u/Jollyho94

After the Outkast "ms jackson" performance with the loud ass DJ trying to over rap doja and tripping her up making her look like she didnt know the lyrics. NOW THIS making the background choir sound higher over her own voice its clear as day that they only ask her to come out to do these black centered performances to make her look BAD (im a black woman I clocked it immediately they want her to look like she's lost and doesn't know what shes singing). They didnt do that to SZA and doechii for a reason they're favorites in the black community and they see doja as some outsider even tho she raps and sings better than them. I even saw comments about her performance saying "isnt she white she doesnt know lauryn hill" 🙄. I absolutely hate how they downplay dojas blackness because her black father wasnt in her life and I wish doechii would be more buddy buddy with doja since doechii literally blew up after OPENING FOR DOJA DURING THE SCARLET TOUR!. Anyways fuck bet and these award shows doja should decline to do these types of performances in the future and only perform when they ask for to sing her own songs they play in her face too much 🫠🤦🏽‍♀️

I know everyone has been shitting on VIE ever since it came out last year because people claim “ the 80s sound is outdated and we needed more rap from her “ . A lot of the fans expected more rapping like scarlet after but instead we got the r&b pop retro album like VIE. I honestly feel like if vie came after planet her it would’ve have been received way better by the fandom and the general public. None of the songs on VIE are horrible they’re just way different than scarlet and if she would’ve waited to have her scarlet album/era after Vie. I highly think VIE would’ve been seen as a classic and Scarlet seeming as the “ odd flop project “. I love both albums equally they’re both my favorites from her but I think Doja did them out of order. After planet her an album like VIE would’ve gotten more respect and fit in anyone else think so ?!

( This is kind of a part 2 of my last post) My boyfriend that i’ve been with since last summer was the provider, emotionally available, generous with his money the “perfect man” I was looking for until we moved into together in december.  He bought me a house because at the time I wanted to have kids. Now my feelings about kids have changed and he knows that I don’t want kids anymore due to my health issues( fibromyalgia, bipolar, panic disorder and endometriosis ) but still doesn’t want to let me go. When we went on vacation months ago he was mad at me for getting sick on vacation and calling my mom and got pissed because he thought “I was trying to make him look bad and make myself look like a victim”. He also got mad at me for starting my period during sex one day and said “I was teasing him and ruined his trust , I should know my body better” despite my period coming on early. My mental health & physical health is suffering I told him this and he still booked a trip to go to the Bahamas for my birthday in July but at this point I don’t feel safe with him. He’s still blaming me for being “Dishonest about my health issues and ruining our vacation earlier this year “ and telling me I wouldn’t do shit else fun for my birthday without him. I asked him “if I got sick on vacation to the Bahamas this time what would you do?” He said “ of course I’ll take you to an ER but id like you to know your body well enough so no bad surprises come up if you feel like shit tell me the moment you do or i’ll be pissed off” then ended the call saying “ stop worrying we’ll be just fine in the Bahamas".. I find it odd and controlling that he wants me to predict how sick I might be so I won’t “piss him off’ on my birthday vacation . I can’t lie about how sad I am that I’m about to be 32 and will have to move back in with my parents and possibly have a shitty birthday without a beach vacation I’m so depressed I have no friends anymore and my boyfriend was the only thing in my life making me feel like a “ real adult with a normal life”. I hate that I still love him and will miss him but is this still NOT WORTH GOING??