Hi all. I am 32 yo, single man. Simple guy. Open to some good friendships. I enjoy company of kind and wise people. I am a good listener, a fun company and can be a fiercely loyal friend. I am gay btw. So I prefer Allies only.
There are too many theories about relationships, connection, and love.
People throw around fancy words, yet so often lack the most basic human empathy.
If you approach someone with a genuine heart, you're seen as needy.
We don't shame someone for being hungry. We understand that food is a basic human need. Yet somehow we've forgotten that love, affection, and human connection are just as fundamental. Wanting them is treated like a weakness, a character flaw. Detachment is admired. Distance is mistaken for strength.
Then comes the advice.
"Master hyper-independence."
"Learn to be alone."
"Don't need anyone."
So you do.
You master solitude. You build a life. You become self-sufficient. You stop expecting anything from others.
And when you've done all that...
You still seek connection.
Not because you need someone to complete you.
Not because you can't survive on your own.
But because no amount of self-sufficiency replaces being deeply known by another human being.
You don't need a crowd of people.
You need one person who sees you. Your inner world. Your fears, your joy, your contradictions, your silence and chooses to stay.
That isn't dependence.
It's one of the most deeply human experiences there is.
Maybe the real problem isn't that people have stopped needing love. It's that we've become better at pretending we don't.
Is love a reward granted only to those who tick certain boxes? Or only to those who've completely figured out their lives?
How exactly do you measure someone's worth?
You can become everything those boxes demand . successful, attractive, confident—and still feel unbearably lonely. Because people admire what you've become, not who you are.
The real challenge isn't becoming someone desirable.
It's finding the one person who looks at you and says,
"You don't have to earn it."
Someone who chooses to know you before they judge you. Someone who stays when there's nothing to gain.
Maybe that's what being truly seen feels like.
And perhaps love was never meant to be a prize for the exceptional. Maybe it was always meant to be the place where ordinary people no longer have to prove they deserve to exist.
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Sooo...
I always been staying away from the hooup culture except for few rare scenarios where I was too lonely and I can use some hugs.
But then it is pretty much emotionally flat and whenever I do it, I ask myself "this is it ?"
After a recent heart break 💔 I really wanted to just hold someone and then I met this person on gr.
Initially i thought it's because of anxiety. Then I thought may be the person isn't my type.
But then with the recent one, the guy is handsome, he made me feel comfortable and he is a sweet, kind person. Even though I was coming, it felt mechanical and flat.
But in general I like guys and someone close and familiar does feel good when hugging , caressing , stuff..
Also when I was talking to someone i liked, about intimate stuff that used to make me hard n wet without even knowing.
However i can never imagine about penetrative one because it feels cruel to give pain to someone nd also it
involves lot of prep. I always thought I can try it with my partner when I have one.
Soo am I doing something wrong ? Is that how hookups feel like or am I demi or on ace spectrum?
It makes me feel lonlier because I don't know if I will ever feel close to someone in a way that is fullfilling.
I really don't know who this creator is or what's his process like. But I really enjoyed this particular song.
Like he opened a different dimension of the song. I would like to see some real actors dancing to this.
It's literally like I am Cursed by someone.
However hard I try, whatever I do, Love never finds me.
My heart starts loving someone only when I get signals from them. But, if the other person has like a bucket of love, I give them an ocean. My love keeps consuming me.
First guy I fell for at a young age was my straight best friend.
Next guy, he was the one who initiated the conversation. Eventually turns out to be Asexual. I still continued giving him love but it obviously didn't work.
Then I fell in love with a straight married man. He's my mentor/boss at work. I kept loving him silently. I tried to be his good mentee. Which actually did good for my career and then eventually it became a platonic love. He then became my supportive ally.
After like a decade I fell in love with this guy and he just leaves me with worst heart break.
Does he love me ? I think yes. He just responded " I love you but I can't say it to you" when he is drunk. and when sober he wouldnt agree. He keep saying I am attached to you. I like you. But then we can't be life partners, we can't be friends, we can't be boyfriends, we can't be fwbs, all we can be is Chat buddies. We had a bad argument and I just have to let him go because eventually it became toxic for both of us. I am trying to beg him for love, he was trying to dodge it. He eventually became mean and said things like I am desperate and then he even said worse stuff even though I was pleading him not to say harsh things, try to calm down. He then brought up things I said in the past and said "this is the taste of your own medicine". All night we just had this exchange. We both are exhausted. I had to just block him as I felt there's no point. This is not the person I loved and even if I cross all the hurdles he will still have disagreements and he would never cross his rigid lines for anyone. So I have to finally block him with a heavy heart.
But then, man it hurts real bad.
There was one person who wanted to move to my city and date me and then he loses his limb in accident and drops the plan.
This is where I hate being gay and envy straight men.
Cause girls. They bring abundance into your life, they give a purpose, they given them babies.
But men, they don't even know what they want. All they know is fuk your brains and then leave you. If you show them a diamond they will throw it away and pick a stone.
Everyone I love eventually gives me pain.
All I want is to experience a healthy relationship but then it never comes to my life.