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I shouldn't have left.

The thought came to me long after I had already slammed the door behind me.

My feet kept moving, but my mind was still inside that house—still hearing every word, every accusation, every silence of my parents that hurt more than shouting ever could.

I didn't know where I was going.

I just wanted the noise inside my chest to stop.

oh dear allah end my Suffering.

the evening was so alive cars rolled past then an XUV 700 came in black colour i smiled. is is my dream car since ever. till yesterday i was dreaming that one day i will buy one. but today felt different.

i looked around saw a father dropping his child at home it reminded my childhood. even saw teenage girls Laughing and i even saw a mom buying Balloons for her child. it all reminded me of so many memories of mine.

The world was carrying on as if mine hadn't just fallen apart.

I wiped my eyes.

"Why am I crying?" I whispered to myself.

"It's just another fight... we'll all pretend it never happened tomorrow."

But it didn't feel like just another fight.

For the first time in my life...

...home had felt unfamiliar.

I walked faster.

My vision blurred again.

I was so busy arguing with memories that I never noticed the road.

A horn exploded through the air.

So loud.

So close.

My heart lurched.

i felt the ground Disappeared beneath me.

i felt nothing

Not darkness.

Just... silence.

I opened my eyes.

The sky.

Why am I looking at the sky?

It was beautiful.

Blue, with streaks of orange where the sun was disappearing.

i saw people around me i don't know any of them

they were shouting.

Someone was crying.

I couldn't understand the words.

I blinked.

"Did I fall?"

I placed my hands on the road and pushed myself up.

My body felt strangely light,

my ears rang.

Everything sounded distant, like I was underwater.

I stood.

Someone yelled,

"Don't move!"

Why?

I'm fine.

I took a step.

Another step. and another

then my legs didn't obeyed me.

i felt ground beneath me.

Faces were gathering around me.

Some were frightened.

Some looked as though they had seen a ghost.

Why are they looking at me like that?

I wanted to tell them not to worry.

someone told me to stay awake.

The strength disappeared without warning.

Stay awake.

I wanted to answer.

I really did.

But speaking suddenly felt harder than lifting a mountain.

The sky filled my vision again.

The clouds drifted so peacefully that it almost made me smile.

How strange.

The whole world was in chaos...

...yet the sky hadn't changed at all.

A quiet certainty settled into my heart.

For the first time since leaving home...

...I wasn't angry.

I wasn't afraid.

I wasn't thinking about the argument anymore.

I was thinking about Allah.

My lips trembled.

Every word came slowly, carried by a breath that felt smaller than the last.

"Ashhadu an la ilaha illallah..."

I paused, gathering what little strength remained.

"Wa ashhadu anna Muhammadan rasulullah."

The words left my lips gently, like they had been waiting there theall my life.

My eyes remained fixed on the sky.

It looked endless.

Beautiful.

Merciful.

...and surrendered everything I had been carrying.

I shouldn't have left.

The thought came to me long after I had already slammed the door behind me.

My feet kept moving, but my mind was still inside that house—still hearing every word, every accusation, every silence of my parents that hurt more than shouting ever could.

I didn't know where I was going.

I just wanted the noise inside my chest to stop.

oh dear allah end my Suffering.

the evening was so alive cars rolled past then an XUV 700 came in black colour i smiled. is is my dream car since ever. till yesterday i was dreaming that one day i will buy one. but today felt different.

i looked around saw a father dropping his child at home it reminded my childhood. even saw teenage girls Laughing and i even saw a mom buying Balloons for her child. it all reminded me of so many memories of mine.

The world was carrying on as if mine hadn't just fallen apart.

I wiped my eyes.

"Why am I crying?" I whispered to myself.

"It's just another fight... we'll all pretend it never happened tomorrow."

But it didn't feel like just another fight.

For the first time in my life...

...home had felt unfamiliar.

I walked faster.

My vision blurred again.

I was so busy arguing with memories that I never noticed the road.

A horn exploded through the air.

So loud.

So close.

My heart lurched.

i felt the ground Disappeared beneath me.

i felt nothing

Not darkness.

Just... silence.

I opened my eyes.

The sky.

Why am I looking at the sky?

It was beautiful.

Blue, with streaks of orange where the sun was disappearing.

i saw people around me i don't know any of them

they were shouting.

Someone was crying.

I couldn't understand the words.

I blinked.

"Did I fall?"

I placed my hands on the road and pushed myself up.

My body felt strangely light,

my ears rang.

Everything sounded distant, like I was underwater.

I stood.

Someone yelled,

"Don't move!"

Why?

I'm fine.

I took a step.

Another step. and another

then my legs didn't obeyed me.

i felt ground beneath me.

Faces were gathering around me.

Some were frightened.

Some looked as though they had seen a ghost.

Why are they looking at me like that?

I wanted to tell them not to worry.

someone told me to stay awake.

The strength disappeared without warning.

Stay awake.

I wanted to answer.

I really did.

But speaking suddenly felt harder than lifting a mountain.

The sky filled my vision again.

The clouds drifted so peacefully that it almost made me smile.

How strange.

The whole world was in chaos...

...yet the sky hadn't changed at all.

A quiet certainty settled into my heart.

For the first time since leaving home...

...I wasn't angry.

I wasn't afraid.

I wasn't thinking about the argument anymore.

I was thinking about Allah.

My lips trembled.

Every word came slowly, carried by a breath that felt smaller than the last.

"Ashhadu an la ilaha illallah..."

I paused, gathering what little strength remained.

"Wa ashhadu anna Muhammadan rasulullah."

The words left my lips gently, like they had been waiting there theall my life.

My eyes remained fixed on the sky.

It looked endless.

Beautiful.

Merciful.

...and surrendered everything I had been carrying.

this was my 5th attempt and i did not clear a single group in jan 26 in group 1 my score was 119 and now in may 26 it is 128. tax is my main problem.

my parents have lost all their hopes on me TBH i also don't have any motivation how to start again.

please tell me how to do everything again. how to motivate myself

itni mehant ke bad bhi nahi hua toh iski kya gurantee hai ki agli bar ho jayega this is the same thought which keeps repeating in my head.

in every past attempt my parents have some where motivated me but this time no one is talking to me. i feel like i have failed in my life i don't know what to do.

accounts:- mcq:16 descriptive:42 to 45

law:- mcq:20 descriptive: 31 to 33

tax:- mcq:14 descriptive: 26 to 28

Assalamu Alaikum.

I don't usually ask strangers for anything, but today I am asking for your duas.

I have been stuck in a cycle of giving the same professional exam over and over again. This was my fifth attempt. Sometimes I feel ashamed telling people how many times I have failed, and sometimes I wonder if I will ever move forward in life.

This time I worked hard. I truly gave it everything I had. Now I am waiting for the result and my heart feels heavy.

I just want to clear this exam, make my parents happy, and finally move on with my life. I am tired, but I am still trying.

Please make dua that Allah grants me success, forgives my shortcomings, eases my worries, and opens doors of goodness for me.

May Allah accept your duas and ease the difficulties of everyone reading this. Ameen.

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i have calculated my marks in accounts i am scoring 58 and in law its 53 and in tax its somewhere around 39 to 43

I’m not looking for motivation or comfort answers, just a straightforward analysis from people who understand ICAI checking trends.

If anyone can take a look and give a genuine opinion, I’d really appreciate it.

Thanks in advance.