Feel like a single parent growing to resent my LO

I had a rough time after giving birth. I had a C-section and despite that was the only one getting up all night, every night the whole newborn phase. I slept on the couch with the bassinet next to me and my husband slept in the bedroom with the door closed. LO slept for about 45-90 minutes at a time and I was exclusively pumping so I got maybe 3-4 hours of sleep. When I was at the point of nearly passing out and it was unsafe he would get LO. I think we both had some PPD going on. Things got better for awhile but recently it’s gotten worse again. I have some things I feel strongly about sure to safety or development like not letting LO sleep in his car seat unless w are in the car and he falls asleep or not having him in his bouncer for very long ( you need to eat or pee or need a break sure but not for long periods of time). My husband thinks those things are fine. We got into an argument about it today when he put him in his car seat without any intention of going anywhere so baby would sleep. I told him it wasn’t safe and he said that “everyone” says he can sleep in his car seat. I tried to explain again why it wasn’t safe and he said that I think I know better than everyone. At this point I was frustrated and said not everyone but more than him since I actually research things. To this he said fine you just raise him then and went to pout in the bedroom for hours. Now I am okay taking care of LO alone but it is very difficult when I have to pump and bottle feed him so when we are both home I feel it’s justified to split the responsibility. Whenever I say any thing about struggling he says “you wanted this”. I love my husband or I did but I feel like I am doing this alone most of the time.

I change his diaper 90% of the time, I feed him most of the time, I pump 6 times a day (including middle of the night), clean all the bottles, and cook; we split laundry, general house cleaning, and he mows and cleans dog poop. He really does love our son but it’s like all he does is complain or sit on his phone (this is another issue since I don’t want us to be on the phone all the time in front of LO and he is always on his phone or watching TV). I don’t know if it’s PPD for him or what. I don’t know what the purpose of this p post is just feeling alone and I’m starting to resent my LO (because of the change in my husband) and my husband ( for his attitude and how he’s making me resent my LO).

EDIT; I realized I didn’t specify, LO is almost 4 months. We are both off for the summer since we are in education. He had 6 weeks of paid parental leave through work and chose not the take it (it was his first year at this job) and that’s why he said he could get up at night with LO at night. Now LO sleeps through the night so I get up ti pump and he sleeps.

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u/Latest-moment — 4 hours ago

Purées before 4 months?

My LO is 16 weeks, turns 4 months in 10 days. We had to go to the pediatrician today for an unrelated issue and I mentioned how much he is drinking (35-40 ounces a day) and we spoke about starting purées and rice cereal. He said we could start them now, with the caveat of not adding rice cereal to every bottle due to constipation concerns. He said we can do purées from 4-6 months and make sure to introduce all major allergens during 6-9 months. We had been thinking BLW but my understanding is that means no purées? I don’t want to start too early but he is always hungry (his weight gain is good) and think the rice cereal and purées might help him stay a bit fuller. I also want to promote proper facial development (chewing), nutrition (still breastmilk just adding the purées), and learning a variety of flavors.

Starting at 16 weeks seems early based on what I have read, but there are so many contradictory opinions. I would love any advice from those who started purées this early. Anyone who did purées early and then moved to a variety of solids? FTM just trying to do my best! Thank you!

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u/Latest-moment — 3 days ago

Purées before 4 months?

My LO is 16 weeks, turns 4 months in 10 days. We had to go to the pediatrician today for an unrelated issue and I mentioned how much he is drinking (35-40 ounces a day) and we spoke about starting purées and rice cereal. He said we could start them now, with the caveat of not adding rice cereal to every bottle due to constipation concerns. He said we can do purées from 4-6 months and make sure to introduce all major allergens during 6-9 months. We had been thinking BLW but my understanding is that means no purées? I don’t want to start too early but he is always hungry (his weight gain is good) and think the rice cereal and purées might help him stay a bit fuller. I also want to promote proper facial development (chewing), nutrition (still breastmilk just adding the purées), and learning a variety of flavors.

Starting at 16 weeks seems early based on what I have read, but there are so many contradictory opinions. I would love any research or advice from those who started purées this early. Anyone who did purées early and then moved to a variety of solids? FTM just trying to do my best! Thank you!

EDIT: it’s been brought up a couple times that you shouldn’t put anything in a bottle. Totally know that! I think that the wording was slightly off. I think he was more saying that it shouldn’t be given every meal not specifically put in the bottle.

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u/Latest-moment — 3 days ago

Eufy S2 Pro

I am 14/15 weeks ppd so supply has regulated ( I think).

Is the S2 worth it? I have the S1 Pro and I love it, I love the heating feature I do find it pinched sometimes since it’s hard to line up my nipple (I’m bigger chested DD before pregnancy and at least 2 sizes bigger now). I also have found it works better for me than my Spectra BUT I do have to still hand express after pumping to get “empty”. I am thinking the massage feature will help with this. I also still pump in the MOTN, and think the light to help guide your nipple would be nice. Has anyone tried the S2 and found the massage to help?

It’s on sale for prime day for $379 (normally $449) and I can use my registers completion discount on the sale price making it $322. For that price I am really considering it.

I would lose any thoughts or reviews people have!

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u/Latest-moment — 12 days ago

Supply drop help?!

I am 3 months ppd and been EP since about been 3, after failure to thrive and triple feeding. I have worked hard to get my supply up and am consistently making barley enough for my LO. I know my LO is a chunk and for many I would have an oversupply and I am very grateful I can give as much milk as I can. I make about 36-38 ounces in a day and LO eats that all and sometimes need an extra bottle of formula. I got Mastitis a few weeks ago and had to take antibiotics. Ever since I have noticed my pumps have been less consistent and I have had to do 2 power pumps a day to keep the same output. The last few days even with my power pumps my supply has been slightly less. Prior to the mastitis I was hoping to drop my MOTN pump but obviously I cannot do that of my supply is dropping. I really don’t want to keep doing 2 power pumps a day but i am worried about this supply drop.

Before the drop my 3 am or 6 am would be my largest pump with about 7-9 ounces combined. Based on my understanding of magic number I should be 5 pumps to maintain and 6-8 to increase.

I have been pumping at 3, 6(power pump), 9am, 12, 3, 6, 9 (power pump). I have tried 3, 6(power pump), 9am, 1, 5, 9 (power pump) to allow more time to see if that has better output and it’s the same. I have to pump for 30 minutes each time and after I am done I hand express until no more milk easily flows. I have longer stretches at night to allow for more sleep. I drink a lot of water, I also drink body aromur, I have oatmeal everyday for breakfast.

Has anyone experienced something like this? Any suggestions?

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u/Latest-moment — 18 days ago

How much should I be pumping?

I’ll be 12 weeks PPD on Thursday, pumping has not been an easy journey for me so far. About a month ago I switched from the Spectra to the Eufy S1 pro and that made a lot of difference. For the first time pumping was not extremely painful. Prior to that I was nearly in tears every single time I had to pump making it difficult to regularly pump.

I had been doing every three hours and then switched to every four when I return to work, I’m a teacher so we’re out for the summer so I was want to go m back to every three recently. In order to get enough for my LO I have to pump for about 30 minutes, I also have been doing one power pump per day during my last pump before I go to sleep. I had been pumping 2 MOTN pumps but my LO started sleeping through the night, about 2 to 3 weeks ago which makes it incredibly hard to get up and pump.

My current schedule is six, nine, one, five, nine, and one in the middle of the night around 2-4 AM I aim for three but it doesn’t always happen at that time sometimes it’s a bit later. This allows me to get a chunk of sleep. My biggest pump is this MOTN at about 8 ounces total. This adds up to about three hours total of pumping each day, which seems high to me. I found I can’t do less than 30 minutes even at 30 minutes sometimes milk is still flowing so I should probably go longer, and I don’t know if I can have more time between pumps. At no point have I ever felt engorged even when my milk first came in, I never get a super hard breasts, in general they feel the same before and after pumping.

My question is at 12 weeks has my supply regulated enough that I can do every four hours? Would I be able to drop the middle of the night pump? Based on magic number I should do 5 to maintain and 6 to 8 to increase. I don’t see it increasing despite doing 6 and don’t want to drop one if it’s going to go down.

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u/Latest-moment — 1 month ago

How do you know your breast are “empty”

I don’t know if this is the right flair.

Context I am 11 weeks ppd and have been ep for most of the time. I had been using the spectra but it caused a lot of pain despite lubrication, different flange sizes, inserts, heat, different settings basically everything. About a month ago I got he Eufy S1 pro and have found it is so much better pain wise. I have made this my primary pump and overall am happy with it.

I don’t know what people mean when they say to make sure you’ve emptied your boob to help with supply. Mine feel the same before and after pumping no matter how much I get. I normally pull every 3-4 hours and get 4 ounces total, if I skip a MOTN pump it can be higher as much as 7-8 ounces total but even then my breast just feel a bit fuller/heavier not like rock hard as I have heard others describe. I currently pump for 30 minutes. I guess I don’t understand how you know you’re empty? With the spectra I could watch it and see nothing else coming out but even after 20-30 minutes there woud still be a bit. With the Eufy I cannot see.

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u/Latest-moment — 1 month ago

Supply Question

I don’t know if I used the right flair for this.

I’m 10 weeks postpartum and have been exclusive pumping since about week 2. Since the start, it’s been incredibly painful, like to the point of tears. I’ve tried different flange size. I’ve tried different pumps (Spectra and MyaJoy). Ive tried pumping sprays. I’ve tried heating and icing. I’ve tried basically everything possible. On top of that it’s been while taking care of LO with my husband at work.

Recently I decided to try one final type of pump before looking at quitting and got the Eufy S1 Pro. Fortunately this has been amazing! It pinches a bit at times but no pain! Yay! The downfall is my supply has gone down a bit. Originally with the Spectra I was pumping every 4 hours, I couldn’t do it any more often due to the pain. With the wearable I kept the same 4 hours at first and found my supply was doing well! Recently however, I found it has been decreasing a bit so I switched to every 3 hours.

I know wearables aren’t the best for your primary pump but it’s the only way I can pump without pain. My concern is that my supply is going to continue to decrease if I use the wearables. I don’t know the point of this post, I guess just to vent. I know there aren’t really any good solutions.

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u/Latest-moment — 1 month ago

MOTN question

I am 9 weeks ppd and I’ve been exclusively pumping since about week two. I had been doing every 2 to 3 hours but due to really bad nipple pain, I had to stretch it to four. After I started stretching to four hours between each pump I actually saw an increase in my supply (yay) and I’ve been doing well, I used to be making less than he ate and now I sometimes have a small surplus.

Recently LO has been sleeping longer stretches overnight sometimes as long as six or seven hours (sadly not every night but at least 1-2 times a week). Right now I’m still setting alarms to wake up and pump every four hours (my schedule is 10pm around when he goes to sleep, 2 am, 6am). My question is do I need to continue to set these alarms and wake up to pump even when LO is sleeping longer? Would it hurt my supply if I wait until he wakes up and just pump after feeding him? I just barely started consistently making enough with a little excess so I really don’t wanna have my supply drop.

As a note when I look at magic number, it says to maintain I need 5 pumps per day. I consistently pump 4 1/2 to 5 ounces total each session and LO is a hungry boy who drinks about 30-37 ounces a day. I pump 6 am, 10 am, 2 pm, 6pm, 10pm, 2 am and with 6 I see my supply steady not increasing or decreasing.

Thank you!

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u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago

Why is my milk separating like this?

Basically exactly what the title says. I’ve noticed that more recently my milk is separating. I have a more watery? looking part at the bottom. I have always had more of the “cream” on the top/sides than the body of the milk but this is more clear part is new. Why?

u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago

Boston Crème (Bismarck) Donut

My husband has recently become obsessed with finding a Boston creme donut also called a Bismarck. Any ideas on where to find the best Boston creme donut? Ideally in the Salt Lake Area but willing to travel to surrounding areas too! Thanks in advance!!

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u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago

My LO is 7 weeks and has absolutely rancid breath. He has reflux and we have been working with the pediatrician to help with that and have found some success with famotidine (Pepcid) but he still spits a lot. The pediatrician recommended using a cotton swab (like the big ones) to wipe his mouth out once or twice a day to get the milk protien BUT even with that his breath is rancid. It’s just terrible. Anyone else dealt with their baby having terrible breath? Did you find something that helped? It’s just really bad.

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u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago

My LO is 7 weeks and has absolutely rancid breath. He has reflux and we have been working with the pediatrician to help with that and have found some success with famotidine (Pepcid) but he still spits a lot. The pediatrician recommended using a cotton swab (like the big ones) to wipe his mouth out once or twice a day to get the milk protien BUT even with that his breath is rancid. It’s just terrible. Anyone else dealt with their baby having terrible breath? Did you find something that helped? It’s just really bad.

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u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago

I’m 7 weeks PP and have been pumping basically the whole time. Feeding wasn’t working so here we are, even though it was never my plan. I have a fair amount of pain from pumping and have tried basically everything to no avail. I’ve also been struggling with some postpartum depression so my mental health has been a factor too.

I used to pump every 2.5 to 3 hours but have started pushing it to 4 and that extra time has helped with both the pain and my mental health. I used to be a barely enougher but the last 2 weeks or so I’ve been pumping a few extra ounces a day and freezing them. My original goal was 6 months but with everything going on I’ve adjusted to 10 weeks. I want to get him through his first round of shots with breast milk, and if I can build a freezer stash, keep giving him some each day for as long as possible after I stop.

Here’s where it gets complicated. Baby has been sleeping longer at night and eating kind of erratically during the day, so my pumping schedule is off from his eating schedule. I have alarms set to pump at night but I’ve been sleeping through them a lot, which means I’m sometimes going 5 hours between pumps. When I pump every 4 hours my max has been about 6 ounces (as i finish pumping now after 5 hours I pumped 7 ounces), compared to my usual 3 to 3.5 at every 3 hours, so my output seems fine. Based on magic number math, pumping every 4 hours is enough sessions, but I’m only 7 weeks and not at the 3 month mark yet so I’m still a little concerned.

Will the 5 hour stretches start to impact my supply? Does anyone have suggestions for how to redo my schedule to make sure I’m maintaining? Currently I do 9, 1, 5, 9, 1, 5 and I sleep through and it’s like 3 I will pump at 3 and then again at 5 to keep my schedule.​​ thank you for any advice!!

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u/Latest-moment — 2 months ago