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I must be the ugliest man alive (25 ftm)

Like seriously look at how hideous my skin is. That sh*t is all over my face, neck, chest, back, shoulders, and arms. Strangers come up to me and comment on it sometimes. People tell me that I'm ugly. A doctor once cringed at the sight of my skin. I really hate myself and nobody will ever love me for looking like this.

EDIT: Before anyone suggests, it's a $100 copay to see a dermatologist, and I already tried an entire YEAR of Accutane when I was younger. I've looked like this for 10 years. So ugly.

u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 2 days ago

Is burnt paper hamster-safe?

So I just attempted my first DIY batch of hamster substrates using mulched TP and cardboard, but I accidentally burned it a bit. Does this make it no longer hamster-safe?

The paper is golden-brown to brown. Most of it is not burnt to black. It's quite crunchy though. This happened while it was baking in the oven to dry.

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 4 days ago

I'm so isolated that I'm considering detransitioning.

Being trans hasn't brought much joy to my life. Instead I'm estranged from my family and nobody wants to marry me (it's been a dream for me to be married since I was a little kid) and nobody wants to hire me full-time so I might end up homeless soon. I'm 25 years old and been trying so hard these last few years but I simply cannot find any of that "trans joy" people talk about. And now even if I detrans I'm gonna be a hairy ass ugly, pimple-faced woman so I'm scared my dating pool will be even lower. But I miss my family so much. And I really wanna be married. I want a family of my own. I want pets. I want community. I want joy. I've never found that being trans. In fact, in my attempts to connect with other trans people in my area, they actually traumatized me. Trans people in my experience are just as scary as everybody else in this world. I just wanna marry and be loved and taken care of somebody so I can finally feel safe. I feel so isolated and lonely, sitting here in my apartment bed-rotting and feeling like I'm in solitary confinement. And when I go out and try to meet people, I don't know how to connect with them and I feel even more alone. And if I do make a connection it's only temporary because everybody leaves me at some point. That's why I want so badly to be married, to have somebody who won't leave me and who will love and take care of me. People say in dating that clinginess is a turn-off but it'd actually be a huge turn-on for me. I obsess over people so much and I wish somebody would love me that way back. I just wanna be loved. I'm so tired of being alone. Maybe if I detransition, I could talk to my family again, and maybe they'll help me find a nice Christian man who wants to help me detransition and love me forever.

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 4 days ago

Nobody loves me and I want to die.

My ex doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't want me back no matter how hard I try. I'm estranged from most of my family except for my sibling, who barely wants anything to do with me and is moving across seas to another country. My bed is so cold. I'm so tired of this feeling. I've been feeling this hurt since I was about 12 years old and it doesn't budge even with therapy and medicine. I just want to buy a gun and shoot myself. I'm so depressed and I just want to give up.

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 21 days ago

Planning on my first hamster. Thoughts on my shopping cart?

I wanna know what I'm missing and if I need more/less of anything. For context I want a roborovski dwarf hamster!

u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 24 days ago

25 y/o ftm looking for older 30-50

Posting again because I got nothing yet.

I live in Central Texas and want to be with someone who lives close because I can't do long-distance. I'm searching for an older queer man who will support and adore me. I'm a very dedicated and caring man.

I'm a transgender man who's a few months shy of being 2 years of testosterone. I'm trying to afford top surgery. I have no current plans for bottom surgery.

I am white with dirty blonde hair and blue eyes. Willing to send a face pic. I do have acne- it's been there for 10 years and is treatment resistant even to Accutane. Otherwise I'm told I'm very handsome. I'm getting quite hairy and trying to grow some facial hair. I'm short and a bit chubby. I usually dress casual and punk.

I'm a student and aspiring librarian who loves to read and write. I've been published before, and I'm working on 2 books to self-publish later. I also like film and digital photography as well as multimedia art. I collect physical media and love movies from 1980's-2000's. I recently got into Postcrossing and it brings me joy. And I play Animal Crossing: New Horizons. I'm creative, silly, energetic, and a bit eccentric. If you wanna date the weird boy, then I'm perfect for you.

My primary love language is physical touch. I love nights in cuddling or having sex. I'm very kinky and subby. My favorite kinks are pet play, DDlb and CNC. I love being restrained during sex (with consent ofc). Sweet, affectionate vanilla sex is amazing, too. My other top 3 love languages are quality time and words of affirmation.

I'm politically on the extreme left and I'm very anti-capitalist. I'm only interested in dating someone with similar political views to mine.

I want a lifelong monogamous partner, preferably marriage someday. I want a man I can come home to. I want full, open, honest communication with each other. I want to share our lives together and care for each other.

If interested, send a message or reply. I'm willing to show my face if you seem like a good fit. Please only reach out if you're in Central Texas.

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 28 days ago

25 y/o looking for older 30-50

I live in Central Texas and want to be with someone who lives close because I can't do long-distance. I'm searching for an older queer man who will support and adore me. I'm a very dedicated and caring man. I'm anxiously attached, so I can be a bit clingy and need lots of attention.

I'm a transgender man who's a few months shy of being 2 years of testosterone. I'm trying to afford top surgery. I have no current plans for bottom surgery.

I am white with dirty blonde hair and blue eyes. Willing to send a face pic. I do have acne- it's been there for 10 years and is treatment resistant even to Accutane. Otherwise I'm told I'm very handsome. I'm getting quite hairy and trying to grow some facial hair. I'm short and a bit chubby. I usually dress casual and punk.

I'm a student and aspiring librarian who loves to read and write. I've been published before, and I'm working on 2 books to self-publish later. I also like film and digital photography as well as multimedia art. I collect physical media and love movies from 1980's-2000's. I recently got into Postcrossing and it brings me joy. And I play Animal Crossing: New Horizons. I'm creative, silly, energetic, and a bit eccentric. If you wanna date the weird boy, then I'm perfect for you.

My primary love language is physical touch. I love nights in cuddling or having sex. I'm very kinky and subby. My favorite kinks are pet play, DDlb and CNC. I love being restrained during sex (with consent ofc). Sweet, affectionate vanilla sex is amazing, too. My other top 3 love languages are quality time and words of affirmation.

I'm politically on the extreme left and I'm very anti-capitalist. I'm only interested in dating someone with similar political views to mine.

I want a lifelong monogamous partner, preferably marriage someday. I want a man I can come home to. I want full, open, honest communication with each other. I want to share our lives together and care for each other.

If interested, send a message or reply. I'm willing to show my face if you seem like a good fit. Please only reach out if you're in Central Texas.

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 29 days ago

How would you feel if you got this postcard?

I love horror and drawing this ghost guy and other creepy things. I also think it somewhat matches the theme of my zip code? But how would you feel if you actually got this in the mail? 😂

EDIT: I also have this ghost tattooed on my wrist.

EDIT 2: Thanks for your input! I went and changed it. I gave the ghost horns, a devil tail and an inverted pentagram to fit the 666 theme better. I added some flames around him and thickened the black border as a creative way to scribble out the text. Now he's still creepy, but without the triggering text. I wish I could add a photo here, but I hope you can imagine it!

u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 1 month ago

Finally got medicated for my ADHD. Before vs after.

I posted before but with old photos from closer to when I moved in. For the last 5 months, I've been unmedicated for ADHD while being a full-time student, working two part time jobs and struggling with depression. I finally got medicated and I pulled an all-nighter to clean my apartment. I'll be moving to a furnished student apartment (basically a glorified dorm) in a few months, so I went ahead and packed up donation boxes, and I plan to spend most of my time in my bedroom to get used to it before the move. What do you think? What assumptions can you make of me based on my place?

u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 1 month ago

I overlayed a video of myself singing pre-transition and 21 months on T, and I love it 😍

I'm not sure if this is allowed, but this video gave me a lot of euphoria and I wanted to share it with more people to see what they think!

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u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 2 months ago

Title is self-explanatory, but I bought from the overstock sale. In my experience I have to stretch the tape a lot otherwise it doesn't do anything for me. I have a low-set chest and not a lot of cleavage. My goal with tape is to either look as flat as possible underneath a shirt this summer. I know full flatness isn't possible for me even with a binder, but I feel like maybe I can do it better?

u/Legitimate_Hyena753 — 2 months ago