I don’t know how to feel about my father anymore

Heyyyy fam, just want some advice :’)

Also warning ahead, there’s mention of suicide here, nothing serious tho

Some information:

My father is emotionally absent most of my life, he opens a garage at home so he’s not physically absent

My father never talked a lot, I’ve always believed that his father was the same way and that’s why he’s like this (a few months ago, my theory was confirmed)

When I was younger (like lower than 10 years old) he was a bit more engaged with me, but now we barely talk day-to-day

Even if we does talk, it’s always me initiating the conversation

Before, I never cared, as I thought this is a norm

But right now in my life, I need a parent more than ever

My mother has always been emotionally unstable, she can be very loving and toxic at the same time, or switch back and fourth very quickly

For me she tried, but he didn’t. I‘m tired of my mother, and I resent my father, hate him even. Because he could’ve been a father to me, but he didn’t. I’ve heard stories of physically absent father, and I wonder if it would’ve been any different if my father was physically absent

Some days I just resent him, some days I hate him very much, some days I crave his attention

I know he cares about me and my siblings

I was told that he gave up his alcohol addiction for my family

I once asked him how he’d feel if I committed suicide, and while he just laughed it off to me, my mom (who works in another city and comes home most fridays) told me that he couldn’t sleep that night

I hate him so much sometimes, and when I heard he couldn’t sleep because of me, I was a bit happy

I want him to know how I felt about his absence, the nights I can’t sleep because how much that absence haunted me

I just need a stable father figure in my life, my older brother is not an option as I’m the more responsible sibling (Was told in multiple occasions by my mother and grandmother that I’m the responsible one) I looked up to one specific teacher, but I had to move to another city so we barely talk (I’m not really good with talking online with the people I know in real life) Any friend-father figure I look up to always ends

I’m just so tired and miserable, I see that man everyday but he probably would know about me less than a friend I met 1 week ago

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u/Lolila_da_tao — 27 days ago

A casual but confused fan

Hai, I’m a casual fan of Alien stage and I’ve been hearing abt School and Zombie Stage AU? Are they the same orr? i’ve been getting mixed answers from reading comments

I watched the latest Zombie Stage vid tho

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u/Lolila_da_tao — 28 days ago

[WIP] Sushi Penguin oc From adopt me!

I’m proud of the custom sushi plate tbh xD

Any acc suggestions? :3

u/Lolila_da_tao — 1 month ago

Please donate some ghosts :’) Takijg any amount any variant

I swore on my father’s honor ALL of them will be cherished. I can even send you a pic of them dressed up and named after you give them to me :(

I love these little marshmallows so much, and I can ensure you they will ends up in good hand

I lowk went broke offering for these little darlings, that’s why I’m here-

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

LF ghosts (could be the sticker version, N, M, F, R, reg)

offering anything that can be purchasable with in-game bucks! (even the ducky box coming this Friday for 500 bucks each) budget 240K!

can also do items in my inventory!

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

I NEED GHOSTS OR GHOSTS STUCKERS

I NEEED IT

a friend of mine is away on a trip and I wanna surprise them with pets they collect :ghosts

they can’t be on adm until the 25th, so I’m running out of time

i Swear on my father’s honor all ghosties will be cherished

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

Manifesting for sushi penguin, please send me some luck

It‘s so cute PLEASDEEEEESKS,SLSKMSSMDKKSLSS

I just love it so much that I’m at a loss for words

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

Modern Knight charcter design?

Idk how to explain but I want to make a knight oc, but his setting is in a modern world

Like, is there a way to make it less... fancy?

main part I wanna keep is probably the helmet

what occupation should he be? His clothing styles? :o

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u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

LF invisible wings and Sushi Skateboard! (I'm a pet wear collector heh)

I'm both a pet wear and toy collector :3

I can't seem to find these 2 tho, and I'm planning to put them on a sushi penguin so that's why I'm actively trying to get them :'D

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

Hai hai, this isn’t much but just something I hope to reach the Uplift team!

So!

1: Rarity Color Toggle in setting

I started playing Adopt Me around 2021, and have been playing off an on until now

When the Rarity color changed, I disliked it a lot

Adopt Me is one of my comfort space due to a personal reason, but it ties with how I was raised growing up, and one of the things I hate is changes. Not any changes but specifically changes in my comfort space

I’m fine with it now, but I believe some people isn’t. With that said however, I’ve saw a minority of some colorblind people saying that it actually helps them, so it won’t be great to just switch it back

That’s where the toggle comes in! It would be good for everyone (I believe)

2: Trade Request Requirements

Similar to how you can set who can trade you, I believe you should be able to set a requirement! I personally hates it when people kept sending me trade requests asking me to offer for their item, I think it’d be nice if we can toggle:

Trade Request Requirement

  • None
  • Offering for user’s item
  • Offered user’s wishlist
  • Both

3: Items Note Tab (by u/r7v8n )

“it's less useful but, i think it's nice to add notes to a pet (so you can mark who gave you the pet, what you're lf with it etc)

or traders could mark their value in the note

basically a little note tabs for pets”

more ways for them to get attach to their ghost army smh (lol)

4: Glitch Fixes

Lately there’s a few glitches going around but here’s one example I can think of rn:

Heavy pets (it makes you sink into the ground)

5: Please ban house cloner

I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATEEEEEEEEE HOUSE CLONERS. People doesn’t value houses because of them, every time I build, I fear it getting duplicate. I despise them with a burning passion

6: Item Finder

It might be nice to add a feature where you can check if somebody in the server are LF items you have in your inventory (that’s not locked) or if somebody is trading your wishlist

(maybe it’s just cuz items I’m lf is so hard to find sob… DOES ANYONE HAVE TEA PARTY SET PLEASEE)

That’s all I can remember rn, lmk if I can add smth to the list-

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u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago

The price is up for negotiation :)

I have no limits, I can learn new things right as I do the commission!

(example would be the Robloxian horse and grassy background)

u/Lolila_da_tao — 2 months ago