
Who wants a silly ork pirat ship?
WIP Still many work to do, many details and suff but i'll like to have some advice on the design, I'll like to hear your opinions of it!

WIP Still many work to do, many details and suff but i'll like to have some advice on the design, I'll like to hear your opinions of it!
I wonder if it's just me, I am a tall guy with long hair and beard. For some reason i get more hits from boys than girls even if i'm 99% Hetero, (Yes i've tried with guys and i dont like them) I know there's lots of LGTB+ between neurodivergents even more than between typicals. So i wonder if the reason is the way we act or we comprehend love and affection.
But anyway, there's something in my neurodivergency that makes me attractive to other guys or it's just any other fact not related to my condition like maybe my way to dress or any other reason.
Does anybody there have the same iusses? I'll love to know your experience if you experienced something similar
It's been years of trying fo find a partner but everytime i found someone i may considerer they just run away because i demmand to spend time and talk with them, wich seems to not be a desirable characteristic nowdays. After years of this i think i'm starting to lose my mind and starting to notice few synthoms of delirium, i'm more erratic and less able to hold myself.
Overthinking and obsession tendencies are orbiting me, and my depression is totting my brain. Everyday it passes without someone i could give my affect and care i am less able to find it.
No, i have jo friends and family to count of and satify not even partially my social and affective needs.
May be my AuDHD who's talking but i think this problem is more related to my depression than anything else, wanna know how to break the circle.
I've tried to build new friends, or just trying to be part of a community, but i do not fit anywhere and people do not adress me cuz i am always terribly depressed and unable to find strengh to fake a good attitude.
Help.
One of the few times i can enjoy having a broken soul, it can't be just endless suffering, right?
So it's been almost a year since i started playing, i was gifted with the tremolo hohner (at the top) wich i do really enjoy playing and i feel very confortable with the "arch" design but it's and old model and years start to be noticed on the sound. Later on a friend of mine gifted me another hohner blues harp (middle) and it sounds veeeeery nice and smooth, but i feel the holes are too small for playing melodies, so i use it just to improv blues. And after that i heard how the low F susuki pure harp sounded so i wanted to buy one and turns out the model is discontinued so i buyed the rocket hohner in low F (bottom) that one sounds great but it feels cheap for some reason, the sound is not as good as the other ones and the plastic is not my taste, i preffer metal or whood. The holes besides that are bigger and i can play melodies easier but in low F key, so it's not what i was looking for.
I'll ask you, ¿For playing melodies wich kind of harmònica should i buy? Feel like they are too little and might be looking for bigger models (i am 2m tall). And i was thinking into buying a better quality one, but i have no idea and it's hard to find examples on youtube about how they sound.
Besides that, it crossed my mind to buy a trémolo in low F, but looking for models non of them catched my interest enough and can't find how they actually sound before buying them.
I know i am just one year into this, but i don't mean to spend money on some mid quality instrument, something between 150 or 200€ is a nice sweet spot for me.
I am looking for a melody one, a blues in low F one, and a trémolo one to just have fun with it.
So if you have any idea on wich model taking in consideration my preferences should i take a look it will be highly appreciated.
So a friend of mine blamed me becasue he did not respect my boundries "for my own good" and when i got a crisis because of it this happened
"-Being autistic is not an excuse" Is this just the most frustrating thing someone with 0 empathy can say?
First ever physical piece, it represents my obsesive aggresive toughs. I know it's subtile, but i love how it ended looking.