular every four weeks, two days of heavy but not excessive flow followed by three days of petering out, some tiredness, cramps and emotional sensitivity but nothing that can't be easily managed.
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For the past couple of years, though, every other period has been increasingly worse, not so much with cramping but full body aches, sometimes nausea, exhaustion, horrible brain fog and deeply depressive moods, like emotionally I feel like someone has actually died or something. It has now got to the point where I am essentially completely non-functional for several days every eight weeks. It honestly feels more like the flu than anything else. Fortunately I work for myself so I can schedule around it but even so, it is extremely annoying. The periods in between are straightforward as they used to be. Is this a normal part of aging or should I be seeing someone about it?
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Of the Great and Blue varieties. Historically we've had robins, blackbirds, pigeons, magpies and the occasional jay and woodpecker, but hardly any tits. This year though they are everywhere! Is it a good year for them or something?
I'm experiencing an upset stomach at the moment and my body wants to tremor intensely. I can stop it but it feels really bad and when I allow it I feel less sick. This is definitely tremoring, not shivering, moving up and down through different sections of the body and including the hip and shoulder twists and arches that often appear in my sessions. It might be worth noting that I have CPTSD and have been slooooowly thawing with TRE but still a long way to go, and I have considerable 'issues' around stomach-based illnesses, to the point where I would probably be considered mildly emetophobic.
Any thoughts on what might be going on here would be much appreciated!
Seriously I can't believe how much water I need to drink when I'm going through a period of heavy processing, multiple glasses before breakfast even. It's not a magic cure and the work still needs to be done but drinking enough makes a huge difference in the level of brain fog, lethargy and headaches I experience.